him. that's all I could think about. him. his smile. his eyes. his laugh. his touch. I couldn't get him out of my head. Sam. my best friend. the one person who was there for me when no one else was. maybe, just maybe, I had fallen in love with him. but I could never tell him that. he has someone else. a girlfriend. but no matter how much he tells me, I can see that he doesn't love her. I can see the way he flinches a little when she gets to close. I can see the way his eyes don't shine like normal when he looks at her. I can see the way he's happier when she's not around. but he's so compassionate that he can't tell her. he can't make himself break her heart. and I understand why. she's so caring. and funny. and she has good intentions. but I can see through his fake smiles and forced laughs. I know he doesn't love her.
I heard my apartment door open and rapid footsteps up the staircase. then my door flew open and there stood my best friend. with tears running down his face. he stood in the doorway and looked at me. I quickly stood up and opened my arms. he stumbled forward and collapsed against my chest. and then he cried. for hours. when he finally calmed down, he looked up at me and whispered.
• "I broke up with Kat. I just couldn't do it anymore. I didn't love her. and I didn't wanna put her through me faking it. she deserves better"
~ "I knew it..." I said, barely above a whisper.
• "knew what?"
~ "that you didn't love her. I saw the way you would have to force yourself to look like you were having a good time. I saw the way you would laugh and then turn away from her, quickly losing your smile. I saw the way you would think on whether you should just tell her. but I'm glad you finally did." I told him.
he looked up at me but kept his arms wrapped around me.
• "me too. I didn't love her, Colby. I loved someone else. hell, I love someone else. the one person who has brought me so much happiness that I can't put it into words. the one person who actually turned those forced smiles into real ones. the one person who can lift my mood by simply smiling. the one person I never want to lose." he ranted as my heart broke a little.
~ "who?" I questioned. awaiting the answer that would break my heart.
• "you. I love you, colbs. more than my best friend." he said.
scratch that. my heart just exploded. my stomach was doing flips and I felt like I had electricity running through my veins. I didn't say anything. I grabbed his chin and leaned down to capture his lips. ecstatic. that's the only word to describe how I feel. we broke apart with huge smiles on both of our faces.
~ "I love you too, sammy. I love you too."
