Here I Stand (BWWM) (AMBW) [COMPLETED]

Chapter twenty eight: No Touchy please

Isa's pov

"I... I am sorry I didn't know" he apologised, I smiled at him making him understand everything was cool.

"Can I still hold you?" He asked " why do you want to?" "Because I like you...and don't wanna see you falling apart". "How do you know?" I asked him, "Your eyes ..." Aaron had gotten closer and was staring at me in the eyes.

"So... Are you gonna tell me about them?" his tone was reassuring but no matter how hard I tried I couldn't. "I will tell you about them when, everything stops hurting..." I replied. Aaron kissed my cheek, then brushed his nose against my skin, again and again, urging me to allow him to kiss me. So I let him do so, I let him kiss me, and somehow during our kiss, I started to enjoy the warmth of his embrace.

Our lips kept battling each other, his demanding more, mines just trying to keep up (since I was still new to that kind of things). Aaron's cold hands reached my singlet "What are you doing?" I asked him shivering "I... Sorry, did I hurt you?" he immediately retracted from me "No, it's just your hands are really cold" I confessed,

Aaron smiled at me feeling reassured, I then took his hands in mine, trying to warm them up. "Let me warm them up", Aaron's gaze was still focused on me "What?" I faced him "Nothing, you just are so beautiful" he said lost in his thoughts, "Yeah, you're definitely sleepy, come on, let's go to bed" I joked standing up.

Aaron's pov

While she was changing in the bathroom, I couldn't help but to peek at her. She had a very muscular body, after I too was done freshening up, we laid down on the beds, both in separate rooms she turned on the baby monitor and put away her glasses.

"Your eyes are very deep, and charming" I whisperedloud enough to be heard in the other room, "You should go to bed" she yawned "How can I when I have you in the room next to me?" I spoke wanting to pull her body to mine.

So I went to her room and

I then captured her lips in kiss, which she responded to, her skin was soft like silk and shiny as a diamond, I wanted more of her I just couldn't get myself to leave her side. Rajiv had pitifully fallen on the inflatable matters, leaving space in her bedside.

When she pulled back, to catch her breath I trailed kisses down her neck, "stop.." she freezed, " what?" I asked "I am a virgin, and would like to keep it that way" she said closing her eyes.

It took me a while to register what I had just witnessed to, the girl I was dating was a virgin, ergo had never had sexual intercourse with someone. "Oh, wow ok" I blabbered nervous, "Sorry, I shou-. Yes, I should have told you that earlier, but your lips feel so good on mines, and the way you rub your hands on my cheeks makes me lose it, but I really don't want to have sex" Isa rambled nervously, "That actually explains a lot of things" I thought out loud, "like what?" "The fact that you love children so much, but you're not ready to have a biological one, your change of attitude every time I am kissing you, or we are in the proximity of a bed..." everything suddenly added up, "You do know that having sex is not the only way you can get pregnant, right?" "Oh, yeah. Of course. How did you manage to stay a virgin? If I can ask" it was dark yet I managed to detect how embarrassed he felt by the way he retracted his body, that moments ago was in near proximity of mine.

"It wasn't hard at all for me, I was quite fat so unattractive for most Italian guys, and I deeply despised dating, and relationship in general because of my family history"
We went on to talk till she fell asleep, and even then she kept laughing and talking in her sleep. If someone else had done that I would have freaked out, but when Isa did those things, it just made me fall in love more and more. Eventually he left even though I had to kick him multiple times.

The morning after I got up to shower, seeing Adaline was awake I took her out of her crib, "Buongiorno, princess" (Good morning) I greeted her, I was slowly overcoming the fear I had for kids, "Shall we have some formula? Yeah?" I proposed going in the kitchen to prepare her bottle, Adaline still sleepy, waited in silence on my hip.

Once I was done I gave her the bottle, and put her down, she grinned and said "Thak".

Have you ever been to the moon? Have you ever accomplished something so great that makes you cry from joy? That's how I felt, is so complicated and difficult that you give up on describing it with words, you think "after this I can die in peace, for this is one of the purest and greatest joy I will ever experience as human being".

As happy as I was I couldn't help but to sing in the shower.

Isa's pov

I woke up hearing Aaron sing in the shower, "Mamma awake" beamed Adaline who had walked up to my bed, "Good morning", "All done" she passed me her empty bottle.

I got Adaline dressed up, and gave her breakfast, then changed her.
When Aaron was done with his shower he went in my room to grab some clothes, while doing so he accidentally dropped his lower body's towel, leaving him butt naked.

I stared at that butt, it was so perfect and symmetric it reminded me of a Greek deity's sculpture. "Like what you see?" He smirked running his fingers through his still wet hair, I immediately turned around as he was about to face me still naked.

"Put something on, please" I hid my face in my hands, "Ok, I am covered" he confirmed laughing amused by my reaction. Aaron then approached me, "Can I have my morning kiss?" He pouted like a baby, I satisfied him with a peck on his cheek "Come on, we are going to be late".

Do you know that sensation someone who is a tiny bit of perfectionist feels when completing something just like they wanted, the margin of imperfections or errors you are content with it... Till that moment, if you have OCD, or are a perfectionist your life may have been filled with those moments, in which you notice something... An imperfection, a hair, an error, that neurotypical people never see, nor care for it...

That is how I felt, my new romantic relationship with Aaron made me feel ecstatic, but the fact that Adaline was growing accustomed to him, made me anxious.

I was not looking for a paternal figure for my daughter, and the fact that the roles might get mixed up just because I was dating Aaron made me extremely uncomfortable.

"What do you think?" "I think you are overreacting, Isa" Rajiv sipped his second mug of coffee, as it was it only source of energy which it was indeed true, I shook my head, "No, I am not. I don't want him, too close to Adaline, you never know..." I was officially going paranoid, but as I said those words I didn't think so "Look at you on mama bear, mode all protective and stuff..." Rajiv hyped me up, and distracted me at the same time.

"Am I overthinking it?" "Absolutely" "By the way why don't you let Aaron stay in your flat, you never use it anyway" "Why? The lovey-dovey phase is over already?" he provoked, "No, what? It just doesn't feel like something I should be doing..." "What is it that hard to stop yourself already?"

"How do you know?" Rajiv winked me, finishing his coffee and left.