Demi Has Dynamite

Part 42

Blaire POV.

Demi is just about here she is bringing me some spare clothes thankfully and they are trying me on non-drowsy pain relief so I can rehearse I can't belief that parker stayed the whole night, I told him to go home this morning but he refuses, I'll have to make him leave tonight , his back is hurting from the way he slept. I have eaten the breakfast they have brought I think that is what you can call it anyway it was disgusting.

"stretch that breaky was gross" I say scrunching my nose making him laugh at me and me to pout.

"I know squirt it looked bad, once Demi gets here, I'll go and get some decent food for us." He says and I nod I don't really like eating but I'm not going to cause any more stress on Parker and Demi I refuse to.

Demi walks in with a change of clothes for me I told her not to bring any for Parker as I want him to go home. She also has my guitar and a smile on her face. She comes over giving me a kiss on my forehead.

"how ya feeling snug" she ask placing a quick kiss on Parkers lips making me smile a little at them.

"I feel ok a little pain but nothing I can't handle" I say and she nods before turning to Parker.

"ok mister you go to my apartment have a shower, get some sleep and cook this girl some awesome food, we have rehearsal and a massive week ahead, we have 4 songs to practice and work out." Demi says and I feel my eyes bug out of my head a little. 4 songs how, what, this is going to be interesting.

Parker finally goes not before ensuring I was ok and I told him to make me some good food.

"ok missy you sure your up for this" she asks and I nod determined I don't think I really have much choice I have 4 songs. Demi goes on to explain that I have 2 songs to perform, one of which will be my winners single if I win so demi wants to use one of my own songs, we also perform with another singer which demi says she has organized and I will meet said person tomorrow but she won't tell me and also a full group performance of the finals 12. Today Demi wants to focus on the 2 songs and work on mine. We facetime the band as I think of what one of my own songs I should sing. I don't want anything that is to personal but then I remember that everyone knows my story anyway so it doesn't really matter to much.

" so I was thinking and it is up to you, would you like to sing one of my songs I was thinking either warrior or skyscraper, I was thinking now the world knows your story I thought that we could theme your songs around surviving, warrior type thing" she explains I bit the inside of my cheek, I am far from a warrior and I really don't want to wreck Demi's songs at all she looks at me her face full of hope but I really don't think it is a good idea.

"I can't, I don't want to wreck your songs and well I'm not really a warrior and skyscraper is a massive song." I say I can hear the doubt in my voice and the doubt that fills my body.

"you need to get dressed bub the cameras will be here soon. And I don't think for one second you will ruin my songs you are a talent beyond anything that I have ever seen or heard. Ok and secondly" she says pausing and grabbing my face "secondly Blaire you are the biggest warrior I know, you survived things beyond imaginable, you came out on top baby girl" she says and I feel tears fill my eyes but I don't let them fall, I have far from come out on top, I am scared, I am broken, I can't sleep, I have flashbacks, I feel like the world is out to get me. the only way I have come out on top is I got away but how long will that be for. She is looking at me still holding my face waiting for something between gritted teeth I say I will do skyscraper.

After the nurse helps me get changed into a dress which is one of the only things that is easy enough to wear plus, I have a drain coming out of my ankle still to drink the excess fluid. Demi works on my makeup as I go through my note book that she brought in for me to find one of my own songs to sing. These are all so personal and I know I am struggling to even think of letting people in, people won't even like it.