What have I done

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Shawn POV

What have I done. I can't believe I did that shit to my....true love. I wish I could just control my anger. Flashbacks started swarming through my mind of what I've done to Mia.

Tears were now streaming through my face. I remember her screaming stop, and crying her eyes out. But I still kept on hurting her.

Mia must hate me now. I was currently laying in bed. I couldn't sleep, eat, drink, nor think straight. I love her so much she's my everything. My world if I had to take a bullet for her, without hesitation I would.

I just couldn't believe what Nash did during class. Now your probably wondering 'how the hell does he know' well to answer your question the whole school knows about that shit.

I hated the fact knowing Nash had his filthy hands all over MY girl. Mia Kingsley is mine. I fucked up big time.

Tomorrow at school I'll try everything for her to forgive me. Anything.

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I woke up by my stupid alarm clock screaming for me to get up. I quickly took a shower and got dressed into black jeans that hung low, and a black t-shirt, I than quickly put on my Jordan's thanks headed downstairs out the door.

Reaching school I checked to see if Mia's motorcycle was parked at her usual spot. Nothing. Maybe she walked.

I headed to class on time to see if she was there nothing. Fuck fuck fuck.

I can't believe this. I ran and ran and ran.

I looked up to see the love of my life's house. I rung the doorbell but there was no answer. I rung it a couple of more times but still nothing worry and guilt flushed my body.

I ran down the steps and headed toward the back of her house and noticed a tree that led me to a window, I didn't need to to see if the window was locked or not, being a gang leader I knew how to open many things.

I climbed up the latter and reached the window. It was open, I smiled and made my way through the window. I looked around noticing one direction Posters everywhere....this must be Amanda's room I thought.

I headed out the door and noticed a room next to the room I just got out of. I opened it to see a tiny figure laying in bed, Mia.

Her hair covered her face. I moved it and guilt flooded my body. I noticed bruises covered up most of her face and a black eye.

I dropped down to the floor and started sobbing uncontrollably. I looked up to see Mia stirring in her sleep. She opened her eyes and sat up on her bed she than looked to her right which where I was located at, her eyes made contact with mine Mia's eyes quickly widened and fear flashed through them, she quickly ran to the corner of the room mumbling "please don't hurt me" over and over rocking her self back and forth.

I on the other hand looked shocked, felt guilty and letting more tears slip. What have I done. I ran over to her and pulled her in a tight hug. She flinched from my touch.

"Mia baby I'm so sorry love" I whispered in her ear pecking her lips.

"P-please leave m-me alone" she said in a shaky tone. God I'm so stupid I fucked up so bad.

"Mia please just give me a chance I know I messed up...I just can't control my anger but I'll try just for you...I'm so sorry I love you mia" I said kissing her neck.

She pushed me away and got up. I whimpered, I felt so empty without her.

"No shawn, leave me alone I'm no punching bag nor yours. You ruined me I'm broken, you slapped me punched me and beat me to the point where I wish I was dead, leave now and don't come back" I stood up and walked towards her but she stepped back.

"Don't come near me" she said

"Baby please I'm sorry, just give me a Chance I love you, the minute I first saw you walk in to the school I knew you were the one, it was love at first sight. Every time you touch me my body aches for more, I feel the need to protect you, every time we kiss this may sound like I'm gay but I feel fireworks Mia...damn fireworks...I love you Mia"

She looked at me her eyes were glossy, Mia shook her head and motioned to the door for me to leave.

"If you really did love me you wouldn't have laid a finger on me or call me names that hurt like a bitch leave" anger rushed through me, I just poured my heart out and she just rejects me on the spot. Fine. She wants to play it that way I will too.

I smirked evilly and pushed her up against the wall. "Your so right, who would lay a finger on a person they love...well Mia I don't love you it was just a lie to get in your pants...your just a waste of time, I mean their are way better, useful , and hotter girls out there....your just pathetic, I can't believe I wasted my time with you" I said with so much venom in my voice.

Hurt, pain , and shock filled her eyes. She shook her head.

"Y-you...you don't think that your lying I know you are" she said tears slipping out of her eyes. I wanted so bad to hug her and tell her how much I loved her and everything I said was all a lie, but was afraid she might let me go.

"Oh babe it's 100% true" I said than left just like that.

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