Here I Stand (BWWM) (AMBW) [COMPLETED]

Chapter fourty nine: We need to talk

Rajiv's pov

After the recital, we went home I texted Aaron in advance so he could order some food, then I asked him if he could spend the night elsewhere so Isa could have some intimate time with the kids.

He accepted reclutlantly, as if I'd let him near Isa again, I have been foolish enough.

During the entire meal Isa stared at Adaline, "Mommy, what?" Adaline asked confused, Isa was brought back into the reality, "Hm? Ah! Nothing is just that I'm so lucky to have a daughter like you, you're so samrt, and you're kind and you eat so well, and you call me mama" I started to cry with Isa, her excuse were hormones since she was still breastfeeding but mine; mine was that in all those years I had never seen Isa as happy as when she looked at her daughter.

"How do other kids call their mommy?" "The same, princess, just the same" I said caressing Adaline, "Mommy why are crying? Are you hurt? Do you want me to kiss your boo- boo, I can hold you while it hurts" she said getting closer to Isa.

After bath time we all laid on the bed, Ezra having his last meal before sleeping, and started to tell the story about how how Addy was adopted. I took out a map and showed her, the country she was born in, "Guess what this is?" Isa encouraged her, "Africa?" Addy tried cluelessly, "Nope, this is where you were born, this is Vietnam. You don't remember, do you? When you were tiny like Ezra that's when we met, mommy was so scared but you always smiled especially when eating, you'd wink at me whenever I fed you, and just look at me with your big eyes" Isa spoke.

"Even though you didn't come out of Mamma's tummy, you have my broad wide shoulders so that you shall bear life's hardships without ever feeling discouraged, and the smile of both your mommies, as a promise that no matter how hard life gets, the sun will rise again, and your eyes of your ancestors filled with wisdom and strength. You Adaline Thompson, you're my daughter, and I love you so much" she concluded.

Just like that every one fell asleep.

Isa's pov

You know the term "average", about what expectations it gives people, this word has crushed me every time I encountered it. People expect a lot from you, and even when you finally fulfil these absurd standards, you may get like something is missing or is just isn't right. My family wanted me to get married and then have kids, that's what everyone does.

I don't know about that, but since this is my life can't I be something more than a some data put on a diagram? Can I do what I want? With my own time?

I sat on the bed while checking Adaline getting dressed, "Mamma, ho fatto" (I'm done) she recalled me, I smiled at her sweet little face, and got up, "Let's go then" I said strapping up Ezra on the baby carrier.

Passing by our guest room I took a glance of Aaron, sleeping. I was then finally able to take a breath... I didn't how to talk, how to behave, how to be me.

Adaline kissed me, before entering her school, "Mommy loves you" I said back.
After dropping off Ezra I went to work, my safe house...

At the E.D I assisted a family, of four during one its son appendix surgery. They were arguing all along, "I told you it was serious, see." "I didn't know he said his stomach hurt I couldn't have imagined". "See, this is why I can't trust you" Mrs. Clayton said unsatisfied, the husband gave me an apologetic look, "Mom" their three years old rugged his mommy pants.

I didn't want that for my kids: a broken marriage, but at the same time I wanted them to be as happy as healthy as they could. One thing I knew by watching my mother: not being loved by a lover, makes you forget what love is, makes you bitter, makes you old.