Remedy Book: 5

16-To The End

She keeps a picture of the body she lends.

Got nasty blisters from the money she spends.

She's got a life of her own and it shows by the Benz

She drives at 90 by the Barbies and Kens

-My Chemical Romance-To The End

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Emmy's P.O.V

Alone. Thats how it started.

Me, alone and naked in a king size bed. A bed that wasn't mine, meaning the bed wasn't his.

Jack walks in.

He throws a bag at of pills at me.

"The guy said thanks, now leave so I can change my sheets." He said rather rudely. "Yeah whatever."

I grab my clothes that were scattered on the ground an walked out to my car. I get in and start bawling.

I just fucked a stranger after giving all my love to Joey again the night before. He was surely going to leave me.

I drove down the road a little to a house that was familiar to me now. It was big and one of the many houses Darcy owned around the world.

I knock on the door. She answers, baby in one hand and tea in the other.

She smiles "hey!" "Hey.."

"Did you get it?" She asked. "Yes have fun popping." I whispeared handing her the bag of pills. She told me to wait here while she went to her dads safe or whatever.

I held Jason in my arms. He looked exactly like my brother and it made me sad.

"Here is five thousand. Thank you so much." "Are you sure your dad won't notice five thousand dollars missing?"

"There is still five million in that safe, I doubt he'll miss it."

Money was tight right now, Joey hasn't finished his movie yet and my mom is starting to give me less and less each month.

Shes getting old.

"Alright, ill see you later."

I drove home, Joey and Flawsy's cars were in the driveway meaning everyone was more than likely home.

I walk in and set my purse on the table next to the door.

"Moma." Remmy squealed hugging my legs.

I picked her up and kissed her forehead. "Hows my favorite girl?" I asked. "Hungry." She giggles.

"Ill feed you guys. Where's sissy?"

She points to a corner where Miry is sitting peacefully.

"Hey Mir, are you hungry?" I asked. She looked up at me blankly. "Sissy?" She asked. I thought she was talking to Remmy but she was looking right at me.

"No baby, mommy." I said pointing to myself. 

"Mommy?" She asked. I nod. "Up?" She raises her arms so I pick her up. She points towards Flawsy's door and I walk in.

Flawsy's eyes meet Miry's.

"Mommy!!!" She said excitedly wiggling out of my grip. I let her down and she wraps her arms around Flawsy.

"What's happening?" I asked my heart breaking. "She thinks im her mom.." Flawsy told me.

"What why?"

"Well when you have sex one to many times and have one to many kids and then disappear from days on end, one of those many kids thinks one of those other kids gave birth to them."

"But Remmy recognises me."

"Yes also Remmy is one and a half and knows how to count to ten, Miry is one and a half and eats crayons."

I sighed taking Miry and Remmy into the kitchen to feed them.

I was making Cereal. I feel like thats the only thing they eat but to be honest its the only thing we have.

I was getting bowls out of the counter when I felt someones arms wrap around me. I jumped.

"Hey." Joeys voice was heard through my ears as I relaxed into his arms a bit.

"You okay you never get scared when I do this." He said. "Yeah im just a little jumpy today." I lied. Lying, its become a habit. I don't lie to everyone as much as I lie to Joey. I always feel like im not good enough for him at all.

"I need a shower, can you feed the twins please?" I asked tears begging to fall down my face. "Yeah sure." He kissed my cheek as I darted for the bathroom.

I locked the door and fell to the ground in tears.

Im selling my body, abusing it. A body That belongs to Joey, a body that he treated with care.

A Body that I can't stand to look out.

I took pills out of the cabinet and took four instead of two. I got into the shower and let the warm water melt my worries away.