| VEXED |

Chapter | twenty four

Alex's pov

I walked downstairs in my pj's, it was like 7 am. I looked at the front door, and it was open. I looked around, but I saw no one.  

all this sudden I felt an arm around my throat. I quickly elbowed the person in the stomach and flipped them to the ground.

"damn Alex." Theo coughed on the ground and I shook my head. "why in the actual hell would you scare me like that?" I asked holding my hand out for him, he took it standing up.

"I don't know. saw you here and felt like it I guess." he responded. he grabbed a bag from beside him, looked like a suitcase.

"where are you going?" I asked and he smiled. "worried?" he fake pouted. "curious." I retorted and he laughed. "im meeting Hagen, he needs back up where he's at right now. it seems to be a pretty serious mission." his expression turned more serious and I saw larce walking in the room.

"let me pack real quick and ill come with you then." I turned to go upstairs but larce stopped me. "not this one Alexandra." he shook his head. he looked sick, almost sad. 

"um okay?" I responded and larce walked outside to the car. I walked over to Theo and he looked down at me. 

he wrapped his arms around me and I hugged back. "can you behave while im gone please?" he asked, his grip got tighter, like he didn't want to let go. "depends." I shrugged smiling and he unwrapped his arms. 

"Well, you have the house to yourself for the most part. have fun." he smiled walking towards the car. "be safe." I yelled, more serious and he looked down, then back up at me and nodded. this is more serious then he's letting on. 

-

I walked into my regular coffee shop and ordered a coffee, and sat down. I heard a familiar voice from across the shop and saw them of course.

I really need to find a new place to go to. I got up from the table I was at and began walking towards the door.

"Alex." I heard Ethan and I turned. "I need to change my name." I groaned and he laughed a little. "can we talk?" he asked, just like the other day.

"Ethan haven't we been through this?" I crossed my arms. I looked behind him and saw Landon looking at me with a smile and Jackson with a judgmental look. Grayson still looks pissed off, good.

"Please." he pleaded and I rolled my eyes. "you have 3 minutes Ethan, that's it." I snapped and he nodded. we walked outside and I sat on a bench. 

he sat beside me and I got goosebumps. he hasn't been this close to me since- well. "what you did the other day was so stupid Alex." he began and I rolled my eyes. 

"if that's your way of thanking me for saving your ass then you're welcome." I fake smiled and he shook his head. "im serious. you could have literally died." he responded, his voice strained. "why would you even care?" I asked seriously. he wouldn't?

"Alex, you know I care about you." he connected eyes with me and I stared back into his. "then why did you hurt me E?" I let my guard down for a moment to hear his answer. im not the same girl who cried ever 5 seconds when he upset me last year. 

"I was stupid A. I don't know what I was thinking. seeing you here, now makes me remember how much I care." he responded putting his hand on mine. I want this so bad, but I know I can't have it.

I cleared my throat and built my wall back up in a matter of seconds. "you're late. you should have thought about that before you chose Caroline." I removed my hand from under his and stood up. 

he stood up also. "it wasn't like that Alex." he shook his head and I furrowed my brows. "then tell me, Ethan, what was it like?" I half yelled at him. "because I can't think of one single reason that would ever have made me hurt you. I couldn't even think about hurting you, because I loved you. you didnt even know what that was." I raised my voice again.

"you can accuse me, blame me, and hate me all you want, but don't you ever tell me I never loved you." his voice became weak and his eyes glossed over. 

Grayson and the guys walked out and I grabbed my keys, glancing at him once last time and walking to my jeep.

-

that is one of the most difficult parts of loving someone. no matter how far they push you, you always manage to come back. no matter how bad they may damage your heart, somehow you want them to be the one to come and put the pieces back together.

I will never understand that. Ethan Dolan has broken me in many more ways than one, and yet my heart seems to gravitate towards him. I wish it didn't work like that, but it does. love can either be the best thing in the world, or it can be the worst.

right now, im being pulled in both directions, with no way out. 

a/n

damn poor Alexandra.