Amanda's Rape

My Statement

I woke up to the sound of a frying pan on the stove. There was a smell of bacon in the air.

Olivia: Rise and shine!

Olivia scared me and I jumped. I stood up and walked into the kitchen. It smelled amazing. I was starving.

Me: MMMM! That smells so good! Let me go get dressed and I'll be right back.

I left the kitchen and went into my bedroom. I put on grey leggings and an NYPD sweatshirt. I walked back into the kitchen and Olivia had the food on the table along with glasses of orange juice. We both sat down and began eating.

Olivia: So how are you feeling today?

Me: Uh..I don't know. I just don't wanna do this. I'm scared.

Olivia: Amanda. Everything will be okay. I'll be there the whole time.

I looked at her as if I were burst into tears any second. She hugged me. When we were finished eating, we got up and grabbed our purses. We left my apartment and got into Olivia's car. We drove to the precinct in silence. I was so nervous. I felt as if I were going to puke. I didn't want to do this.

When we arrived at the precinct, I felt ten times worse than I already did. We walked in and went into the squad room. I looked over at my desk longingly wanted to be sitting there, completely fine. Not suicidal, not depressed, not raped. Everyone stared at me as I walked in. Nick, Fin, Munch, Cragen's eyes were all on my. I kept my head down pretending not to notice. Nick began to say something.

Nick: Hey...Amanda...

Me: Yeah Nick....

Tears tried escaping my eyes as I stood there.

Nick: Um...we got the results back on your kit...

Me: Oh...

Nick: Are you okay?

Me: I-I don't know r-really.

He didn't say anything. He gave me a sympathetic look as Olivia and I walked into an interrogation room. I sat down as she shut the door. She sat in the chair across from me and sighed.

Olivia: Ok...I know you don't want to do this. But I have to get your statement so we can catch that sick son of a b- anyways. Can you tell me what happened that night?

Me: Well. After the whole thing with that Seth guy or whatever I left the precinct. I was walking home and I felt as if someone was following me. I turned around but I saw no one. I thought I was hearing things so I continued to walk. After like 2 minutes, I heard footsteps behind me and he pulled me into an alley. H-he slammed me against the wall and I hit my head. I yelled at him but he said 'Shut up you stupid butch' and slapped me across the face. I was lying on the ground and he held me down with his knees and he lowered his pants. He pulled down mine and he-he-he r-raped m-me.

I sat there and began crying again. I wanted to stand up and storm out but I knew I couldn't. Olivia gave me a sympathetic look and I could tell she wanted to cry with me but she had to stay strong for me.

Olivia: Thank you Amanda. Anything else?

Me: N-no.

She stood up and left the room. I wanted to leave. I wanted to go home and stay there forever.

*AUTHOR'S NOTE*

Hey guys! Sorry this chapter is so short. I'm in school and I don't have much longer to be on my phone. I'll update more later! Thanks!