𝕘𝕚𝕣𝕝𝕪-𝕓𝕠𝕪 ~ 𝕛𝕒𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕣𝕪

never

july 6th

"jack. jack. jack. wake up. the house is on fire. uhh. zach died" syd shakes me

"THANK GOD" i say rolling out of bed

"damn be hurt you that bad" she says and i roll my eyes

"what is it" i ask

"uhh come down stairs" she says and i follow her

i go downstairs following her and there my mom is with bags.

"mom what's going on" i ask scratching my head

"i'm moving, i have a job offer for about 6 months in florida" she says with a smile

"since when" i ask

"like 4 months ago...but i'll be coming back all the time if i can to see you and sydnie but you guys are old enough to be alone..." she says

"whatever...bye i love you" i say and walk off

i go upstairs and change and come back down and tell sydnie i'm leaving and i'll be back later tonight.

i get in my car and turn on my music lie to me By 5 seconds of summer comes on and i start jamming out to it.

reminds me of zach to be honest.

i just drive

i don't know where i'm going but i just drive

just listening to the music

BEEEEP

i slam on my breaks at the railroad tracks

my hand goes against my chest as i start breathing heavily

"i almost died" i mumble out

the train drives off and i cross the tracks

i realize that life can change in a split second, everything can be gone in a snap.

i just need to live life.

with or without zachary dean herron

••

i drive to jonah's because i know corbyn is with christina

"jo" i say knocking on the door

someone opens it

"..jack..." zach says

"i'll go" i say

"wait!!" he yells

"what zach" i say in a moody way

"i'm so sorry"  he says

"zach that's not what i need. i'm done zach." i say dropping my arms by my sides in breathing out

"but jack-"

"no zach i'm serious this is to much for me" i say

"jack"

"is that all you have to say is jack seriously zachary" i say once again

"no it's not you just i don't know what to say that's the problem i try but words won't escape my mouth. i am sorry wether you want to hear it or not. you mean everything to me jack. always," he says but i roll my eyes

"i learned today that everything can change in a split second...life means so much more than worrying about a breakup. you meant everything to me zachary dean but now you don't. i'm done i'm done for good. if you want me too i'll deal with you when we are all hanging out. but besides that i'm done with you. so not always and forever i guess that was a lie...." i say and turn around to walk off

"i love you jack robert avery, always and forever"

i get in my car and place my hands on the steering will, i lay my head on it and just breath.

i haven't done a lot of that lately and i need to.

•••

august
senior year

❤️
@jackavery
to all the ones that didn't believe in me, bitch i proved you wrong. i've been boxing and i'm a whole new person. i'm not dealing with anyone's shit this year. peace out junior year and what's up senior year. can't wait to be outta this hell hole. i'm a new and better person. :)

~

@jonahmarais
proud of you brother

@gabbieegonzalez
you look amazing

@corbynbesson
FIGHT ME MAN

@danielseavey
you look amazing broski

@christinamarie
i love you :)))

@tatedoll
aww can't wait for this year

@jackavery
thanks guys!!

@zachherron
i'm proud of you.

•••

the first day of senior year.

i get to be here with my bestfriends minus one.

but i get in my car after telling sydnie bye and drive to my last year of school.

i pull in to the school, get out, and walk towards my friends

we say hi and stuff and head inside

"i have insert classes here" i say

"me too.." zach says

great all my classes are with him

i head to my classes zach falling behind

i sit down and he sits right next to me

we start class and don't even look at eachother

i can keep on saying i hate him and never want him again but i'd be lying.

i do want him, i do miss him, but i can't be with him he's put me through so much. maybe to much. i've had a month to think about this, it's the only thing i do think about, it's him.