Our Dance: Shawn Mendes ✔️

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Lila Hamilton
-interview day

I was sat in a hair and makeup chair backstage. My nails digging into my skin as I stared at my reflection in the mirror.

No text from Shawn. No call. No turning up at my place. Nothing.

I thought I wouldn't have to cry myself to sleep again with him. Turns out I'm wrong. Maybe I'm not destined for love yet.

"Hey Lila, Jada said she'll like you out in five minutes. Is that okay?"

"Y-yes perfect" I nod. I was also here alone. Well Eli was here, Carmen had to fly down to New York for her wedding dress, dad and Taylor FaceTimed me earlier and well Shawn was a no show.

"Eli?" I walk around the corner. "Hey you okay? You look panicked"

To top it all off I had left my pills at Shawn's and I won't lie and I hate to admit it but I felt as though I was suffering. "I'm fine, just nervous" I tell him.

"No need to be, Jada said you can stop it at any time" he rubs my back as start walking down the hall. I turn the corner not expecting to see Shawn to be held back by security.

"Look she's there!" He points at me. "Miss?" The guard asks me. I nod and Shawn comes rushing towards me. His eyes all red and puffy. He pulls me into a hug and I find myself hugging back. Closing my eyes as his hands touch me.

"I brought these for you" he pulls back handing me the tub of pills. I quickly take them in my hands sighing out in relief.

"Lila, you have to let me ex-"

"Not now... are you staying?" My eyes stuck on his.

"If that's okay"

I nod as we start walking further down to the room. "Lila! We're ready when you are!" Jada gives me a thumbs up. I quickly take two pills and Shawn takes the tub. I look up at him and he gives me a warm smile. "You look beautiful"

I don't reply, I simply lean up kissing his cheek leaving him with a soft blush making me smiles to myself. I then walk out to the table and take a seat.

The interview begins, she asks about myself first and just some introduction questions.

"So, Jasper. A big part of you life? Would you say?"

I clench my fists under the table feeling every emotion; sadness, anger, love and hurt.

"Yes he was. I erm met him in school" I answer.

"And What was the relationship like? How did you cross the border from friends to something romantic" she asks.

"Back then, well for eight years we were friends. Always the friendly giant" I chuckle sadly. "He was charming, funny and just great. His career as a boxer was starting and I was teaching at a dance studio, where I learnt to dance... I went through something-"

"Can you say what? Or does that hurt too much?"

I gulp shaking my head no. Shawn gave me permission.

"I met a guy, an almost married man. I didn't know he was getting married and when he left that killed me" I felt a sharp pain in my heart remembering how i cried when I danced with Shawn.

"Jasper comforted me a lot. Within four months it became romantic. People had always told us that we'd make a great couple and I thought maybe we would" I pause for second to take down some water feeling my throat get dry.

"Did you feel safe?" Jada asks. "I did, at the start"

"And when was it, when you truly felt unsafe?"