connors pov
lately y/n has been a little distant with me. i haven't talked to her about how i feel but i guess i'm a little jealous of her friendship with all the guys like brian and shawn. i mean shawns so successful and perfect for her i wouldn't be surprised if she left me for him. i'm filming for shawn right now and y/n is backstage hanging out with alessia and brian. brian and y/n have been friends for a while and they're bond seems unbreakable. shawn and brian are both good looking guys don't get me wrong but i cant stand how close they get to each other physically. she's been spending so much time with them recently and i never have time with her other than when we are on the bus and even then we are with everyone. we never get alone time. the only person i've told that i feel this way is sam. he thinks i should talk to her about how i feel but then i'll seem like a clingy and jealous dick.
the show is over and i walk backstage. y/n is with shawn, brian and alessia and i'm gonna pull her aside and tell her how i feel.
"babe can we talk?" i ask touching her shoulder
"yeah" she says taking my hand and leading me to the couch backstage
"y/n come check this out" shawn yells
"sorry connor can we talk later?" she asks looking me in the eyes
"yeah sure go ahead to mr. perfect" i mumble pretty disappointed. this is what i mean. i just miss how y/n and i used to be. but now she has better men in her life than me.
"what?" she asks
"nothing go ahead" i say
"thank you" she says kissing me
"yup" i say breathing out, leaning back on the couch
"hey david" alessia says coming up to me. i chuckle at her calling me by my middle name
"hey" i say sighing
"why so sad?" she asks bumping my shoulder
"uh it's nothing" i say embarrassed
"oh cmon" she says
"no i'm fine alessia" i say giving her a reassuring smile
"okay then get off your bum and socialize" she says helping me off the couch
"thanks" i say laughing
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we got to the hotel cause shawns next show is in the same place tomorrow.
"hey babe what did you want to talk about" y/n asks in the shower as i'm brushing my teeth
"um nevermind it's stupid" i say trying to forget what happened
"yeah bullshit tell me. i can tell you're upset at something" she says turning off the shower
"i'm okay really y/n" i say rinsing my mouth and kissing her with a towel wrapped around her petite body.
"we're talking once we get in bed connor. i'm not letting you go to sleep with you upset" she says walking into the room.
once we settle in bed i turn on the tv and y/n climbs next to me and lays her head on my chest. she grabs the remote out of my hand and turns off the tv.
"talk to me" she says looking up at me. i raise one eyebrow up and look at her
"about...?" i say acting like i was clueless
"what you wanted to talk about earlier cause i'm not letting you go to sleep until you tell me" she says straddling my waist.
"tell me" she says tickling my stomach and i end up having a laughing fit
"okay! okay!" i say grabbing her hands gently from my stomach
"soooo?" she says with a smile on her face and i sigh
"what's going on with you lately?" she says a frown replacing a once smile
"i...uh....i'm" i say trying to find a way to word what i'm about to say
"go on" she says still straddling me and combing my hair with her fingers
"i'm jealous" i mumble quietly and i could barely hear myself
"huh?" she says
"i'm jealous" i say louder and covering my face
"of what?" she asks softly
"brian and shawn" i say and she takes my hands off my face
"what about them?" she asks confused
"your bond with them" i say embarrassed
"aw baby" she says hugging me and giggling
"why are you laughing at me?" i say whining
"you're adorable" she says kissing me
"you have no need to be jealous connor. i love you so much and i'm not going to dump you for them. if it makes you feel better i'll spend more time with you now" she says kissing me again
"thank you gorgeous i love you" i say
"thank you for telling me how you feel" she says getting off of me and putting her head against my chest
"goodnight sweetheart"
"goodnight connor"
