Forgiveness

Decision

Sakura ran out of work when she knew he was sick,
Sasuke uchiha, her teammate and most importantly the love of her life was sick.
Her breaths fastened with her steps she ran to where his compound was and stood before she got inside to fix herself, Sakura went inside tip toeing to not disturb the last uchiha she led herself to his room without needing of directions she had been here so many times before but she wasn't allowed inside his room, she walked with an exciting steps this would be her first time coming inside his room, the place where he sleep and rest, where he changed and save his personal things inside she let her imagination drag her to another world where she was a Uchiha instead of Haruno, where she was a wife heading to his..no Their room to take care of her husband and she smiled at the thought almost jumping to her own thoughts her smile widened with every step she took until she stood in front of his door she took a deep breath not wanting to look desperate or happy that he got sick Sakura endured her smile but the sparkles were still in her eyes before it faded fast when she opened the door.
There wasn't Sasuke Uchiha alone, there was Hinata Hyuga too standing over the man's head with an empty bowel between her hands the hyuga looked up to the person who came in she was aware of the raised brow on the medic's face but she didn't try to make sense to her confusion.
Hinata bowed a little and walked passed her out of the room and headed to the kitchen once she was there she looked around the place few days and she would be here spending most of her time here half of the place was empty, there wasn't a lot of furniture like the Hyūga's or a lot of gardening like her mother's, there weren't any flower around the place.
She would need to get use to the place but she would take a long time to do so, hinata rolled her sleeves before she started washing the dishes and clean everything in the kitchen and walked outside looking to the empty garden then left.
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Sasuke opened his eyes slowly his body was tired but he didn't want to fell sleep again, he was sick from staying at the bed his eyes stared out of the window it was almost dusk the lights of the room were on and he stared at the ceiling after he checked the room wondering
(Did she left?)
He remembered her half awake as she offered the soup and help him drink it he was too tired to even open his eyes but checked who was giving him a spoonful of soup and he could still   feel her soft hair on his arms when she leaned to him, he could still smell her scent and he was grateful that she left such a scent flying in his room, he didn't regret choosing her to be his wife she was the right one for him and he felt a little but lonely when she wasn't there.
But soon enough she would by his side
(Laying here)
His hands ran over the empty space on his bed his dream would soon come true.
Sasuke knows that she wasn't there because she care for him he won't raise his hopes up so fast he could see that she hated that decision and she hated being his partner in his life she didn't love him he could see that in the way she tightened her grip and when she slams the doors and her features say it all
He remembered when he opened his eyes as she sat beside his bed they said everything inside a person would be written clear on their eyes but hers weren't showing anything she barely met his eyes they reflected nothing from inside her and it made it more difficult to understand her and he made no effort to ask her anything he was worried that he might say a word and then she would lit and her hatred towards him would explode and he was too tired to do so.
Sasuke's eye opened listening to her steps as they walked towards his door then opened he almost closed them again and pretend that he was sleep but the person who came in had caught him with her emerald eyes
"Sasuke-kun"
Sakura ran to his side and he looked up to his ceiling
"How are you feeling?" Her worries bleed with her words as she looked at him he didn't react when she touched his forehead to check him he kept his eyes up lost in his future plans but they were cut when Sakura shoved something inside his mouth
"Here Sasuke-kun drink so the sourness go"
Too late he could taste the medicine inside his mouth now and he didn't even try to hide his reaction when it hit him he swallowed it because it was the only thing he could do and gulped the water fast he almost choke
"Gomen Sasuke-kun are you ok?"
Sakura ran her hand on his back as if that would make it better, he wanted to glare at her but no energy were left inside him so he laid down again letting sakura blabber over his head
Suddenly his voice came out asking
"Hyuga?"
Sakura looked at him his eyes were closed and the rest of his face showed nothing
"Hinata-chan left hours ago, do you need anything?"
He didn't say anything but she could see his brows furrowed slowly, his change of expression boiled her curiosity and even if she denied it she was jealous
And this mixture wasn't helping to keep her words to herself
"Sasuke-kun" she tried to call but he never respond
"You were calling hinata-chan when you were sleep"
His eyes opened but they didn't look at her he looked straight, she knew he was surprised just like her
"Why?" She asked her question with focus on his features to take a hint, to satisfy her curiosity and maybe to calm her jealous.
Why she asked Sasuke almost laugh at her thoughts hinata represent nothing to him but a mother of his children the person who would achieve his goals and rebuild his clan he doesn't have anything to her and she sure doesn't have anything for him they would be two strangers who would share the same place and spend nights and nights to create a name for the uchiha that would be all but why was he calling her name, he had thought about her a lot in attempt to try and understand her he thought she would be clear and opened but it didn't happen, she was like a doll, he left sakura's question unanswered and went back to sleep
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Sakura walked through the village slow, she never thought that she would leave the uchiha's compound with her head dangling her own thoughts drove her to the top of her imagination and to the bottom of her doubts different thoughts and feelings were jostling inside her but despite the chaos inside her outside was showing nothing from the inside.
She had gone there expecting a successful attempt to get closer to her teammate but she wasn't alone, the hyuga kunoichi was there too and it confused her yet she was relieved that it was Hinata not someone else
The chances of hinata being with Sasuke are less than zero, both of them doesn't know that the other exist or they knew but they didn't care about each other she had assured that to herself and she was convinced and was grateful when hinata left
But Sasuke never failed to destroy ever bit of hope in her, he broke it on her face when he mumbled Hinata's last name when Sakura checked his temperature
'Hyuga'
His voice was calm, relaxed and soft not like the tone he uses with her there wasn't any irritation in it she actually felt something in his voice only that time and she was more disappointed that her name wasn't the one he mentioned it belonged to the hyuga she didn't thought that hinata would be the one to get jealous of, but why would she Hinata Hyuga was in the other side of Sasuke they would never cross paths together and even of they did they would never be together none of them had even talk to the other
The only common thing between both of them is Naruto, yes hinata loved Naruto she doesn't like Sasuke right? Then why she hadn't seen her around naruto lately Sakura grabbed her head tired of attacking herself by her thoughts
"Ahhh moou!!"
Then she stopped ,looking around her to the villagers who looked at her and even though they were few Sakura felt as of the whole village froze to listen to her thoughts she bowed few times before running off
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Sasuke opened his eyes at the light knock on his door he was too lazy to opened it, the way to his door was long and his body was already tired he opened the door and was surprised to see hinata on his door carrying something with her but looking at the fabric he already knows what was under those folds he looked up and she didn't greet him only a bow holding her boxes in front of her, she didn't want to met his eyes but when she looked down her eyes fell on his abs then she realized he was shirtless, he almost smirk when she closed her eyes and drifted them everywhere but to him
he decided to act first and step aside letting her walk past him to the kitchen and he headed to his room to put on a shirt and walked back to where she was, he stared at her as she prepared his food.
It was a pleasant view to see everyday, that someone was there sharing his house with him, sharing his life. She would be here everyday the next week preparing their food, walking around his house her scent that she carried would fill the house, there would be another steps beside his, another sound beside his and this huge compound would hold a life inside it.. beside his.
His eyes met hers when she looked towards him and he knew that she had finished preparing his food and so he walked to the table and seated himself
Sasuke waited for her to sit next to him but she didn't she headed to the kitchen again he looked at her back but still waited until she came out again
Putting a cup, he didn't know if he should call that a juice beside his plate
"Drink it when you finish eating, please"
Her voice soft, quiet reflecting everything inside her she was about to leave again but he held her arm
"What about you?"
She didn't look at him her eyes were fixed forward
"I'm full"
(No you're not)
He let his hand fell to his side as his eyes watched her walk again taking her stuff then out of his door,
He continued eating enjoying the flavor of her cooking, those magic hands she had.
Sasuke ate all the food she offered drink whatever she made for him he didn't want to but he had no choice if he didn't drink he might eat Sakura's medicine and this was much better he could taste a lemon only he didn't know if there was anything else
Sasuke washed the dishes and when he came out of the kitchen he saw there was other stuff for hinata that she forgot, he had no energy to follow her even though the hyuga's compound wasn't that far he was tired, his feet dragged him to his room but there was a noise outside and he glared at the window.
What if it was an intruder? A sighed came out of his mouth preparing himself to walk again to the door he opened the door fast and walked out looking to whoever was making noises outside, his eyes fell on the hyuga she was intimidated looking up at him with wide eyes they held each other gaze before she drifted her eyes to the ground, his eyes fell on her hands
"What are you doing?" He leaned on his door frame and asked waiting for those eyes to look at him again
They didn't
Hinata answered without looking up
"These flowers would grow in a week"
Almost a whisper if there was a wind he wouldn't be able to hear what she said.
It was something she wanted to see when she moves to his.. No their house.
( so she loves flowers) the first thing he knew about her without anybody telling him or taking hints from the people close to her, he didn't realize what he was doing until his wife looked up with confused features, then he felt it.
He was smiling, a small smile as he watched her planting the flowers she wanted to see next week
But now he felt stupid heat of embarrassment creeped to his face as he furrowed his brows and went back inside his home
(Why did I frown?) he almost smacked his head on the wall, he wanted to be nice to her so he could reach his goal but he was acting stupid
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She was packing her clothes, her jewelries and her memories, ready to move them in the morning to the uchiha's she was the only one making noises at this late hours,when would things get better in her life?
It was like her life was surprising her with a day worse than the one before, she had thought this would be easy it's only moving to another place until the night before she laid on her bed sleep never came her father's word kept her eyes open in the dark room and she overthought.
She wasn't moving to another place, she would be married to someone and that someone was completely stranger to her, she would share her food, his house and his bed.
Hinata looked down to her body and felt disgusted, her body wasn't beautiful and Sasuke would ran his hand in her bare things up to her waist, she shivered it was disgusting being under a naked stranger as he enjoyed her ugly, fat body because she wasn't the suitable daughter for her father or the perfect heiress for her clan.
She kinda thought she deserved it because after all she was the reason why his body was buried under the ground.
He, Neji hyuga, her cousin, her brother and her hero.
Not only hers, but he was one of the greatest shinobi konoha had lost,a great lose to her village, to her clan, to her family and to her sister too.
Because of her.
Because of her ridiculous dream.
Because of her selfish, stupid feelings for the blonde.
Because she was soft, worthless and useless.
She deserved it, whatever was happening to her she deserved every bit of it and worse.
She turned her clan's power in one moment because of her selfishness
'Be useful for once'
'Try not to fail us again'
'Keep up with the world around you'
'You will find someone who love you for who you're'
She hoped that no one would, what if they faced the same fate her brother had?
'Mou, die already!!'
She screamed, that Was the first thing she said when she came back from the war, she looked at herself in the mirror the blood scent were sticking to her body, the dirt were staining her face and she looked ugly, like herself.
She closed her eyes hoping to go deaf when she heard them singing outside, singing for their victory.. what victory? They lost people, innocent lives were wasted, places were destroyed and there were kids who had no parents now, no home to go to and no life to sing their victory with and she was one of them.
It killed her when she looked at her once was her crush for years singing, dancing and celebrating after the war, this was the person she killed her closest person for
what a shame?
(Do you realize that you won't see him or hear his voice ever again?)
she asked herself when his body hit the floor and was at that moment a dead body without a soul, now looking at Naruto reminded her of how much she hated herself so she left, avoiding the crowd and hiding in the shadow to bury herself under the blankets.
Hinata's tears rolled down her face, if he was here she wouldn't need to go to the uchiha compound, he would be here comforting her or ask her if she wanted to join him to a cup of tea in the midnight because none of them slept maybe they would be sneaking to the garden outside and watch the moon together until hanabi join them , make a noise then they would be running to their rooms.
She didn't smile at the memories, nor did she cried out loud she just stared up letting the tears roll washing away her features replacing them with a dark, puffy one.
She wanted to jump from a high place, drown herself in the river or maybe die suddenly but this was the life Neji died for.
Such a waste.
She rolled on her stomach letting her face buried on her pillows and shout out a scream no one would hear it but her and the moon only
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Sasuke came from his first mission after he got sick, it was afternoon the sun was still shining over the village and he wanted to threw his body on his bed and just sit their because there was nothing interesting to do but there was still one problem.
How would he get rid of this one?
His eyes looked to the kunoichi beside him as she blabbered about her day in the hospital and about the same guy who came and gave her flowers and confessed again, she rolled her eyes
"Ugh, he is so stubborn"
Sasuke never responded to her he just walked towards his home carelessly until she mumbled
"Remind me of Naruto-baka"
He froze.
How did he forget about his blonde teammate?
They had kept their secret training session from everyone but how would he face him with the news?
What excuse did he had to say it to Naruto?
Sasuke looked to his female teammate and without a second thought he said to her
"sakura, you're annoying"
Probably he would regret saying that to her but he needed time alone to think about his blonde, how would he handle his relationship with him? Should he break it, keep it.
Maybe it wasn't too late to break this marriage, but he wanted kids, he wanted a clan and a home to go back to and Naruto wouldn't be able to give him that.
Sasuke's steps were fast in a minute and slow in another minute, thinking about his situation will the hyuga agree to his condition of course not, but she might not agree or let him touch her, what if it took longer? What if she couldn't bring children to him. Then what neither his dreams nor his feelings would count in that situation, he sighed frustrated why didn't he think about that 1st?
Sasuke walked finally inside his house, it not like those thoughts would leave him if he was inside his house but he felt like he was acting crazy in those villager's eyes.
Sasuke threw his towel over his shoulder and headed to the bathroom letting the drop of the water ran through his naked body he looked at himself, to every scare on his body.
He remembered when Naruto ran his finger over the biggest one on his back asking where it came from, the 8 tails jinchuriki he remembered Naruto's laugh saying that he wasn't surprised with all those swords that jinchuriki had and sasuke just smirked.
He dried himself not even the shower took his thoughts away, he wrapped the towel around his waist and walked out to his bed and laid giving to his own thoughts letting them drive him to wherever the end of them was.
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Letting his thoughts rolled him was a bad idea now he was walking outside his house in the darkness to drown himself in sake, he threw his body in the seat at the front of the shop ordering only sake and one bottle was followed by the other, until he felt his head being lighter those thoughts were sneaking out of his head slowly, his eyes were heavier
"are you sure you want another one?"
He heard the female behind the counter ask and he just glared an answer for her to understand that it's none of her business, she wasn't supposed to ask only give him more that was her job she supposed to be happy that he would pay her more, but he couldn't answer darkness began to cover his vison and he only heard someone speaking
"no thanks"
"I will take him, he will be fine"
He felt his body being lifted from the stool and his steps stumbled heavy, and forced.
He growled when he stumbled again "I'm not the hyuga"
But there was only a chuckle from whoever was beside him.
"she's annoying" sasuke wasn't aware of what he was talking to but he only heard chuckles and few words that he couldn't understand
"she smells nice"
He whispered before he felt his body thrown on his bed and he closed his eyes
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The sun lights sneaked through his curtains to his face and he groaned, the feeling of throwing up threating his empty stomach when was the last time he ate? He doesn't remember, he remembered the rice balls he had in his mission the day before.
Not everyone was as nice as the hyuga who offered his meals for him, he had to get up and freshen if he wanted this all to go away, gathering all his energy and strength sasuke walked to his bathroom to shower he didn't take long the feeling was still threating his body to collapse he walked out to his kitchen without expecting a little surprise for him.
There was a hangover soup waiting for him, all the memories of him last night was blur but he remembered someone taking him home.
Without a second thought he seated himself and sipped from it, enjoying the feeling of it washing away all sourness insdie his stomach and mouth at least there was a taste in his tongue.
The cool breeze of the morning hit his body feeling fresh he finally decide to out some clothes on.
Not only the soup that surprised him but when he opened his closet his eyes fell on a purple dress his brow was raised as he touched the dress then he opened his closet fully, then he realized to whom these female's clothes belonged to when the aroma of her hit him

His wife, hinata hyuga her smell was already filling his No ...Their bedroom.

And he wondered why it took him a while to decide, why did he hesitate? just by looking at her clothes he smirked.
His clan was building again and he will witness it until it came back.
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The guards of the konoha gate were alarmed by the appearance of someone coming both of them were ready to inform the hokage but when the figure was showing under the sunlight all their worries were gone and they waved to him
Naruto waved back with his usual grin
"Oi, I'm baaack"
A small smile framed on his face as he looked away from the guards and whispered
"I'm back, teme"