Absolute Obedience

Chapter Twenty-Six

"Toby wake up."

There were so many voices calling out to me, but what did it matter? My head felt much too heavy to care, my eyes glued closed. I didn't want to respond and I didn't want to wake up.

My body hurt, my wolf felt lost within my mind. It was easier to stay asleep.

But.

Why was I sleeping again? Maybe I should wake up, Alpha didn't take too kindly to me sleeping in. He didn't like it when I was tardy to my chores, plus if Beta was out training he'd miss breakfast and I might get to eat. Bread sounded nice. I should just be a good Omega and follow the rules.

"Is he smiling? Toby!"

That voice again, it was annoying. I didn't recognize it, maybe I should've, however, I needed to wake up. I didn't want to be punished. I had to be a good boy.

I tried to move my hand but it didn't budge, my eyes refused to open and my body remained unmoving. It was an odd sensation. I wasn't being restrained but I still couldn't move.

"Tessa!"

"Kain, leave!"

Kain? Tessa? The names sounded familiar but I couldn't place a face to either. I wondered what they were so concerned about? They couldn't have been worried about me, I was nothing. Only Alpha cared. He was kind. It felt like a long time since I'd seen him. I could feel an ache building within my chest. Where did he go? He never left the pack for so long before, I wonder if that's why Beta isn't around.

Why did I have sex with him?

I felt shocked for a moment. When did that happen? Alpha would surely punish me for such an act. He didn't like such lewd relationships especially when it involved me. Alpha always said that I needed to have a mate before doing such a deed. Would he be disappointed? Angry? Why did I do that? I felt dirty.

My heart skipped, and I felt a lump start to form in my throat. Would Alpha forgive me? I didn't mean to dirty myself. It was a mistake.

Mistake.

Oh.

That's right.

I tried to reach out to my wolf and felt him back up within my mind. His anguish was uncontrolled, his despair, mind-numbing. How had I not noticed sooner?

It was dead.

Gone.

I felt the pit in my stomach grow. My wolf's grief taking over. It hurt.

"Toby don't cry."

I felt the tears, felt the heartache. Why? Why had it been him? Why did it have to happen like that? It wasn't fair.

Now I remembered it all.

Kain, Avalon, Ellis, Pierce... I could see them in my mind. Beta, his scent still clung to my memories, his hands, lips, claws. All of him. I still could feel it.

I couldn't feel it anymore though.

The second heartbeat, gone.

I succeeded.

The verification of it felt like a knife turning into my heart. Was it regret? I didn't know. I didn't regret ending a life that had been doomed from the start. I didn't regret it. I didn't.

I couldn't.

The Moon would have been harsh. She would have ended its life in a far harsher way then I had. She would have played with it, punished it. She gave me that life to punish me. I wouldn't allow it to live such a torturous existence.