Forgiveness

Memories of the dead

The villagers of konoha were cheering for the victory after the war. The heroes came back some are alive some aren't. The whole village were carrying their feelings in their screaming. Naruto was waving at them sakura,sasuke and kakashi was at the front with the hokage they were happy. Everyone danced, sang with the villagers but her, she just passed the people, wasn't looking in front of her. Hinata wanted to avoid all of them "why are they so happy?" They won yes, but she couldn't feel the joy they were experiencing. This victory was tasteless to her she wanted to go home take a shower and hide under her blankets. She didn't want her beloved young sister to see her condition. Her dried tears stained her cheeks. Her features didn't held any joy for their victory because to hinata she lost, why?. "I'm weak" the kunoichi felt her eyes burn again ready for another break down so she fastened her steps to hide from their eyes.
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Kakashi watched his team celebrating their victory with the villagers especially Naruto who was being carried by the villagers. And sakura who was talking with the kids, sasuke chose to stood to the side and stayed silent and watched there was no expression at all. Kakashi regretted looking to the other direction. It was a whole different story he saw the reality of the effects after the war. Not as he read in the books, it was different, some of them wasn't as happy as he expected he only focused on his team without thinking of the dark sides of all this. This is what really comes after the war, it didn't matter in which side you were, you will lose. He could see the pain of the lost in their features. They weren't showing any emotions but you could still read their eyes especially if someone had experienced the lost they were suffering from. Kakashi felt helpless as if he was paralyzed. He couldn't think of something to do for them or something to say. The cheers from the villagers pained them more because they couldn't find the reasons for their celebration. He watched team 8 shino was patting in kiba's shoulders who was watching their female teammate walking away from the crowd it was noisy here and she wanted somewhere safe and quiet. He could see how broken she was by looking at her back it seemed as if she was carrying rocks in her back when there was nothing and then there was team 9 lee was standing near tenten who hided herself behind him he could understand she didn't want to be here either she wanted to go home as soon as possible and lee who was trying his best to go with the flow but he couldn't this was too much for him too and it was strange when looked like that it didn't suit him as if he was a different person, kakashi intended to look away from them all but his eyes ,they fell in the worst... team 10. This team had went through alot and they weren't trying to fake anything, they didn't hide. Ino was holding into Shikamaru crying hard her shoulders were trembling with her sobs screaming her inside out. Shikamaru held into her too he didn't hide his tears too, he let them out quietly he watched them each of them trying to find something in the other but found nothing. Choji chose a small rock and sat on it and cried over it. This was the hard reality of what wars brought and that was more than enough for kakashi so he walked away to find a spot in some of the tree.
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It was few hours after they came back. Everyone were preparing for the funeral of their dead shinobi, her hero was one of them, hinata hesitated to go ,she couldn't find the reason she should be there, she wanted to but how could she when she was the reason of his death. She looked at herself in the mirror with disgust, disappointed that she was herself and not someone else and she hated and hated herself for being the person she was. Hinata closed her eyes and imagined that he would open that door telling her to get ready"hinata-sama are you ready?" And then helped her with whatever she was doing. But it never came her room was so quiet to the point to think that there was no soul living inside. She could only hear her breathing and she wished it would stop. Hinata opened her eyes again to her reflection and she almost puke. Even though the servant did their best to clean her room hinata still smelled the smell of his blood in her hands she looked at her palms and the memories came fast so she ran to the bath room to throw up what she had in her empty stomach.
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Ino tried to rest, they had a few hours before the funeral but she couldn't. Her eyes hurt, her body felt numb and she wanted to sleep without waking up.. she wished the war didn't end. At least she wouldn't think about all these she didn't know what was all these things that attacked her head but she wanted a long rest. So again she tried and closed her eyes.. and then his figure showed up in the darkness "Ino" He was Walking towards her like every morning his hand tried to reach for her with his sweet smile and before he touched her shoulders she cried because she wouldn't hear his voice anymore nor was she going to find someone who would walk with her from home to the shop.. she was all alone now.
Her door knocked and a piece of her jumped forgetting that whoever was behind that door wasn't her father she tried to find her voice but she couldn't and the person opened the door without waiting for her... "oh Ino" sakura walked to her friend and held her Ino couldn't react her father wasn't coming back he was gone the cold realization made her body numb she didn't want to go outside she was fine burying herself in her bed.
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The whole village stood in the cemetery, each of them remembering the last memory they had with the people they lost and some were trying to find the right words for the people around them. "I'm sorry nejinisan" that was the first and the only word that came out of her in that day. She looked at her left where her sister was standing the young girl was standing straight with a hard face but there were tears, she could see her sister's shoulders trembling she was holding back even though she failed she was still trying and hinata wished she could do or say something, anything for her sister but nothing good came out of her she was as useless as ever. "Hinata-Chan?" She heard his voice and it changed now, there was no charm or warmth or anything like before, hinata looked at the person who was dancing few hours ago ,who she was running after months ago and felt nothing she tried to make those feelings come again she needed them but they weren't inside anymore in fact he was the last person she wanted to see.. she sighed and walked past him the tears refused to come out anymore they settled inside with the pain. A horrible mixture she couldn't take and she just wished to take her heart out and wash it... she looked to his team who were standing further from her tenten was trying to hold back her tears the strong kunoichi who she looked up to looked broken now she wondered if she would ever pass by the hyuga compound again or she had no reason now?
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Sasuke sat inside the room in his straight jacket.. he was thinking about so many things the past, the war, his brother and his future. The sound of the cell's door opened stopped his train of thoughts he then heard light steps then they stopped a little far from him "sasuke-kun" sakura "how are you?" By the sound of her voice he could tell that she was struggling to find something to say "don't worry it won't take long, Tsunade-Sama is going to give the hokage title to kakashi-sensei and he will help you to get out of here" he didn't need it though, he was fine with whatever is coming "kakashi-sensei is busy so he couldn't come and Naruto is..." what? He wondered what happened to his blonde friend "what?" He heard her sigh "he is with the other you know Shikamaru and ino lost their father and neji died too so hinata-chan and his team are not ok too" he could hear the sadness in her voice "we've lost so much" she whispered but he didn't care about that "Hinata-Chan walked away from the funeral and she made Naruto worried about her" who was that? "Who's hinata?" Sakura raised her brows and forgot about her story "you don't remember her?" Was I suppose to? But he simply shook his head "hinata hyuga neji's cousin" there was no memory of her, he remembered neji but not her but that wasn't important to him something else was "why is Naruto worried about her? There are many who lost their people too?" Sakura nodded sadly not caring that he couldn't see her "Hinata-Chan tried to protect Naruto but Neji protected her and then he died" he didn't feel any sadness or pity.. nothing. He was wondering why would that girl sacrifice herself for Naruto sasuke was about to ask before he heard the noise from the chair "I have to go now, there are a lot of people who need me in the hospital take care sasuke-kun" then she walked out. Sasuke took a deep breath, that was the only thing he could do...breathing. He leaned his head back trying to move his neck a little bit and then he thought about his memories with his idiot friend back in the academy and how he tried to win against him all the time a small smirk drew his lips but then stopped. A flashback of small girl with a dark short hair popped in his head, he remembered glaring at her for cheering the wrong side and not him and her eyes they held the Byakugan then sasuke smirked again Hinata Hyuga.