Remedy Book: 5

35-These Roses

When I got fight in these roses
I still can't be scared
I got stones in my pockets
I still can't be shared
I got you in my heart
To make this all harder
I will stay addicted to you
-These Roses-Gin Wigmore
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A/N: this song remindes me so much of Jemmy also pic of Endy above^

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Flawsy's P.O.V

Here Endy was, back at my house. Tears streaming down her face. I was honestly starting to become worried about her.

"I love Ian and he treats me so amazingly but Elizabeth is so beautiful but I feel like shes usuing me for her own pleasure." She ranted.

"You had sex with her?" I question. Endy shrugged. "I mean we really didn't have sex, I mean yes we've done dirty things I guess." She said whispering the last part.

"Well if this girl is only interested in you because you have 'sex' with her than maybe she isn't right for you." I told Endy truthfully.

I wish I could be a better big sister and give Endy advise but I can't. I dont know what its like being with a girl, even kissing or hugging a girl.

"Shes not using me for sex, she loves me."

I sigh.

"Endy if she loves you we wouldn't have seen her with another girl in the mall the other day... How old is this girl?" I asked. "Sixteen..." she mumbled.

"Okay Endless for one, mom would kill you for daiting a girl, or anyone, if they were sixteen, and for two you did not meet this sixteen year old girl at a dance so would you like to tell me the truth?" I asked.

"Haven't you learned that telling the truth only hurts everyone."

"How olds Ian?" I asked her. "Fourteen."

"Well in my opinion I think you should leave This girl, she Isnt right for you Endy."

"Well maybe Brandons not the right guy for you Flawsy." She said. I rolled my eyes.

"You're only saying that.."

"No im not, he pays for everything, even the child that isn't fucking his and you literally do nothing but fuck him.!"

"Woah! Im only looking out for you! Ive done that since you were born, don't bring Brandon into this cause youre pissed." I told her.

"You haven't been here for me! You had middle child syndrome till mom started going ballistic and Matty was born. Then you and Cherry were best friends and Matty had Mom and Dads attention while they were sobber and I became the forgotten kid!"

"God when did you start turning into mom?" I asked joking. "When I figured out Shes been lying to me!" She said.

"What?"

"Look Flawsy, we don't have the same dad."

I laughed thinking she was joking.

"Im serious!" She yelled.

"Mom told you this?"

She nods.

"Okay. Who is your dad then?" I asked. She shrugged.

"She didn't say. She told me shes sorry she treats me like im invisible, and that the reason she does is because I was a mistake! A drunken mistake that shouldn't have happened. She had me tested and lied to 'dad' saying that I was his....You me and her are the only people that know im not." She paused to sob.

"And now I think I'm going insane and im confused if im bi, straight, or lesbian because I'm confused about who I am!"

I sat there, my jaw slightly open. Wow, our moms a slut. Also why the fuck would she even tell Endy, a thirteen year old girl, something like that?

"Im sorry..." I said.

"Me too." She said getting up and walking to the door.

"Do you need a ride?" I asked. "Ill walk." She said. "Endy you cant walk fifteen minutes from here to home." I told her.

"Who said I was going home?" She asked before leaving.

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A/N: SORRY ITS SHORT BUT OMFG.

xCouis