Frozen Time

Battle

"I, Lance Vergara, vow to love you and be by your side for the rest of my life. We will plan and reach our dreams together. We will cry and laugh together. We will hide and run with each other when we have problems. I may not be the perfect partner, I may have difficulties, I may have mistakes... but I will do anything and everything just to make you happy. I will not promise anything that I can't keep. I will just do everything that I know will make us stay together. If ever the day comes that you feel that your love for me is decreasing... I will offer you my heart and my love. Sobra pa yan. Kahit unti kumuha ka para mabalik lang yung pagmamahal mo sakin. I love you Mrs. Patricia Vergara."

Napaluhod nalang akong umiyak habang sinasabi ito dahil alam ko hindi ko na masasabi pa ito sa harap niya at hinding hindi na niya maririnig pa. Wala na kong ibang maramdaman ngayon kundi sakit. Sakit na unti unting nilalamon ang buong pagkatao at pagkaisip ko. Gusto kong kalimutan lahat. Gusto kong mawala lahat ng nararamdaman ko... pero pag naiisip kong makakalimutan ko siya... mas gusto ko pang tanggapin na dumating siya sa buhay ko. Dahil kung wala siya ay hindi ko mararamdaman ang ganung saya. Alam kong mahal ako ni Pat. Alam kong nagmamahalan kame. Kaya hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit nangyayare ang lahat ng ito. 

Pinikit ko ang mata ko at inimagine na andito siya sa harap ko.... Wala kong ibang masabe....

"Why Pat? Why?" 

Naramdaman ko nalang na unti unting nawarak ang puso ko na dati ay binuo niya.

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LANCE POV

"Laaaaaaaaaaaaaance!" sigaw nilang lahat sakin habang tumatakbo ako papunta sa kotse ko. I can't waste a single moment. I can't waste time right now. Time is all I have to save everything I have. Time is all I have to save myself from this misery. Dahil kung hindi ko pa to gagawin, hindi ko na alam kung ano pa ang mangyayare sakin. I have to fight. Even if it means I have to fight alone. I have to fight with everything I have and everything I can. 

I started the engine. Agad kong pinatakbo ang sasakyan ko. It would take me an hour to go to the place where she is but if I have to chase on the time, I would. Nothing else is more important than for me to do this.

Habang pabilis ng pabilis ang pagtakbo ko, pabilis rin ng pabilis ang pagflash sa utak ko ng lahat ng memories namin. Lumalabo ang paningin ko sa luha na bumubuhos sa mata ko but I don't care, I just need to be there right now. I want to stop my heart from breaking. I want to stop these tears from falling. I want to stop my body from trembling. But whatever I do, I just can't. Because everything just crushed my whole being. It crushed all of me. I need to find her because she's all that I need to be complete again. 

I shifted to the fifth gear at inovertake na ang nasa harap kong sports car. I have 10 more minutes and I'm wishing that she's still there. I just hope that I can still fix whatever is going on. Oh Lord, please just give me this chance. 

My phone keeps on buzzing, alternating calls from Alex, Lara, Jam, Cole, and Kuya. But I did not mind any of those calls, I know they are starting to worry but I just really have to do this.

Huminto ako sa harap ng condo niya. Agad akong lumabas ng sasakyan at tumakbo papunta sa stairs. Hindi ko na hinintay pa ang elevator dahil mas babagal lang ang lahat. I have 1 minute left. Mas binilisan ko pa ang pagtakbo ko paakyat sa floor niya. Hingal na hingal akong lumabas ng fire exit and there I saw her and I can feel the same pain all over again. Ramdam ko na parang dinudurog ang puso ko paunti unti habang papalapit ako sa kanya. This is just torture. Pure torture. I saw her taking all her luggages out of her room. I figured she would do this. I just know her so well that it would take her an hour to fix everything and just leave but I just can't let her go. Not now. Not ever.