Our Dance: Shawn Mendes ✔️

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Lila Hamilton
- February 22nd

When I tell you this was the best choice I made it really was. Taylor was my guardian angel this whole month. She stayed up with me almost every night because I could never sleep, insomnia taking over me. She took away my phone and sent Carmen messages often to tell her I'm okay. She would give me this advice that I'd carry with me for the rest of my life.

My dad was my life line. He wasn't the best with the sappy stuff but he gave great hugs and told me he wasn't afraid to hurt anyone who hurt me.

It took me a week to open up about my relationship with jasper. We went through a ton of tissues and a whole lot of chocolate but in the end telling them really cleared my head for the most part. For me, I learned saying my troubles out loud helped me.

Every night I thought of Shawn. I could've stayed with him but my heart told me not to for now. The timing was wrong. I just had to distance myself.

Before you love someone else, love yourself first. Taylor told me that.

I wasn't a hundred percent okay, I don't think I ever will be but I know that's okay to feel like that. How could I forget? How could I just let it go? I couldn't. But what I could do is learn that it's apart of me that's helped me grow.

"Lila! Honey Carmen's on the phone!" Taylor shouts. I run down to the kitchen and she hands me the phone.

"Carmen?"

"Hey Lila" she chuckles with joy. "I can't wait for tomorrow, I have a surprise for you!" She exclaims.

"I can't wait to come home, I miss it all"

"You sound better Lila. As much as I hated that you went away I'm glad you did. I can feel it through the phone that you've grown as a person" she says happily. "I feel better" I smile to myself, a genuine smile.

"I'm happy for you. So tomorrow, are you coming straight to mine or yours?... or Shawn's?" She asks. I let out a small chuckle "home, my home" I tell her.

"Okay good... we've missed you, I can't tell you how much" she sniffles. "I've missed you too, you know I couldn't stay there" I sigh.

"I know I know. I'm just glad you're better"

"I am. I'll call you when I'm home, I'll see you tomorrow"

"Bye lila" I end the call and Taylor looks at me with a huge grin. "Come here" she opens her arms up. I go in for a hug, I swear hugs are the keys to solve all problems.

"I'm proud of you honey, that excuse of a man has no idea who he messed with" She grits. "If he ever and I mean ever comes near you, tell me and I'll have no problem beating him" she says making me chuckle.

"I can't believe how much of a fool I was" I whisper, my eyes beginning to water. "It happens to the best of us love. You just saw the good in him... you don't need to dwell on it babes, you're amazing now. You're thriving without him, don't let anyone tell you otherwise"

I pull back nodding. "Thank you, for everything. I know I've probably been a burden-"

"Oh hell no! I'm glad you came home" she wipes my tears. "And don't thank me, now go pack, you've got to get home" she winks.

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"And you'll call me every night or text me or text Taylor, she's faster at replying. And please darling eat, sleep and dance" dad paces around my room as I sit on my bed listening to him. "And take those pills please, I know it hurts when you take them but they help and all I want is for you to be okay" he says.

I get up placing my hands on his shoulders. He looks at me with teary eyes. "Just don't go baby, I'll keep you safe here forever, I'll buy you all the dance shoes in the world and we can eat chocolate every night. Heck I'll kick Taylor out-"

"Oh no you won't" she walks in hitting his arm.

"I'll be fine dad. I have to go home at some point" I sigh. "I know" he nods. "You tell me if that bastard ever comes near you, I swear I'll gut him-"

"Okay okay that's enough" Taylor's stops him. "I'll tell you" I pull him into a hug. He stays silent whilst hugging me and I hear him sniffle.

"Dad don't cry" I whisper. "I just can't believe someone would hurt you Lila"

I gulp feeling the tears coming on. "Not again. I won't let it happen" I tell him pulling him. He nods and kisses my forehead.

"Come here" Taylor pulls me into a hug. "You're so brave, braver than you know Lila. Don't give up on love because of one stupid boy. You deserve the world and one day someone will give it to you" she kisses my cheek.

After a few more hugs, dad had loaded my car and I was sat in the drivers seat. "I'll be back soon!" I shout.

"We love you!" Dad shouts back as I drive off. 

I'm going home.

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Maybe it's all going to be okay after all 😌