Forgiveness

Nightmare

His tears flew out of his eyes running on his cheeks making his vision blurry, darker where was he heading anyways? His feet were small the trees were huge looking up to the moon he stopped
Was this another war?
The crimson moon were huge, closer he felt like touching it with his fingers if he jumped but he was in fear
"Okasaan"
His wet cold hands held his head there was a dead body of his brother laying on the wet ground and he was the one who took his life away, Sasuke closed his eyes running again away and away from that place he didn't know where to
"Okasaan!"
His voice louder, why was he calling her?
Light steps came towards him and he backed away until he recognized who it was tears rolled down his cheeks
"Oh my darling, don't you cry"
His mother wiped away his tears with her hands holding him close to her chest to where her warmth was he allowed these tears to roll again with his will, Sasuke looked back to the shadows he spotted a blue eyes looking at him with pity and he was scared of them he could feel his hands went cold cold sweat rolling on his face until his mother held him closer looking grasping her hair it wasn't black it was had hint of purple, lavender scent filled his sense making all his other senses stop
"Sasuke"
She called, this wasn't his mother
"Sasuke!!"
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Sasuke opened his eyes wide to the dark ceiling only to look to those bright, white eyes staring at him with fear why?
Looking down he found his hands grabbing her.. tight
"It's just a dream"
She whispered reassuring him that all of that wasn't true, it was only inside his head He nodded rolling back to his side she fixed her clothes and lay down again still surprised with his actions.
She rested her hand on her chest
He was mumbling and calling his mother in his dreams, how had it been since his clan was murdered?
Years many many years and still he misses his family, his clan someone to stood for him.
She heard him moving behind her but she didn't turn
She sighed the clouds were covering the sky even if they didn't the moon won't be up there.
Hinata walked to the window and closed it
"Why?"
Her husband asked hearing him saying that surprised her but she didn't show nor would he see it she had to remind herself that he isn't a hyuga.
"It might rain, do you want me to open it?"
She waited for his answer but she heard nothing but his body moving over the bed before he answered
"No, I just wondered why you like it open all the times"
She walked to her bed and laid on her side looking to the darkness in the room
"I like watching the moon"
He opened his eyes looking to her back his hand reached again to her hair but
"If it's bother i won't open it"
She spoke again
Then he stopped taking his hand back to his side
(What were you thinking? She was only playing her role as the wife)
He felt his chest tight and it got tighter when he heard her sigh again, he didn't dare to look at her he felt like he was the reason why she was sighing
His attempts to calm himself failed so he rolled to his side and closed his eyes
Both were begging the sleep to come over.
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Hinata walked to the gate they were supposed to meet, she expected the first one to come would be Ryu but no, her quiet student ken showed up fixing his hair in a high ponytail but still some of half of his hair fell on his face
"Hello, ken-kun"
Th guy bowed his head to his sensei, she still remembered him when she came to them in their first days he didn't accepted her at first nor did he when she saved his life only when she saved his female teammates
(Ren)
She was the key to him, after that day she could see his eyes sneaking slowly to the redhead kunoichi, the way he got too close to her, how protective he was around her, his sensei knows that she had a special place in his heart.
Hinata walked to her student but he surprised her when turned
"Hinata-sensei, Ryu won't be able to come today he's sick"
He saw how worried she was chewing her lips
"It's not that serious sensei no worries ren is with him too"
Looking at him she knew he didn't like that fact that the only girl he liked was chasing another guy
Maybe he would need a break too.
"Ken-kun"
He looked up at her
"Let's skip today alright? Ryu-kun needs you too"
No more words he didn't speak much but he bowed to her and walked away.
Ken felt sorry for his friend who was laying on his bed depressing about failing to protect their sensei in their last mission, and he felt sorry for himself
the guy had the only girl he could stand by someone's else side when he had all the girls around him, ken furrowed his brows, what did Ren saw in his best friend Ryu that he doesn't had?
He stopped looking back to
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Straightening himself he looked at the female in front of him she was acting differently, he always came to her she never met his eyes and he didn't mind it though.
He knew she was hurt when she was informed of his wedding he saw her crying in between the crowd she never tried to hide her tears opposite from someone he knew who chose the bathroom to pour her tears by herself away from his presence.
He was starting to know her a little by little, he even found himself staring at the moon in his mission searching for his answers in why she loved the moon she loves views like he did with the sunset knowing that about her gave him excitement to know more and more about her
'I want to see the world'
He mentioned that to his sensei once he wanted to explore the hidden places in this wide earth, it's impossible that this huge planet consists only the places he knows but how?
How did he ended up exploring Hyuga Hinata instead of the world and it gave him the same feelings he would had if he traveled around this world like he was finding a place with its hidden secrets and he find one by one.
'I love the moon'
Simple things like that everyone had but it was different when she said it, he found himself asking why she liked it? What so special in the moon? When did she start to love it? He even found himself questioning when did he loved the sunset? And why?
Well it because the colors, it's beautiful colors that spread over the sky and all these colors is because of the faded sun
"Sakura"
His voice calling her name sent chills in her body like he had caught her doing something huge
"Do you like the moon?"
She looked at him with eyes that showed her curiosity what with the question? He never asked her something about herself
(What if..?)
Her cheeks reddened with her thoughts, he suddenly showed interest in her
"No, I prefer the sun it why do you ask?"
Sakura fixed his arm looking at him with eyes he used to see in her how did she went back to normal so fast?
"Why?"
"Hmm?"
"Why do you like the sun?"
Sakura let go of his arm and rubbed her chin looking for an answer
"Well I guess i love it because it gives you energy to spend your day and i like sunny places because it's clear and warm"
"I see"
Pulling down his shirt he got up and left
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(Sunny place she said)
It had the same meaning of her name,
(Hinata)
Her name meant sunny place and yet she loved the the moonlight why?
Sakura had said it gave you energy is that why she wasn't happy today?
Sasuke looked up to the clouds covering the sun
(it rained)
'It might rain'
Dose she hate the rain? She closed the window that night this was the only thing normal about her.
He hated the rain it makes him wet, sticking and cold and the floor, he glared at his sandals they were stained a curse was heard from him that made the people glare at him and he wanted to burn all of them
Suddenly he had the urge to curse the hyuga but held his breath inside before he does, she had done nothing to him why was he blaming her in something she never did and what was that thing!
She had made him crazy these pass days and he hated that he had to change for her he didn't like her no he doesn't but he wanted his clan back he wanted his children to have people around them and after all his efforts to impress her she did nothing for him,
How rude!!
Clenching his fists inside his pockets Sasuke decided that he would talk to her to make a move they have been together for more than a month and yet she couldn't say a word!!
He made his way to the only place she would be at.
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Jumped to her seat not aware of the blue eyes that looked at her from the other side
"So happy today, Sakura glad to see that finally"
Sakura looked up as if ino said something confusing then she rolled her eyes placing a smile on her lips
"Sasuke came"
She regretted saying that, because ino was looking at her with a glare that showed her disgust and anger
"Sakura!"
It came cold and quiet just like the way Sasuke calls her but his tone without any emotion but Ino's held more, it was different yet similar.
"Sasuke is married now you and everyone are aware of that?"
"So? They were Forced together"
"So?" Ino said it with the same tone Sakura used
"What about hinata? She's our friend do you think that just because she doesn't love him give you the right to be in her place?"
What was that place? Sakura wondered it was a place where no feelings there she imagined it as a dark, empty place Hinata couldn't fit in and she felt pity for her yet she was jealous.
The excitement that was sparkling in her eyes were gone now they went back to their emptiness
"Kakashi-sensei told me that she was the one who agreed"
Ino wanted to stand slam her fist in Sakura's face break her head to see how the hell she use her brain
"And?!! She agreed without knowing that he wiuld be the one who would proposed, she might thought that the groom would be someone as old as her father!! And maybe she would prefer it so she wouldn't go in your way!! Sakura!! I..I.. I can't believe you, you wouldn't care if she had because all you care about is Sasuke fucking uchiha that piece of shit!!"
Sakura looked up tears were already filling her bright eyes
"Ino!! He has nothing to do wi-"
"He has everything to do with THIS!!"
ino was mad, her eyes were showing so.. these beautifully blue eyes were as wide as it could be he voice raised and Sakura was seeing her friend like a mirror
"What if she agreed with knowing who he would be?"
Ino said quietly looking at her best friend with pity
"What if she wanted to run away from that hell and live a life worth living?"
Sakura stood facing Ino fists clenching the papers
"What if she wanted to end your pathetic attempts to won him, he never looked at you sakura how this became Hinata's fault?"
She held her bag and walked away from the door slamming to maybe awaken the best medic in knonha.
Walking fast to the exit of the hospital she remembered a promise she made with the girls
That whatever happened they will have each other's backs, how did sakura blindly turned against hinata
What a pathetic excuse she had to broke their promise, thinking she stole her man! She chuckled he was never her man and who would that man be?
Sasuke Uchiha, piece of garbage! What a Waste of time..
Ino cursed she hated this, she remembered hinata running in the dark streets of konoha when the kages announced their intention to kill Sasuke Uchiha, hinata had broken her father's rule and ran in the midnight to Sakura's to wipe away her tears washing her pain with sweet words.
The next day hinata came with bruises around her body but she smiled saying she would stand up to her words.
The promise they made.
Ino smirked regretting making that promise, but even though she would find hinata running again in the streets even without that promise.
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She washed her face to wipe away her tiredness, what was she tired of?
Looking at the mirror, she hated that face her cheekbones, her dry lips and those dark bangs around her eyes.
'Move on, hinata'
Hinata walked slowly to the kitchen preparing dinner for her husband he was late.
Washing the tomatoes, the water running over her hands fast making her hands numb she was beginning to lose sense of her surroundings.
Was this her end?
(Ahh finally)
She hoped to rest, long and far.
To a place no one would be around but no..
The falling tomatoes woke her senses making her eyes grew wide looking around her like she just woke up from a sleep, she sighed picking up the vegetables from the floor and each time her hand reach one the tomatoes would roll away
'Was it so hard to keep up?'
Hinata stumbled again to reach for the another but again it rolled away
'It's you, nejinisan'
Finally she placed all of them in their place, hinata got up placing them over the table but before her hand reach the knife it fell..
Hinata looked at it on the floor, it looked far from her grasp as if she was staring at it from over the moon, she sighed tightening her grip on her apron
'Hinata-sama is willing to die for you'
Before she held it her knees fell, the coldness of the wooden floor reached her chest and nothing warmed her beside her tears, her hand raised to her chest this uneasiness wouldn't left it pressured her more and more reminding her that she once had stood in her brother's dying face, that she was the reason he spoke his last words.
And after all that she didn't change she would never change and that's why she accepted this emptiness inside because she deserved it.
"Ahhh!!"
Gasp
"Ahh..hiccup"
Like a kid she cried on the floor.
He didn't know how to approach her, his hand began to sweat begging to be released from the knob he was holding, clenching his jaw he never thought he was that bad!
Did she hated him? Thought of him as a monster?!
He was about to talk to her about moving on with their lives!
Losing his hope Sasuke kept watching her crying trying her hardest to take whatever inside her out but he knows that it won't leave, that she would have to try and try and then failed to get up again and wipe her tears and pretend to be the good wife again
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He was seated to have his dinner, looking at her as she offered her amazingly delicious food she wore a blank face one that had no traces of tears at all.
She was acting as if she wasn't crying an hour ago and it amazed him how hard she was trying, he knows that she wasn't fine now so he tried
"The food is good"
"Thank you"
That's was all.
No more word were spoke between the two, she flipped her food in her plate before brining a tiny bite to her mouth, chewing it slowly before zoning out then pull back to reality and sipped from the water, he watched her by the corner of his eyes.
"Did you have any mission these days?"
Shaking her head was the only response he got
But he wanted to say more, something that had been clinging into him for long but he chewed on his tomatoes
"What's do you like to eat?"
This question came late, they were in their second month and still he didn't know what she loves to eat beside cinnamon rolls and tea.
"Mochi"
It came quiet but surprising, he looked up to her for a minute then went back munching his dinner
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He couldn't help but reply her breakdown again
Looking up to the ceiling he couldn't bring himself to lay beside her so he chose to sleep on the couch he didn't want the guest's room so she would think he was pathetic so he chose this place to reason it with i fell asleep suddenly
(Damn you Hinata Hyuga)
He was doing too much for her, way too much
He never thought that he would be sleeping here shifting uncomfortably on the small couch he growled this was so annoying, Sasuke closed his eyes forcing his body to fall asleep and when it came he felt a cold touch on his palm opening his eye wide she was staring at him from behind the couch
Her hair touched him before her hand reach
"Sasuke let's go to sleep"
He didn't move he was staring at her but his fingers were playing with the strand of purple hair
When he didn't move hinata pulled his body up from the couch making their way towards their room
When he laid hinata walked around the room taking off her robe
"Aburame's clan will have a new leader after few days we will have to attend it"
Well that ruined the view he was enjoying, why they must go? He was the only uchiha and they hated him and she can go with her clan, so why must he go?
"Who's the new leader?"
"Shino"
She said that while she laid on her side
But he witnessed the smile on her face when she said the name of her teammates.
Why smiling? She wasn't the one being the leader of her clan, but he didn't voice out his thoughts he waited until her breath sounded deep...
He couldn't help it, reaching her hair she stopped him with her hand he furrowed why was she still awake?
But she didn't flinch she held his hand with hers and rolled to look at his face
"Scared?"
"Of what?"
She didn't answer she stared at him and he stared back both looking for their answers in the other's face, but they found none.
"Good night"
Whispering her words she closed her eyes but he didn't he kept staring at her for long he knows now
That she knows that he saw her today but she didn't say anything but why would he be scared
The ceremony?
Did she thought that he was scared to attend it?
She should be the one scared she would be showered with insults and judging eyes.
(Creepy)
He hated being under the hyuga's eyes they were creepy white and yet they glared he found it funny that he might be scared of these white eyes looking at him he wouldn't notice.
The question he had wanted to ask ring inside his head louder
"Hinata, why didn't you tell me about your last mission?"
He hated that he was the last one he knew about, he might have said something in her defense in that dinner
"I'm sorry, Sasuke I didn't thought that you might want to"
Now he regretted ever asking she didn't understand and she thought that he wasn't pleased that she doesn't tell him about her day
He held back a sigh and rolled to his back he could sense hinata loosening her grip but he held tighter telling her that he didn't want let go yet
without another word they fell asleep long
No nightmares and No tears.