the whole team for the Shawn Mendes tour were sitting at a cafe for breakfast. the day started out great until connor started becoming distant with everyone. i don't know why. it's maybe because of the lack of sleep he's getting. he misses his family a lot and has been face timing. i think that helps a little. we are sitting at the big table and everyone's talking. connors sitting next to me playing with the food on his fork.
"is everything okay?" i ask. nothing
"baby" i say louder cause maybe he didn't hear me the first time. still nothing
"connor" i say loud enough that alessia even turns her head and looks at him with a confused look then looks at me with a suspicious look.
"what do you want" connor snaps loudly causing everyone to turn their heads towards him.
"nevermind" i say embarrassed for causing a scene.
everyone goes back to their conversations. i know that he misses home but why is he taking it out on me.
"what y/n" he says quietly looking at me still with a hint of attitude.
"what's up with you? are you okay?" i ask
"i'm fine" he says now sounding hurt
"okay sorry" i say. nothing again
time passes on and we are all in mine, connor, brian and josiah's bus. this bus is always the party/fun bus. after everyone came into the bus , connor excised himself and hasn't come back in a while. i go to check on him.
as i walk to the back i don't see anyone until i hear a quiet voice coming from connor in his bunk
"mom i want to come home" i hear him say. this has become a nightly routine of him calling his mom but it's always away from everyone and he goes to sleep right after that until sometimes i'll join him in the small bunk to cuddle.
"i cant stay here another night mom. 3 weeks is too long. i love everyone here but i get a weird feeling in my stomach every time i think of you guys. i've been away for too long and i just want to go home" he says. as he goes on his voice gets weaker by sentence
"okay i guess i'll try....a little....i just don't have the energy or desire to talk to anyone here. i feel bad but i cant sleep well at night and don't want to yell at someone. i already snapped at y/n this morning...no i'm too scared i think she's mad at me" my heart feels for him but i decided not to listen to anymore feeling disrespectful and snooping so i go back out to the group laughing about something.
"is everything okay?" brian asks me as i sit next to him
"yeah" i sigh and start listening to whatever everyone was talking about.
15 minutes go by and connor comes out in flannel pajama pants and a black t shirt.
"goodnight guys" he says waving his hand and waking back. many "night"s and "sleep well"s come from the team. i yawn.
"go on to bed. we'll be quiet" shawn says
"okay goodnight guys" i say and everyone does the same
i walk back and hear quiet cries.
"baby?" i ask opening the curtain. he turns over towards the wall
"yeah?" he asks sniffling
"is everything okay?" i ask putting my hand in his shoulder
"n-no" he says turning over and putting his arms out like a kid
"sh" i say as he sits up and hugs me
"i just want to go home" he says
"i know. if it gets worse then you need to go home and be with your family" i say into his chest
we sit like that for a while until he stops
"thank you" he says
"yeah no problem" i say looking down
"sorry for being an asshole today" he says scoffing
"it's okay i know what was going on" i say kissing his cheek.
"kiss me" he says looking at my lips. i lens in a we share a long and passionate kiss.
we make out for a little while. we stop and i get dressed for bed. i do my nightly routine and join connor in his bunk. he's staring towards the ceiling.
"tired bubs?" i ask in a whisper voice because now everyone is in there bunks while we are on our way to brooklyn. i sit on the end of the bed and run my fingers through his hair
"nope" he sighs closing his eyes
"come 'ere" i say holding my hand out for him to grab.
"let's get you some sleepy time tea" i say leading him to the kerig machine. i make us both tea and sit next to him on the couch with my mug in my lap and his mug up to his mouth
"rough week huh?" i say putting my hand on his leg. he nods and starts tearing up
"you're eyes are puffy babe" i say placing my hand on his cheek and taking my thumb to wipe the one tear falling. he looks up at the ceiling and then slowly closing his eyes.
we sit in silence drinking our tea. i get a text
shawn 🎸 :
everyone okay out there?
y/n l/n:
he just misses home a lot :(
shawn 🎸:
let him know that he
can take a couple days off
for his family. i understand
what he's going through.
goodnight y/n take care
of him please!
y/n l/n:
okay night shawn!
i tell connor and he takes the offer and is now happy that he's finally going to see his family. we go to bed in each other's arms. a week later connor goes home and takes me too to meet his family and come back to the tour life 3 days later.
