Our Dance: Shawn Mendes ✔️

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Lila Hamilton
-two days later 
Song recommendation; Ariana Grande, just a little bit of your heart

"There's mail for you" Carmen walks in. Her right hand holding a hot mug and the other with a few letters. I sit up from my bed that I haven't left yet and don't plan to either.

Carmen sits beside me placing the letters on my lap and handing me the mug. "How're you?" She asks me.

"Fine" I mumble taking the letters I flick through them till I land on a pretty ivory coloured envelope with my name in cursive writing.

"It better not be what I think" Carmen mumbles. "Well it might as well be" I chuckle bitterly ripping open the envelope and there it was; my personal invite to Shawn and Graces wedding.

It was labelled the dance teacher with made my heart skip a beat for some reason but then I calm down when I see it was just signed by Grace. Did he even know I had an invite?

"What should I do?" I ask Carmen facing her.

She stops for a second. Her eyes flickering between the envelope and me.

"You should go. I'll come with you and you can show him that you're fine" she says. I gulp shaking my head. "I don't think my heart can handle that" I admit with a huff flopping back down.

"Let's crash the after party then. We can get drunk on champagne and have a good time. I guarantee you need this" She says with a sigh. "The last time he saw you, you were a mess. Show him you're okay, that you're absolutely thriving and that he can do what he wants and so can you" she encourages me. "And we can leave the minute you say" she suggests.

"We're going to crash his party?" I ask in disbelief. "Totally. We're not there for him. We're there for us" she claps her hands together.

How hard could it be? I need this. Maybe this will help me let go, seeing him with someone else could sway me away but then again I didn't want to see him doing our dance with Grace. My frail heart couldn't even handle me visioning it.

"I can't Carmen" I shake my head. She nods understandably. "And if I showed up imagine the shock he'd be in, Grace invited me, not him" I look back down at the invitation not seeing Shawn's name.

"Yeah... you don't need him Lila, I'm gonna help you get over it. Now come on, Jasper and Eli are downstairs. We're watching a movie" she smiles.

"Let me shower first. I bet I look awful" I let out a small chuckle getting up from my bed. "You look fine babe but yeah I think you should shower" she chuckles then walks away shutting my door.

Before I go to the bathroom I take a look at the invitation. My eyes begin to water, I never thought I'd be the one to go through this.

I rip up the expensive feeling paper and I shove it in the bin along with my tissues.

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"Your hair smells nice" Jasper comments when I hug him. "Thanks" I give him a warm smile then sit down. He sits down beside me and puts an arm over my shoulder.

"What should we watch?" Carmen asks. I shrug shuffling further into jaspers side just wanting to be held.

"Dumbo!" Eli exclaims. I felt my body shiver at the mention of dumbo. I remember sitting on Shawn's lap, our hands laced and his nose ghosting the skin on my neck.

"What about men in Black?" Jasper suggest as I tense up. "Ooo Yeah, Lila is that okay?" Carmen asks.

I nod tilting my head on jaspers strong shoulder. "I got you Lila, whatever you need. I'm here" his lips press a kiss to the crown of my head.

"Thanks" I look up at him giving him a faint smile. His arms gently squeeze me, his tongue pokes out to lick his full lips, his dark eyes flicker from my eyes to my lips.

The he leans down and my eyes flutter shut as his lips press against mine. Maybe I was too hurt to care or too dazed to give a fuck but I kiss back gently, not forcing it. His hand travels to my jaw and he pulls me even closer.

Until Carmen clears her throat. I pull back looking over at her and she grins at me shooting me a wink. I shake my head at her and lean back into jaspers arms.