today wasn't the best day but thankfully i had the best boyfriend in the entire world to be by my side to catch my fall. connor, calysta and shawn were my best friends. they were always over at my house and my mom had become pretty fond with them. they'd been over for dinner many times. today, three years ago, my grandpa passed away. it was really rough for my family. my parents had gone last night to fly to my grandmas house to comfort her today but this was always a rough day for me. i wouldn't get out of bed or talk to anyone so my parents decided that i shouldn't be traveling and i should have my boyfriend over. my parents trusted connor with me more than anyone else. we'd been best friends since kindergarten so they trust us to be alone this weekend. it's 9 and i wasn't planning on getting out of bed unless i needed to pee or my starvation was getting out of hand. as i was going back to sleep connor walked into my room making me gasp
"oh sorry your mom gave me a spare key" he says putting down his overnight backpack. i sighed and turned over to face him.
"nice hoodie" he smiles as he noticed that i wearing it with the hood on. he comes towards my bed and sits on it. he pushes some hair out of my face and kisses my forehead.
"i know this is a hard day for you y/n and i hope you know i'm here for you and always will be. not only on this day but everyday you need me" he says and i start tearing up
"aw baby let's cuddle" he says laying down and holding out his arms so i could put my head on his chest and cry
"let it all out sweet girl i'm here" he says softly into my ear while rubbing my back.
it's now 1 and connor and i fell asleep. i wake up, sit up and look at all his facial features as he sleeps with his lips slightly parted and soft snores coming from his mouth. his long blonde hair was falling in front of his face so i lightly moved it out and he stirs in his sleep. he opens his eyes and smiles when he knows it's me
"hey gorgeous. are you hungry?" he asks reaching up and putting hair behind my ear. i shake my head no.
"you gotta eat something baby" he says. i shake my head again and he sighs
"baby i know today is hard for you and your family and i want to know what i can do to help you right now. please eat and talk to me about how you feel" he says looking at me in my eyes with concern
"i'm sorry" i say. usually i never say one word on this day but i felt like i owed him something in return for taking care of me this day of every year.
"don't apologize just tell me how you feel" he says
"no words can describe how hurt i am" i say softly avoiding eye contact
"i know sweetheart i know. i wish i could take all this pain and put it on myself" he says holding me as i start crying again. wow today was going to be an emotional day. we lay like that for another 5 minutes before connor breaks the silence
"anything else?" he asks
"a bit hungry" i say
"let's get you something to eat downstairs" he says
we walk down stairs and i see calysta and shawn sitting on the couch
"hey calysta" they say walking up to me
"um sorry i- uh i- jus" i start before turning around to connor and looking at him scared and not knowing what to say because i don't think they know what's today and that i can't hang out because they usually just let themselves in with their spare key. i look at him with fear in my eyes and i shake my head and start tearing up again because i don't want to talk about it.
"hey um guys..." connor starts while holding me in his arms
"i know" calysta says standing up and coming up to us
"hey y/(nickname)" she says putting a hand on my shoulder and connor turns me around
"i know shh" she says pulling me into a hug as i cry. connor walks up to shawn and whispers something in his ear and shawn looks at me with concern and joins us for a group hug.
we spent the day just hanging out with each other. until the sun had set and it was just connor and i sitting on my bed
"i'm proud of you" he says lifting my chin for me to look at him
"you are one of the strongest people i know and you get through everyday and come out so strong and i honestly don't know anyone as strong and loving as you y/(full)/name" he says. i smile and kiss him passionately.
"i love you" i say
"i love you too" he says
"c-can i show you some pic-cctures?" i stutter
"yeah of course" i pull out a photo album that my grandma has put together for me for my birthday of just my grandpa and i. no one has seen this but her and i. i cry as we flip through pictures and laugh at the silly ones of my grandpa and i. i look over and connor is crying and smiling at the pictures. i stop and wipe one of his tears. i look at him confused
"he sounds like a wonderful man" connor says before choking on a sob. i close the book and we kiss like we are the only two on the planet and break apart with tears streaming down our faces.
"stay strong for me y/n" he says
"i'll always try" i say.
we lay down for the rest of the night and he holds me like his life depends on if it.
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@connorbrashier this girl right here is one of the strongest woman i know right beside my mom. she's gone through so much but she keeps her ground and i couldn't be more proud of her. rough days pass and she never fails to amaze me in a million different ways. y/(full)/n, i love you with my entire heart xx 🧡
