connors pov
this had become an everyday thing. me staying up for multiple hours studying for finals. although it's a friday night, i think the best use of my time is to study. this way i can recap my memory from this year and stay up later than usual and have tomorrow to rest. my mom has come in my room multiple times telling me to go to bed or go out with friends like a normal junior teenage boy. i've gotten 4 hours of sleep in the past 30 hours and im not even going to lie, i'm drained. my emotions and focus is everywhere but my work
"connor?" i hear a knock at my door
"come in" i say yawning
"hey baby" y/n says coming in
"oh hi" i say fixing my hair and checking my clothes. she giggles
"come sit down in bed with me" she said patting a space next to her
"y/n i have to study"
"that's why i'm here" i look at her confused
"your mom called saying she was worried about you. i know you want to get a good grade on this exam but you also need sleep to get a good grade. you over work yourself way to much connor and you need a break. please for me?" she says walking up to me at my desk and rubs my shoulders. i yawn
"see you're tired get up" she says pulling me out of my chair and leading me to my bed
"y/n" i whine
"don't fight me connor you're drained i can tell. your eyes are bloodshot and your hair is a mess and you look dead" she says
"wow thanks" i say blankly as i sit down on the bed
"admit it cmon it'll feel good" she says
"y/n i need a break from everything but i cant fail this test. i've barely gotten sleep, i can't focus, my stress levels are high, i can't control my feelings, y/n help me fix my shit life" i say looking at her with tears brimming my eyes.
"hey shh" she says holding me as i choke back on my sobs
"i cant take it anymore" i admit
"i'm here and you don't have to"
we sit there in that position for a while until it's silent and i yawn
"let's get you to bed" y/n says as she gets up and plugs my phone in. we get in bed and lay in each other's arms
"stay" i say.
"okay baby go to sleep" she says kissing me
i've never been this vulnerable in front of y/n and i never planned to but she is the one and we are always going to be there for each other. i love her.
