Remedy Book: 5

17-Keep Holding On

I can't believe I'm standing here at all

I can't believe I made it this far

On my way with a smile on my face

See the top and I'm not falling off

And all I need is a microphone, I'll sing

About the things that have been hurting me

It's safe to say, all the kids, I relate

To their lives so just keep holding on

-Keep Holding On-Falling In Reverse

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Flawsy's P.O.V

Rushing hadn't stopped calling me in over two months.

I was now six months pregnant and wanted no relation with him.

He didn't deserve to even look at me. He made me sick to my stomach.

Who cheats on their pregnant girlfriend after they just said they'll never leave her side? Yeah bull fucking shit.

I expected my life to be a movie, but it wasn't. Honestly my life was fucked up to the max.

I missed my sister. I knew if she was living she'd be pissed at me.

Or maybe if she was still living me and Rushing would've never had sex. My baby would've never been conceived. I'd be graduating with my class and enjoying my senior year with my friends that seemed to disappear since I got pregnant.

Rushings friends girlfriends, or the girls they fucked every once in awhile, were trying to get ahold of me. I've made friends with a few, one inpituclar. Her name was Amber and she was with Justin, a guy Rushing has been friends with his whole life.

A guy that had sex with Cherry one to many times, or so he claims and Rushing believes. For some reason I believe it too.

Amber is pregnant aswell and her and Justin aren't on good terms. She told me to keep my child away from Rushing, he was no good.

She had seen all the bad sides of Rushing and Id only seen him when je was kissing Cherry or driving his train into my station.

Matty walked into my room unexpectedly making me lose my train of thought.

"Come in?"

"Moms dead." He said tears streaming down his face. "What the fuck?" I asked.

"Shes out cold or something the twins are freaking out Flawsy what do I do?"

I sighed walking into her bedroom. I saw a straw and white substance om her night stand.

This bitch has got to be fucking kidding me right now.

"Mat wheres dad?" "He left to take Endy to a friends."

I just realised Matty was seven and our mom was knocked out from snorting to much fucking coke.

Wow I love my life.

"Ill just call 911 while you call dad." I told him. He nods.

"911 whats your emergency?" "Yeah my mom just ODed or whatever and she like won't wake up." I said not knowing how to word my sentence.

"Are you the only one home ma'am?" "No my seven year old brother and one year old sisters are here."

"Daddy." I heard Mattys voice whine.

"Okay we will send ambulances over as soon as we can."

"Thank you." I hung up. "Wow mom, you've really out done yourself this time...."

Two days later.

Emmy's P.O.V

I woke up in a hostpital room. Great.

I look over to see Joey. "Great you're awake." I use all the strength in my body to sit up.

"What happened?" "Well my darling you snorted coke and passed out."

"Oh Yeah....fuck Joey please don't be mad at me!" I said. "Im not...I am mad at the fact that our kids got taken from us!" He raised his voice.

"What the hell? Where are they? They can't leave Flawsy is pregnant, the twins are still breast feeding, Matty has soccer and Endy has camp in like a week where are they?"

"Sawyer said he'd watch them until I could figure out some way to get us out of this."

I looked up at him tears in my eyes.

"Flawsy and Rushing hate eachother though." I told him. "Emmy you arent seeing the point! Our kids got taken from us because you can't get off drugs! I've figured out a lot in the past two days you've been asleep. You've been dealing, stealing, smoking and taking illegal drugs. You fucked a guy just so Darcy could get her fix, Emmy thats so in-fucking-sane!"

"Im sorry!"

"Look, the only way to get our kids back is if I send you to rehab. So once you're well thats where you'll be staying."

"Haha funny." "Em im being serious."

"Joey...I can't go to rehab."

"You can and you will. Do it for the kids!"

I thought about them, all their little faces and green-blue eyes that sparkled everytime I came home after being gone for a while.

"Okay..... Ill do it."

"Okay, well I'll be here every step with you and ill always be here for you but....."

"But?"

"I can't be with you anymore Emmy. I just can't."

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A/N: tears.

If you were wondering how to pronounce the kids names here is how cause I get asked how to alot.

Endy: Indie

Flawsy: Flossee

Matty: I hope you know this one.

Miry: Mery (its like Mary but with er instead of ar.)

And I hope you know how to pronounce Remmy.