Our Dance: Shawn Mendes ✔️

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Lila Hamilton
- January 21st

We've been in LA for two days, two fairly good days. I can't lie and say I've had the best time because I haven't. Jasper was getting calls left right and centre, everywhere we'd go people would swarm him like bees and I'd get cat called or made fun out of which isn't the nicest.

Some people have been lovely to me but what I didn't expect was to be asked about Shawn. Two lovely girls came up to me and told me I had been photographed with Shawn. I asked to see the picture which they showed me on Instagram. I don't have an account but I felt the need to make one so I could see and maybe get in touch with Shawn, it was playing on the back of mind that he could've texted or called me.

Jasper was being oddly warm towards me. Holding my hands and making sure I'm okay. Which was nice, however, I haven't forgotten what he had done. All is not forgiven.

"Babe, I'm going out tonight you wanna come?" Jasper asks me placing his hands on my shoulders as I sit at the vanity taking my makeup off. "We just got in" I turn towards him.

"I know but I told you I'd be doing a lot of appearances" he sighs cupping my cheeks. This Jasper completely differed to the one I had been seeing for the last week or so.

"You go, I'm drained" I stand up. "Fine" he pecks my lips quickly then pulls back.

"You won't be going out will you?" He asks me, his cold hands rubbing my arms. He was still this overprotective guy. Always questioning who I'm texting and lowkey checking my phone. 

"Nope, I might go down for some food but I'm tired" I chuckle lightly. "I'll order food for you here" he's about to move away.

"I'm okay with getting food myself" I grab his arm. "Hey don't touch me like that" he mutters under his breath. I quickly let go.

"I'll see you tonight" he kisses my forehead and grabs his phone. "Bye!" I shout. The door slams and I fall back on the bed.

I take a few minutes to myself to just sit back then I get and make my way downstairs to the buffet they had going on. I grabbed a plate and got in line behind a dark haired man.

"Hey could you pass me-Lila?"

"Oh Andrew right? Hi" I smile up at him. "Yeah yeah, What're you doing here?" He asks me as we walk side by side along the food.

"I'm here with Jasper, what about you?" I ask.

"Shawn's team is here, we're checking out a few recording studios in the area" he tells me. Shawn's here.

"Is he here?" I ask him. "Yeah, he's coming down soon. You can sit with us, call Jasper too"

"Oh he's gone out to some party but yeah, if that's okay" I nod. I was eager to talk to him, a burning desire in my heart to see him.

"Of course it's okay" he smiles. We then walk beside each other, he told me they got here early this morning and that Shawn had been in a mood for the last few days. As we start walking to his table Andrew nudges me in the direction of the doors. Shawn was wandering in, I let out a small giggle when I see his hood was up, his hands stuffed in his jean pockets. He looked adorable.

"Go to him" Andrew takes my plate. "Are you sure? I mean-"

"Go" he chuckles. I breathe in deeply and walk over to him quite slowly, I was afraid yet also happy to see him. Then his eyes stay put on me.

"Lila? Holy crap" he mumbles. He strides towards me pulling me into a hug. I let out a small laugh and put my arms around him, my head snuggling into his chest.

"You blocked me" he whispers. "I can explain" I mumble against him.

"I'm sorry for that last time we talked at the studio, I was out of line for even touching you and-"

"No it's okay. We should talk" I look up at him. He nods facing me. "Are you alone?"

"He's gone to a party"

Shawn nods then let's go. "We can talk out in the gardens. It's really pretty out there" he suggests. "Lets go" I nod.

He then gestures for me to go first. I walk ahead of him and he trails behind me then steps beside me as we walk silently to the hotels garden area.

"Let's sit there" he points to a cream coloured bench, the garden was beautiful; grey pebbled pathway, rose bushes and fountains, arches made of flowers. It was truly a sight to see. I sit and Shawn leaves a good gap between us.

I watch as he tugs his hood down and uses his fingers to push his hair back then he faces me.

"I understand why you blocked me, I shouldn't have said that I deserve you because I don't, I shouldn't have kissed you like that because you're not even mine to touch and I definitely shouldn't have called after so long... I know you're with Jasper, you've moved on and I bet he treats you well but-but I can't stop thinking about you" he admits. My heart leaps out of my chest.

"I think about you too and I'm sorry for going all psycho on you, I just hadn't seen you in six months and it was a lot" I tell him honestly.

He moves closer to me taking my hand.

"Are you happy with him?" He asks me, shiny, caramel eyes looking right into mine.

I don't respond, I couldn't bring myself to say it.

He simply nods pulling me into a side hug.