Forgiveness

Reasons

He watched her from a far as she walked, kneeling forward to the flower ahead of her watering the flowers in the morning it was a relaxing view to him
watching her became one of his habits maybe the reason for appreciating that he had a family now
Someone to return to, pulling her hair out of her sight Hinata looked up to their visitor and when he saw her eyes narrowed he followed her gaze.
To the Inuzuka followed by his huge dog, she smiled a smile she wouldn't gesture to him but only to those close to her, they chatted a little before the male's became serious suddenly and his wife was looking everywhere but back to her teammate.. she was avoiding something he didn't know what they were talking about but she wasn't comfortable talking to this person she looked at her flowers then pretended to play with the dog, she was trying to escape and this damned, stupid dog breath wasn't aware of it
or maybe he did but she pushed a little
"Pff-cough-cough"
All eyes were on him
(Dammit)
Gulping the extremely hot tea like that?! He wasn't 7 years old!
(But at least)
Sasuke looked up seeing his wife walking towards him...
(She found a way out)
Hinata soothed his back with her hand bringing the water to his face and he took it looking back to the other male who was watching them with a glare directed to him before he turned and leave with his shoulders down.
Sasuke heard a sigh to his right and looked to her to find her getting up hiding her face behind her bangs his eyes never left her back until she faded inside the house leaving her husband swim in his confusion
(Just what was she escaping?)
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Hinata walked inside the bathroom the only place she would have her privacy in
'You should be the first one there!'
But she couldn't, she couldn't bring herself to be there, she had no right to go.
It was like smiling in someone's face when you stab their back, it wasn't the first neither would it be the last time they would push her to attend it.
She couldn't, what part of she can't they didn't understand, hinata looked at herself in the mirror wiping away her tears even though her eyes were puffy, she didn't want to show her husband any weakness
(But you had cry before)
She promised after that that he wouldn't see her tears..
Knock knock
Hinata gasped looking at the door
"Are you there?"
Why was his voice so frightening suddenly?
She was afraid from nothing
Knock knock
"Hinata"
Why was his voice sound like that? As if he was thinking that she's going to commit suicide inside.
Taking a deep breath she opened the door revealing her husband who wore a small frown but vanished when she opened the door and again it revealed when he saw her puffy eyes and red cheeks.
Her bangs stuck to her forehead when she washed her face trying to calm herself before she opened the door, she was staring at him for a reason why he was knocking on the door but Sasuke found none
What did he wanted? he forgot the moment the door opened, scratching his hair he walked passed her inside the bathroom it was his turn to have his privacy, he knew how ridiculous his excuse was there were multiple bathrooms in this house.
Fixing herself she walked to the kitchen to busy herself with anything.
She ignored the light steps behind her
"Hinata"
Looking back to him
She found Sasuke looking at her with furrowed eyes that referred to his determination to whatever he was about to say.
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Now why did he suggested going out suddenly?!
Sasuke wondered quietly to himself but the traces of her crying messed up his thoughts he didn't know how his thoughts barge into each other to form this ridiculous idea, looking over his shoulders it felt like she was a hostage and he was the capture so he stopped feeling the uncomfortableness grow inside him she wasn't looking so of course her head hit his back not hard he didn't even move it was her only her who stepped back holding her head looking up to him confused
He pulled her by her arm to his side holding her beside him knowing very well she would lose track and space out.
He stopped walking when she tugged at his back looking down at her she wasn't meeting those dark onyx eyes pointing to their left mumbling something he let her go and stood outside as she faded behind the people he just walked to another place.. close to where she was but before he went inside he noticed something
The village looked empty only few were wandering around most of them wore black, deciding to walk to a small place that poked his interests
Sasuke came face to face with the last person he would want to meet specially when he wasn't alone
Those oceans eyes looked at him darkly, the sparkles that once was inside them were no more replaced with this deep glare.
Sasuke simply started by gesturing him
"Naruto"
Like he was one of the rest, Naruto's hand tightened he felt crazy Sasuke was acting as their shared moments were only imagination in Naruto's head, only in his dreams
"You damned bastard!"
His curses flew out of his gritted teeth, his eyes were showing his fury, burning despite his attempts to keep them hidden, remembering how he hid his feelings before now he was wishing that he buried them inside forever.
Looking at the uchiha now acting like a stranger washed him with humiliation and Naruto wasn't one who keeps his feelings unseen.
He knew that he had dropped the act since he cursed so, his wounds opened again refreshing his pain like the first time they walked in their wedding in front of his eyes
"So SHE was the reason you came?! Huh?? And I!!.. I was just a game to you?!!"
His voice raised with his steps towards Sasuke
"TEME!! Did you forgot about all of our promises, we did everything together we even kis-"
"NARUTO! Watch your mouth! sh-"
He didn't need to hear Sasuke's hissing at him he spotted her a little behind unaware of the ex-lover's fight.
She was shivering with wide eyes looking to another direction
"Hinata-chaan~"
Someone else called her name and Sasuke looked back to the shouting he saw an old man on a wheel chair and someone he remembered Naruto used to call him based on his huge eyebrows and another female beside them and they also wore black.
Sasuke drifted his eyes to the hand holding his arm she was trembling he could feel her stepping closer digging her nails on his skin she buried her face on his clothes her breathing warming his arm
"Sa..Sasuke.. lets le..ave please"
Her whispered reached his ears, looking to the direction where she was hiding from they called her name again and they were close enough to start chatting and with every step they took her grip tightened on his arm and before the other team say anything to them his arm held his wife tight around her shoulders
"Let's go"
Taking her away from the people in black leaving them confused with the couple's actions
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He was still holding her close to him when they turned to a small hallway her eyes never left that direction they escaped from tears were already wetting her face they fell again nonstop.
His eyes stared at her with curiosity wanting to know more about her now, feeling her fast breath against his chest Sasuke took her chin to make her look up to him, his darkness met her light looking at her eyes with their beautiful colors it reminded him of a petal of her flowers she grew in their house but these were watering by her tears they fell again running on her cheeks he stared at her reaching to her skin with his thumps wiping her tears away to clear her face she looked at him for a while confused of his actions but she didn't show it, without hesitation Sasuke placed his hand behind her head and rested her head on his chest allowing her to wet his shirt with her tears.
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Shikamaru left the office tiredness thumbing his body making it numb especially today.
Seating himself in the stool to have a drink he knowledge the avenger beside him
"Nara"
"Uchiha"
That was all, they greeted each other like that each of them know about the other's opinion, Shikamaru thought that Sasuke was a troublesome and Sasuke looked down to Shikamaru that's that.
But something in Sasuke made him look up and down the nara beside him to his clothes
"Why are you all wearing black?"
Sasuke asked sipping from his drink waiting for Shikamaru to respond but the he took his time ordering and tasting his drink a little
"It's the anniversary of the hero's death"
Then when he placed his glass down he muttered
"Hinata didn't attend it"
Sasuke didn't know if he was informing him or asking him and before he decided in which answer he should say Shikamaru spoke again
"She is still hasn't"
Sasuke stopped his drink close to his lips looking at Shikamaru with raising brows asking for an explanation for his curiosity.
Shikamaru know that Sasuke was asking for that so he spoke "her guilt for the death of her brother still eating her so she couldn't be there thinking she was the one killed him"
Sipping from his drink Shikamaru never looked to the uchiha beside him keeping himself silent to let the him speak and Sasuke did
"What's his name?"
"Neji Hyuuga"
At that Sasuke left his drinks, Shikamaru sipped from his drink quietly hoping that his plan for helping Hinata would work, he wanted the uchiha to pull her out from her fears and guilt to get her back on her feet, looking to the seat beside him he noticed all the bottles Sasuke had drink then cursed after he realized something
"Che, such a drag"
Sasuke left the payment for his drinks to Shikamaru
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Hinata sat beside her flowers fixing her black dress she wore looking at her plants she grew the only happiness in this place for her,
since they came Sasuke left she didn't know if he was mad or not, she was depending on him so much and she didn't want to she hated that thought inside her head wanting to brush it away hinata sighed looking up to the steps she heard when someone came
There he was her husband in black looking down to her he offered his hand she stared at it
"Come"
She obeyed his words, standing without voicing her thoughts
(Is it his clan's death anniversary too?)
She didn't know but she took his hand and they walked in a long way her eyes to the ground, not knowing where they headed to trusting this man in front of her with her fate.
They finally reached she could feel the strong wind brushing her hair away she realized that he had taken her to a high place she could see the Inuzuka's clan from the here but most importantly was another place...
Sasuke looked over his shoulders to her
"Come here"
His husky voice awakened something in her like a flash and she obeyed walking towards him until she stood by his side
His eyes were focusing in somewhere down there and she waited patiently for him to speak but he pointed with his eyebrow to the a place she never visit after the war
"Now you can visit your brother without having troubles"
Hinata looked the cemetery was close she could see his grave from up here a gasp that didn't came out tightened her chest
"Grieve as much as you want, mourn for his death you're a human too"
She fought her tears she didn't want them out
'Don't show your weakness'
The wind slow letting his footsteps when he turned loud speaking behind shoulders
"You don't have to hide your tears i will leave take your time"
He walked away until the shadow swallowed his figure even though she didn't see it
Hinata fell to her knees mumbling apologizes louder and louder until she was screaming
"Go..gom..ena..asai.. nejinisan gomensai!! Ahh"
She cried like a 5 years old, her words almost incomprehensible, her tears making her vision blurry she felt like she had disappointed her brother, her hero. 
What would he do if he was alive he would be looking at her with those smiling eyes telling her that there would no need to apologize, that she was forgiven but her begging for forgiveness never stopped she screamed like she was waiting for his response from the heavens to soothe away her pain, her loneliness and her desolation that will never be a whole again.
She was asking for something she would never heard even in her dreams
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Sasuke stared at the ceiling, sleepiness never visited that night, her screaming dinned inside his empty head, beginning a train of thoughts starting by a question asking to reason why he took her there ending with the struggling to push this unknown thing that heaved his chest making him
uncomfortable whenever he heard her screaming apologizes to the dead person she lost.
He didn't left he stood in the shadow watching her taking out pieces that cut her for a while now shattering her for a whole year before
what made him came out with that? His chest aches when he  resounded her breakdown on the dirty floor clutching the sand under her palms throwing it with madness like she was trying to wipe an image that has formed in front of her, sighing Sasuke rolled on his left he was surprised when he was her facing him and not the window looking behind her to the window a thought danced in his head
What if she was watching his back all the time and slept while looking at him?
The thought amused him, he smirked at his imagination
His eyes drifted again to the window
( what does she think about when she look out the window)
Had she ever thought about jumping out leaving her life with him?!
No, impossible he wasn't that bad right?
Wrong, guilt seek in his chest when he remembered that Kakashi was the one who stood for her in that dinner and not him
He was supposed to play the perfect-husband role!
Scratching his head his eyes fell on her sleeping face
She looked... peaceful, her features showed her deep tiredness like she hadn't slept in years.
His hand dared to reach for her face instead of her hair running his fingers over her cheeks until they reached her jaw but stopped before they run over her lips looking at them Sasuke gulped remembering her softness against his own when he kissed them
He pulled his hand away fast when memories of that night came again he felt his face heated his finger raised to his lips he closed his eyes trying to cool this unknown source of heat that burnt his cheeks.