I'm currently getting ready to go to the mall with the girls before my big date with jahseh later, I'm excited and I'm shitting bricks at the same time.
I really like jah and I know we aren't officially together just yet but I want this date to be perfect.
Mainly because it will be my first one.
Back in miami my father wouldn't let me have a boyfriend and he would be mad over protective if a boy just wanted conversation which was annoying asf.
He hated the fact that jah was my bestfriend.
But now i know why he was acting this way.
He was threatened by him because of his underlying feelings for me.
Which still fucks me up mentally till this day and I'm not sure when I will ever get over it.
He still left me text messages, probably three times a week apologising for he done or sending threats saying how 'this shit isn't over'.
I should be worried, most people would be but I feel numb.
I guess that's just my way of dealing with it.
Pretending it isn't there.
~6:30~
I just got out the shower, looking through my closet picking out something to wear to the mall.
I picked out a white and grey stripped crop top, pink juicy legging with my lv sandals putting them on.
My phone vibrated on my table, I rushed over to see who it was and it was willow.
*conversation*
willy🌸: hey girl, what you doing me: I just got ready, you on your way? willy🌸: yeah I'm with karma & mia rn, we'll be there in 10 me: okie dokie, see you soon
*end of conversation*
I sat on my bed, scrolling through the gram liking couple pictures waiting for the girls to get here to burn some time.
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