Our Dance: Shawn Mendes ✔️

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Shawn Mendes
-next morning

I felt the tiniest bit of relief because me and Lila had talked. However, I know she still has a broken heart and it's physically painful to see her like this. It brings me back to such horrible times.

But it all turned to the worst when I find she's not in bed with me and instead she's crying in the bathroom with the door locked. She hiccups, trying to keep it down but I could hear her so clearly.

"Lila?" I knock on the door. "Honey-"

Th doors open making me stop. She's looking down at the floor, her shoulders shaking and her hands fidgeting with the sleeves of her hoodie.

Silently, I put my arms out to her. For a second she doesn't move then she's holding onto me like a life line. Trying to hush her cries.

I rest my chin at the top of her head, my hands rubbing her back soothingly. "I think we should go to the studio today. Do some dancing" I suggest, I just wanted to cheer her up.

"Th-there's erm paps all around the studio. I don't want to go" her cheek presses against my chest, making my heart melt. "I'll get Andrew to send some security there first, I promise no one will see us there" I kiss the crown of the head.

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Lila took her time getting ready, I noticed a few differences that just made my heart ache. More makeup than usual, she took longer to decide what to wear and in the end she chose a loose fitted grey knitted jumper with black sweats, topped with an oversized leather jacket along with a winter scarf. She also took two of her pills, I'm sure that usually she'd only take one.

"Hey, you look beautiful" I place my hands on her waist as she gets haven comfy in his seat. She turns to me, a faint smile on her lips but she doesn't reply. "Come on" I take Havens seat and her hand leading her out the condo and to the underground parking where my car was.

I get Haven in first then get in myself. Lila puts her belt on then just sits with her hands on her lap.

"Are the windows tinted?" She asks looking around. I hum putting the radio on.

I knew inside that she wanted to know just in case people were taking pictures of us. I knew she wore loose fitted clothes because of what people were saying and it truly killed me that she was doing that.

Ten minutes of silence go by painfully slow and we arrive at the studio, luckily no one was there.

"It's truly wrecked in there, it's all a mess" Lila looks over at me with her pretty eyes. "It's fine" I assure her then get out the car. I grab Havens seat, he gazes up at me with his bambi eyes making me internally awe.

"Hi havey" I coo, bopping his slightly red nose due to the cold.

I follow Lila, watching her hands shake as she opens up the door and she wasn't lying when she said it was wrecked.

I was completely taken back by the utter mess. The large red, velvet curtains had fallen to the floor, I'm sure there were bits of glass on the floor, her ballet shoes looked as if they had been thrown without care, there was paper work all over the dusted floor. A true mess.

I put Havens seat down on top of the wooden bench, giving him a toy so he could occupy himself.

"What happened?" I ask softly, walking over to Lila who was stood in the middle of all the chaos, looking around with true heartbreak in her eyes.

"I-i was upset"

As I inch closer her eyes avert, darting around the room, taking her time to look at each broken object as if she was reminiscing.

"I've never felt like that and-and I just ruined something I worked so hard for. I came here, late at night. Haven was with Carmen. I just took all my anger out" she explains, her face paling when she looks back at me, bringing her arms to hug her own body.

I could never imagine her being angry to the point where she had taken it out on a physically.

I promised myself right then that I'd never make her feel like that again. I've learnt from my mistake, I've learned I need to stay and talk. Not run away.

"I didn't know what to do" she shrugs sadly, bitting the inside of her cheek as tears form in her eyes. "I couldn't do it anymore" the words escape her mouth quietly and they send daggers to my chest.

"You're not alone Lila" my hands cup her cheeks when I'm close enough to her body. "Don't ever think you are. I'm always here. Please, please, please, I beg you to lay all your worries on me so I can help. So I can take them away... I'm so sorry that you felt like that- still feel like that. I just want to see you smiling honey, I want to see your face light up when you dance. I want to hear you giggle with haven because smiling and laughing suits you so well, please don't ever stop" my eyes flutter shut when she leans up, hands on mine as she touches my forehead with hers.

I take a deep breath, just cherishing this moment right here between us.

"I love you"

Her breath shakes, "I love you too, Shawn" I feel her lips brush mine making my skin tingle. Wordlessly, I guide her closer and let my lips meet hers in a much needed kiss. I feel her hands tighten around my wrists, a soft hum leaving her supple lips.

Slowly, she pulls back so she's flat on her feet. I open up my eyes, smiling when I see she is.

"We'll clean this place up, so you can dance all you want"

She nods then wraps her arms around my body. I grin, holding her back tighter.

"Look at Havey, he looks so peaceful" Lila speaks softly. I turn looking over at haven, my baby boy doing that cute thing where he suckles his puffed lips as his eyes shut peacefully.

"We got this Lila. I asked you for always and forever, that's what you'll get" I kiss the top of her head.