When you meet the one who changes the way your heart beats, dance with them to that rhythm for as long as the song lasts.
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Lila Hamilton has to teach Shawn Mendes how to dance. He waltz's into her life, spins her life around and dips her down into...
Shawn came back with me to my apartment, his eyes would water every time we'd make eye contact and he'd just pull me into a hug like I could vanish at any moment.
I was emotionally drained for today.
I didn't want to ask him about his cheating ex wife. I didn't want to know why she was missing him or why they were texting behind my back. I didn't want to know but I knew I had to if I wanted a little bit of peace.
"Angel" Shawn whispers. Following me through the door. I don't reply and he takes my hand twirling me into him. My hands go flat on his chest and my forehead rests against his shirt. I realised when I was upset with him I liked being close, maybe to remind myself that I'm not upset with him, just with the situation.
"She's the one who called you the other day right?" I ask quietly.
"Yeah" he answers, his voice so small. His hands go down my arms and he takes my hands. "Let's sit down"
I nod turning around to sit on the sofa and he sits close beside me. "Are you sure you want to talk about this now? I mean after that-"
"Yes, I mean what harm will it do? It won't hurt me... will it?" I ask him. He takes a second then shakes his head no.
"She just started texting me randomly like a few days ago, I told her to stop. She knows I'm with you, she asked about you too. She seems happy for us Lila, I don't know why I didn't tell you" he sighs. "I guess it's because things are going so well between us, I don't want to hurt us. We've- I mean you've been through enough"
I nod sitting back on the sofa. "I don't mind you being friends with her at all, I'd rather it be civil than you guys hate each other. I- I just need to know you won't hurt me... you can leave me if you want just-just don't lie to me" I whisper the last part.
"Oh darling" his eyes soften and I'm pulled into a warm hug. Embraced by his body.
"I'm not leaving. I wouldn't dream of it. And Grace, I told her to stop messaging me and she agreed, she might seem horrible but there's kindness in her" he tells me gently. "I love you"
I look up at him and his hands cup my cheeks, pads of his thumbs rubbing at my tears.
"I care about you"
My heart skips a beat. I guess when you've gone through pain it's hard to trust someone when they say they care but I believed him. I truly believe Shawn. The kindness in his eyes, purity in his words.
"I love you too"
"Can we smile now, I'm gonna cry if you carry on" he chokes out. I let out a small laugh nodding. His lips graze mine and I lean up kissing his soft lips. -
"What're you doing?" Shawn flops beside me with a beer clasped in his hand. "Oh just looking at a few comments" I mumble keeping my eyes on my phone.
Shawn puts an arm around me and looks down to where my eyes were fixated.
Suddenly, the phone is snatched from my hands. "Hey!" I look up at him confused as he puts my phone to the side. I go to reach for it leaning over his body But he pulls me back down.
"Shawn-"
"You don't need to read that crap" he scoffs. "I'm not reading the bad ones, I was responding to the nice ones" I half lie.
"And you were reading the hate. You don't have to do that, not now"
"What do you mean not now?" I ask.
"Just that now isn't the time. You don't need to pile on this shit with everything that's happening. You don't need it. Those people online are so weak and petty they have to put their anger out on someone as pure as you" he says angrily.
I gently smile placing a hand on his jaw. "You're too good to me"
"It's definitely the other way round" he sighs through his pretty lips. I don't respond and just take it in my own hands to give him a quick kiss but he keeps me there for longer.
He blindly puts his beer down and gently guides me on to his thighs. I sit up holding his face in my hands and his hands slowly slip up my top and on my back.
"You're everything to me" he whispers in to my mouth. I smile against him going even closer. My hips automatically start to rock against him. He leans back on the headboard whimpering in pleasure.
"I'm so proud of you" he tells me as I move down his strong neck. "Everything you said today. Sending a message to everyone out there. You're stronger than you know" he says lowly as I gently kiss around his collarbone.
"You helped me" I kiss up the column of his neck, around his Adam's apple making him hum in delight.
"You deserve something" I face him and wink. "Nuh uh you do" he flips us over easily which I'm not surprised about, he's ripped as fuck.
"No, me first" I shove his shoulders. "No, I'll go first"
"How are we arguing about who's going down on who first?" I giggle. "Beats me, that's the only thing I'd like to argue about" he chuckles.
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Liked by 4,590,990 Shawnmendes: beautiful angel. I'm so proud of you, it takes so much to be so strong and I know you've inspired me and so many people out there tonight. You wonderful human! 💛
Comments: User1: omg I cried when I watched the interview! I absolutely love her ❤️❤️❤️
User2: you really don't know what someone is going through
User3: ever notice how fake she is I meen her tears? Wtf was that -shawnmendes: wow, you really called her fake when she put herself out there all vulnerable. Whilst you hide behind a screen, please grow up and look at the world around you. There's no need for useless, rude comments. Also it's spelt mean.
User4: I- HE JUST TOLD HER HAAHHA^^ -user5: he in love love
Lilahamilton: my heart 💓 -shawnmendes: 😚
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