Lea's POV
"What do you think? Mom? Bagay ba sa akin?"ako
I asked for the third time before release some air on my mouth. Inialis ko ang tingin ko sa salamin so I can look back on Mom who's busy reading a newspaper.
She looks at me again at prenteng humiga sa kama ko habang nakangiwi.
"Pang-ilang beses na tanong mo na 'yan, Carmen. Kung gusto mo maghubad ka na lang"Glenda
I hissed and stamp my feet on the ground before look on my reflection again. Baka kasi hindi bagay sa akin, ma-turn off si Aga. Baka hindi na ako sexy sa paningin niya or even beautiful, but he said I'm gorgeous on his eyes always. Oo, tama, I'm gorgeous.
I frowned. Bakit ba kasi I felt so insecure about my feature and body figure today?!
I lazily sit on my bed. Maaga pa naman and 6 PM ang dinner date namin. I'm actually excited, kahapon pa, but I lose my confident today.
"Carmen, tumayo ka na riyan. Ganyan talaga kapag buntis, but take it from me, I will not say this just because I'm your Mother, you really look so sexy in that dress that you bought"Glenda
She stood up and walk toward my direction. She stopped in front of me so I look up to her. She guide me to stood up.
Ibinaba niya ang suot ko upang mawala ang gusot. She also fix the strap of it and get the new shoes that I also bought yesterday. Sabi naman ng OB-gynecologist ko I could still wear pumps before the second trimester of my pregnancy since hindi rin naman maselan ang pagbu-buntis ko.
I wear it and look at her na nakatingin sa salamin kaya agad din akong tumingin doon. I crease my forehead and look at her who's in front of me as I noticed something.
"Mom, why are you always wearing a dress kahit nasa bahay tayo?"ako
I flip the hair na humaharang sa mata ko at muling tinignan ang repleksyon ko sa salamin, bagay naman pala sa akin. I smile and thanks Vice in my mind who suggested this dress.
"Ito kasi ang gusto ng Daddy mo na palagi kong suot. Kilala mo naman 'yon, he hates it if a person doesn't look good and not look presentable on what they're wearing. Kaya, ayan, mas gusto niyang nakasuot ako ng bestida especially if it's fitted"Glenda
I watch her who's also looking in the mirror at inaayos ang kulay luntiang bestida na suot. We may not be in good terms when I was young but I know that Mom is hiding some kindness through her heart. Kahit naman ganoon, the only wish that I have for me and Mom ay ang magkaroon ng magandang relasyon.
I really envied those children na sobrang mahal ng Ina nila when I was in preschool and kindergarten. Hatid sundo at kukumustahin sila ng Ina nila after the day and I've never experienced that kay Mommy. Kaya when I was in highschool, if she can act cold in me as if I'm not her daughter, I can do that too, colder than her.
Then I was in college nang matuto akong suwayin at sagutin siya, minsan na nga lang umuwi sa amin sa States pakikialaman pa ako. Kaya noong magka-isip ako, I never hoped na magiging katulad kami ng isang normal na mag-Ina.
Bumuntong hininga ako at pinigilang maiyak, maybe I just remember that kasi sobrang dami nang nangyari sa amin and we're obviously not like those old days today.
I look at Mom and ask something
"Mom, did you really love Dad?"ako
Hindi ko rin alam kung bakit ko natanong 'yon, it just slipped out on my tongue.
Akala ko hindi niya sasagutin ang tanong nang tumingin siya sa akin. She faked a smile at niligpit ang hanger na pinag-sabitan ng damit na suot ko kanina maging ang kahon ng sapatos.
