Remedy Book: 5

23-Quote

I found this quote on google so idk who its by. It remindes me a hell of a lot of Jemmy so please take time to read it.

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I will never forget how you smelled that day, like your mom did your laundry and like you wanted me to want you and brethe you in until I got light headed and had to sit down.

I will never forget the way you looked at me, like you could sort through all the clutter in my head. I will never forget how you sounded, soft and sudden and illuminate just like your eyes when you said I was different. And that was the exact moment I let myself feel again.

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Emmy's P.O.V

I heard a loud knock on my door. It came repeatedly, one knock after the other. Even when I shouted "im coming." It wouldn't go away.

I opened the door.

"What?" I said rather rudely. I see a women, about my age. A strange expression on her face.

"Im sorry im looking for Joey." She told me. "Yeah? Me too." I said. "Do you know where he is?"

"New York."

"Oh god.."

I look at her worried.

"Is he okay?" I asked. "Yes of course, hes just there looking for me and im here looking for him."

Now I was confused.

"Im sorry who are you?" I asked. "Carissa, I've been married to Joey for about five years, im just looking for him so he can sign some papers for me."

My heart dropped into my stomach.

"Wait you've been married to Joey? My Joey? As in Joey Graceffa?" I asked not wanting to understand whatever she was saying. She nods, "yes that Joey. Who might you be?"

"Emmy. Im also his wife and the mother of his five children." I told her. "He has five children?"

"Yes and they're all worried sick about where hes been. But once I tell them Hes chasing after you im sure they won't care anymore."

"Oh god. Im so sorry, you don't have to tell them that, don't tell them that. Itll just break their little hearts."

I felt a lump in my throat growing. This was all breaking my heart.

"When was the last time you saw Joey?" I asked. "About thirty or so days ago, he said something about divorce I don't know."

Tirty days ago I checked into rehab. Thirty days ago he left me. Thirty days ago he told me he loved me. Thirty days ago he was lying.

"I don't believe you're his wife though, I mean Joey isn't that type of person." She told me. This bitch. "I've been with Joey for almost twenty years of my life. I don't think I believe you. Where even did you meet Joey?"

"About six years ago, he was at a bar with some guy. He was drunk and we slept together. I kept seeing him over the year. Then we got married, he was drunk and it was a simple courthouse marriage but it still meant the world. Now he wants to divorce me."

"He probably wants to divorce you cause everytime you see him he has to he drunk to even look at you." I told her. This pissed her off.

"Whens the last time he ever even looked your way?" She asked. "I know you Emmy, he's told me about you, he didn't tell me about his five children he had with you, but after he called me Emmy for the eighth time I started getting curious. I aksed about you and he said some good things."

She paused.

"Some not good things.."

"Well I've never known of you." I told her. "Well he obviously loves you to much to break your little heart."

With that she left. Tears fell down my face as there was knot in the pit of my stomach and lump in my throat that wouldn't go away.

Maybe I didn't know Joey like I thought I knew Joey, maybe I never would.

I wanted him to go home so I could scream and yell at him but then again I wanted him to stay right where he was so I didn't have to face him. So he wouldn't have to give me that look of such disgrace. The look that makes me regret ever saying I love you.

Everything Joey does makes me regret saying I love you.

The problem with Joey and I is that that we love eachother like brother and sister, like we're best friends, but fuck eachother like husband and wife and thats not how a marriage should be.

But his life with this other girl was all under his own control. Even if he was to drunk to remeber his own name He still should've known I existed. I shouldve of been the little voice in his head screaming "no".

But I wasn't

I should have never let him go and get drunk and not come home till early the next morning.

But I did.

I should've loved him like a wife and give him all my love like he was the only man that has ever meant anything to me.

But I didnt. But Joey is the only man I care about

And I will fight for him.