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Heartbroken

Ian walked through the Gallagher door, looking down at his feet. His hands crossed in front of his face when he placed his head on the table when he sat. Everything played over in his head. He fucked a man that wasn't Mickey and that was the worst mistake he has made in his life. "Hey Ian" Fiona said cheerfully from the kitchen, Ian just squeezed his eyes shut making sure no tears fell from his eyes. Fiona found his faced down head and quiet behaviour suspicious and she thought of the worst. She didn't know what the worst was but she knew Ian wasn't okay. She walked over to her brother faced down on the table and sat across from him. "Ian, are you okay?" She said as she looked at her brother. Ian gave no response. He couldn't because it felt as his body was stiff. He felt that if he were to move that he would break apart into pieces in front of Fiona. Ian couldn't handle the hatred he had for himself after the affair he had. He couldn't handle telling Mickey because he was afraid of loosing him. He was afraid of the worst. "Ian look at me" Fiona said as she reached for Ian's hands. He slowly lifted his head and faced his sister. He felt the tears threatening at his eyes but he kept strong or at least as long as he could keep strong until everything flowed through his body. All the hatred and sadness and regret. The feeling of another mans hands on him and another mans lips against his body and lips. He just couldn't handle it. Fiona grabbed Ian's hands. She looked into Ian's watery eyes. "You can tell me" Fiona whispered trying to make Ian feel comfortable to say something. "I cheated Fiona and I can't bare to tell him" Ian said as he looked down to Fiona's hands on his. "It's okay Ian. He will forgive you and you need to not worry" Fiona continued to talk but her words become a blur for Ian. All the memories of him and Mickey flowed through his mind. The first time Mickey kissed him. Their first fuck. When Mickey came out in front of his homophobic, abusive dad because he was scared of losing Ian. All the memories went through the mind of Ian Gallagher because he now was scared of losing Mickey. Not Mickey scared of losing Ian but Ian scared of losing Mickey. As the thoughts went through his mind tears ran down his face. Ian's hands started to shake along with his body. He squeezed his eyes shut and let more tears drip down his pale, freckled skin that Mickey adored so much. Mickey loved Ian's little freckles. Soon Ian was crying more and more until he couldn't breath. He stood up and gripped onto Fiona. "I-I can't Fiona." Ian sobbed into his sisters shirt, "I let another man touch me and kiss me. I cheated on the one that cared for me. The one that loved me more than I loved myself." Ian squeaked out as his tears rolled down his cheeks and he stared into Fiona's surprised eyes. Ian's body shook more and more by the second. He sunk down to the floor and covered his face with his hands. Everything with him and Mickey rushed through his mind and he thought of Mickey seeing him with another man. He could see the pure hatred and hurt that would rush through Mickeys eyes. He could see him slipping away from Mickeys heart and soon becoming a stranger to Mickey. That was his nightmare. Knowing that one day Mickey could just give up on Ian. He could stand up and walk away from the red head and not come back. "Ian" Ian heard Fiona repeat over and look at Ian but Ian couldn't concentrate. His name just repeated in his mind but he wouldn't listen to Fiona. He couldn't listen to anything and barely hear anything until that one person was heard. Mickey. "Hey Fiona where's Ian?" He heard Mickey yell from the living room. Ian shook with fear and crawled up into a ball while repeating "I'm sorry I cheated. I'm sorry I messed up". He repeated those same words over and over until he heard footsteps coming to him. He felt tears fall again and he felt Mickey about to tell him to calm down. To ask him what's up and then watching him break into pieces and soon walking away forever. Ian repeated the words before he felt a hand on his shoulder. "Ian" he heard that soft voice say to him. He repeated the words again but sat still. "What's that?" He heard Mickey say. Ian just stopped talking and looked up from his knees. His eyes locked with Mickeys. Before that the tears stopped falling but as soon as those blue eyes shone at him he cried. He broke down. He felt his body go weak as Mickey hugged tightly onto him. "Ian you are okay" he heard Mickey whisper into his ear but he wouldn't listen and he just cried into Mickeys shoulder. Mickey picked Ian up and sat him on the counter. He hugged tightly onto Mickey as long as he could before hearing Mickey shoo Fiona away and he knew he had to talk but he just couldn't. Mickey lifted Ian's head so that he could see his redheads face. Ian tried looking away, "look at me" Mickey said facing Ian. Ian finally stared into his boyfriends eyes. "You can tell me" Mickey whispered, Ian just looked down. His eyes dripped more tears and his heart raced, "I'm sorry" is all Ian could get out. "For what?" Mickey asked cautiously. Ian just looked at Mickey and cried before trying to get away from Mickey but Mickey just held onto him. "Ian, tell me" Mickey said sternly which only made Ian struggle away more, "I cheated. I'm sorry Mickey. It's over I know but please let me go" Ian begged as he faced away from Mickey. Mickey just tightened his grip. "Ian I love you" Mickey whispered as he felt tears fall from his eyes. He couldn't bare Ian running away from him. He couldn't bare Ian scared of him. The one he loved was scared of him. "You shouldn't because I cheated Mickey. You can't fake your hate for me because I know it's there. I know I disappointed you one to many times and I'm sorry" Ian yelled as he struggled from Mickeys grip. Mickey cried as he didn't know how much Ian was hating on himself. "Ian stop. Don't hate yourself because I love you and I won't stop because you deserve love Ian. Stop hating yourself because you made one mistake. I can't handle this anymore. I can't handle your self hatred and you being scared of me! I love you!" Mickey yelled as he gripped onto Ian and he was the one crying. Ian turned around in Mickeys grip and hugged him like he was going to disappear. "Mickey I'm sorry" Ian cried out, "don't be" Mickey whispered before lifting Ian's head and placing a soft, salty kiss on his lips, "because I love you"