this idea was from @Awesomeguy168. thank you for the ideaaaaaaa. :)
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------I have known that I wasn't completely straight for about a month now. I figured it out when I discovered I had caught feelings for my best friend, Sam. no one knows. not even Sam and I don't plan on telling anyone. I grew up in a fairly nice town and my parents aren't against it. I just don't wanna put myself through having to make other people accept me when I need to figure out myself. today was a normal day and I was chilling in the kitchen when I felt a pair of arms around my shoulders. I knew it was Sam. we were always like that. we're just close like that. we're best friends. I wish we were more, but I can't tell anyone that. I smiled and heard Sam mumble something. he must have just woken up.
~"good morning. what's up?" I asked as Sam cuddled into my shoulder.
*"nothing new. I'm bored and tired. will you come get coffee with me?" he asked with a hopeful tone.
~"of course. I'm never one to turn down coffee. especially with you." I felt Sam smile against my hoodie.
he unwrapped his arms from my shoulders, kissed my head and went back upstairs. we've always been close enough to where we could be all touchy and not mind. but lately, when Sam and I would touch it sends a shiver down my spine and I feel flames where his skin met mine. I snapped out of my thoughts as Sam grabbed my hood and playfully dragged me out the front door. we got back home about thirty minutes later. our coffee run consisted of me zoning out while thinking and just enjoying Sam's company. at one point, a couple walked in. a guy and his boyfriend. they were cute together. I wish I could have that confidence. to just not care. to just tell Sam how I feel and be all cute with him in public. but I can't. we sat in the kitchen and I went back to those thoughts form earlier. about how I wish I could just be bold enough to tell Sam everything.
*"Colby, hey, are you ok?" Sam asked. worry lacing his tone.
~"yea. I'm fine. just thinking" I answered back.
*"hey. I saw the way you reacted when that couple walked into the coffee shop earlier. you didn't have a problem with them right?" he shyly asked.
~"what? no! no. I just... well I uh, it's just that-" I tried to form words, but I couldn't.
*"wait. you don't have a problem with people being homosexual.... you're not straight, are you?" he asked as a light blush coated my face.
~"how did you figure that out from my face? yes. I'm not completely straight. I don't know what I am. I didn't even wanna tell anyone. please don't tell anyone, Sam." my mood switched from shocked to anxious.
he got out of his chair and walked around the counter to me. he grabbed my hand, kissed the back of it, then pulled me into a hug.
*"your secret is safe with me. I promise you." he whispered as I tightened the hug.
