Falling for my bestfriend

Falling for my bestfiend - Chapter 1

It was just after 7:45pm on a Friday evening. I stared into the mirror analysing my face as I ran my hands through my long black hair. I peered at my nose that I have always felt was a little too wide for my face and my lips that I felt looked huge and unattractive. I sighed.

Sometimes I would think I was beautiful until I was hit by a big fat reality bus that no guy has ever wanted me. Why didn't I look like all the other pretty girls I thought to myself.
I feel like all my life I've grown up thinking I wasn't pretty enough or 'light' enough. I mean let's be real for a minute... In all the films it was always the white girl with blonde hair and blue eyes that got the guy, or the perfect looking light skinned girl. But what about me? When would it be my turn? Would it ever be?
It's not that I was jealous of those other girls, I just wished people could see the beauty in me sometimes, because when nobody does it's kind of hard to see it in myself.. that's all.

Listen it's not that I didn't think my skin was pretty. I did... I just felt like nobody else did. It was obvious to me that girls that looked like me were always second choice. Everyone wants a Beyoncé, not so much a Kelly Rolland if you know what I mean.

I tried to take my mind off my insecurities and focus on my assets. Quite literally as I swayed my attention directly to my ass in the mirror, I loved staring at it, it was my best feature. No matter what anyone said about me they simply couldn't deny I had impeccable cheeks! I'd always catch guys staring at them, it kinda made me feel good.
I raised my oversized t-shirt up over my bum cheeks to reveal my light pink knickers. I grazed my juicy bum and let out a smile as I playfully bounced it in the mirror. I was just about to start my usual twerk routine when I was suddenly interrupted by my best friend Jayden. He burst out of my on-suite bathroom and into my room. A gush of steam filled the air.

"God I can't wait till my waters fixed, then maybe I can stop smelling like your bubble gum shampoo" Jay teased with a smirk on his face.

"Same here! Maybe then I can stop seeing your ugly face everyday" I blurted out embarrassed. I couldn't help but fear he had seen me twerking in the mirror.

"Erm..Was I interrupting something?" He asked now holding back laughter.

"NO!" I yelped as I jumped onto my bed embarrassed. 

Jay burst out with laugher as he tightened his towel around his waist. I watched as he walked across my room to where his pyjamas laid. He was still slightly wet from his shower and looked sexy as FUCK. I couldn't help but stare discreetly as he dried himself in the mirror. Jay was everything I wanted in a guy and he didn't even know it. He was 6ft3 making me feel tiny in comparison as I was only 5'4. When he hugged me it felt like I was protected and I could snuggle up to him forever. His body was practically ripped and he was covered in tattoos around his upper torso and arms. So sexy!

I watched in awe as he ruffled his curls in the mirror wishing so badly that I could run my fingers through it. My gaze dropped to his lips and I suddenly felt the urge to run over and kiss him.
Who am I kidding? I wanted to do so much more than that. God know i've had visions of sitting on his face and riding his dick for years!
I flushed with embarrassment as I realised I was fantasising about him again. I couldn't help myself it was getting so hard. Now that the water pipe at his house had broken, Jay and his mum were practically living with us for the next couple days until it was fixed. I mean he was practically here all the time anyway because we live right next door to each other but now it was different. I mean he was bloody naked in shower every night for crying out loud! It was getting pretty hard to control myself..

Jay got dressed and climbed into bed with me. Although this may seem like a big deal it was completely normal. You see, Jay and I have been best friends for what feels like forever, his mum and my mum are best friends. They practically raised us like brother and sister, though I would like to make it clear that I see him FAR from a brother! I can only hope and pray he doesn't see me like his sister.
Anyway growing up we would always share each other's beds for sleepovers. Especially when Jay's parents would argue, he hated all the shouting and would always sneak over to mine growing up. He's an only child so it gets kind of lonely for him.

Jay grabbed the remote and switched on the tv across from us. The Eastenders opening music filled my room as the show began. This was literally our favourite show, we always watched it together, it was like our bonding time. I smiled as Jay sunk into the bed and rested his head on my lap. I instantly ran my fingers through his hair and the aroma of my bubble gum shampoo filled my nostrils. He smelled good...

A loud ping sounded as a message appeared on his phone. I glanced at him as he reached for it and saw him smile. From the angle I was sat I could just about make out the text. I rolled my eyes as I realised it was his girlfriend Amber. I honestly hated that bitch! She was always so rude to me.. and a slut by the looks of it as she had only gone and sent him a nude! Ok.. ok.. it was just her in her bra but that was still just as bad.
I analysed the photo and couldn't help get jealous. He breast looked so perfect and perky in her expensive Victoria secret bra. I swear her tits were twice the size of mine, I could just about fill a B cup while she looked like she was on the verge of a double D! I examined her gorgeous curly hair and how it fell perfectly framing her face, and matched her caramel skin tone. The envy invaded my body as Jays eyes appeared glued to the picture.

"Ew" I muttered under my breath.
Shit! That wasn't supposed to to come out.

Jay looked up at me confused as he realised my eyes were fixed on his phone screen.

"Oi, stop looking at my phone... and Amber's sexy. You're ew!" He said jokingly.

I sighed heavy.

Welp there it was... the exact moment my heart sank to the pit of my stomach.. and broke. The only guy I've ever fancied just called me 'ew'!
How lovely.
My heart breaking felt so painful and dramatic I'm surprised Jay didn't hear it.

I quickly scooted him off my lap and turned my back to him now pretending to sleep.

"Ugh Ally, come on I'm kidding" He said nudging me playfully.
—"You'll miss the show if you carry on like this" He said.

I ignored him as I didn't want to lash out.

It didn't take long for him to stop trying to get my attention and return to his phone. I assume to stare at that WHORE again!

Ugh! Why was this my life?