Forgiveness

Wedding day

It was huge wedding just like hiashi had promised so so many had attended and Naruto stood in the middle of the crowd hiding his presence from the eyes he wanted the floor to swallow him and keep him inside.
He didn't pat an eye when Sakura broke in tears next him she made it worse for him he had to stood they all had to stood and watch the newlyweds came in sight, he wasn't ready yet time flew and he hadn't prepared himself for the sight, his stomach flipped inside but he endured the feeling of walking away and... realization of how helpless he was came cold and slow and what if he walked away? He would only find a place to shout out his voice until it hurt, more pain for him it's not like the uchiha would gave up on his dreams to chase after him, he was only a secondary in Sasuke's life nothing more, Naruto looked down to his shoes pretending that he wanted to straight himself then his eyes looked up again at the couple walking holding hands and as they passed by memories of him and his teammate together passed by too their first training, their first kiss and all the moments he spent with the uchiha
Naruto was awakened by voices behind him
"She's cute"
"Didn't know that the hyuga had someone like her"
"Why? do you think you might stand a chance?"
He heard them chuckle he didn't know who were they nor did he want to check his eyes fixed on her
She was beautiful, Ino did a really god job showing the ex-hyuga's beauty.
He hated the idea of looking at her, the heat of hatred towards her built inside him, rubbing his temples he knew she had nothing to do with this she didn't know of his secret relationship with Sasuke and even if she knows, that something she was forced to do
Because Hiashi Hyuga offered her hand in marriage and Sasuke Uchiha proposed without asking her or giving her the right to think about it.
He allowed himself for just one day to let his hatred control him, directing it to the hyuga princess just this one day.
Naruto cleared his throat from any traces of pain swallowing his pride as he looked up to them standing face to face and he watched them with narrowed eyes, as Sasuke stared at hinata
He held his breath inside when Sasuke leaned to the frozen bride to give her a kiss, memories of their kiss ran through his head.
The pain of his nails on his palms when he tightened his fist didn't matter to him, he wanted so bad to shut the crying kunoichi beside him.
He looked down letting the question inside him sink in his head to add pain to his chest
(Was that their first kiss?)
He didn't know he closed his eyes realizing a lot of things once
'You're one of the reasons i came back'
He was only one of the amount of reasons that Sasuke came back maybe in the top of his reasons hinata was the first.
He was the third part in their life an intruder that would ended up alone in every love story a game to Sasuke to pass the time with and it hurt him that he couldn't blame Sasuke for all this.
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Hinata stood in front of her mirror staring at her ruined makeup that stained her face, she snatched the small crown Ino placed over her head, what pride did she had to wear the crown? She looked down to her white kimono, this wasn't how she pictured her wedding this wasn't how she dreamed of her wedding her small wish was snatched away when he father and Sasuke agreed to their deal why?
Hinata was staring at the reason her father married her off
Weak
She was, she had promised that she would stood still accept whatever the clan chose for her because she is a shinobi and the first born of Hiashi Hyuga.
But she broke when she stepped inside her new home, she wasn't a part of that place anymore the place which she still called home.
She was now uchiha hinata.
And she wasn't a happy about the change, she swallowed her pain but the tears had fell already
Proving her weakness to her, pointing at her to the reason her father married her to the uchiha convincing hinata that it was all her fault.
A hiccup escaped her mouth without her intention pulling all the tears and pain out of Hinata's mouth weakening her knees until she fell down crying her heart out like a baby ,she wanted to breath but nothing came out of her mouth but hiccups that hurt her chest, she didn't turn to the person behind the door who called her name softly
"Hinata"
It came as a whisper, she heard the gentleness in his voice that never reached her, Hinata's grip on her kimono tightened did she really had to live with this person?
"Why did you marry me?"
She whispered her question out, without him hearing it she was grateful for only that he wasn't a hyuga or he would be looking at her behind doors now because if he knew about her breakdown behind the door she would be showing another weakness to him and he wasn't supposed to know everything but pretending In front of people out there tire her, her student's faces as they looked at her pained her especially Ryu, he was avoiding looking at her as if he was the one being forced not her, her team showed up kiba looking down to his fists showing how shameful he was for not being able to stop this shino was calm as always but she knew under those dark glasses he was frowning and she almost break in front of them, but she reminded herself that she was under her father's eyes.
Hinata took off her kimono with her memories of being a hyuga once and walked to the bathroom looking at her reflection on the mirror, she wasn't pretty as Ino said, she was looking for the whispers she heard as she walked beside her husband, there was none of them in her hinata stared down to her chest, down to her abdomen her ribs cage were showing from under her pale skin her body was unhealthy thin yet it looked fat, she wasn't sad about it the truth of her ugliness had sank deep inside her long ago, but it the fact that her body now belonged to another person too, she had to share this ugly figure with the uchiha her imperfections ,her scars and her whole skin would be under him at night, Hinata imagined the feeling of his hand running miles and miles over her body, those dark eyes would scan her body as if she was waiting for his valuation about herself
'Smile'
Remembering his hot breath on her ears when he whispered to her in their wedding wasn't helping her hinata swallowed the argue to cry again
'For the sake of the clan'
'Be a good wife, do your duty to your husband completely'
At the mention of her father's orders to her, hinata straightened herself pushing away any traces of the feelings she had before, she had to do it.
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It was evening already and yet he was sill wearing his kimono ,sasuke walked hesitated towards where she was he didn't dare to step inside when she closed the door behind her, so he was surprised when the door of their bedroom wasn't locked now, it was open ,once he heard the door opened his worries were released something slipped inside him and he was relieved.
Sasuke opened the door wide and looked inside the lights from the outside extending inside the dark room he looked at her she was wearing a nightgown he wasn't sure of the color but it was close to white he hair were running passed her shoulders resting on their bed she was sitting looking forward there were no traces of her makeup or tears anymore it was her natural beauty and she was surprisingly beautiful.
He glances at her when they were walking around hearing the people whispering about how cute they were together how fitting, he wanted to be one of the people to see himself beside her walking to see where the part they fit for each other looking at them now they were completely strangers ones who couldn't even greet each other but he didn't care about that he didn't marry her for that he wanted his clan back, Sasuke looked up and down her body it was perfect for him and for his future plans.
Sasuke was about to turn the lights on but she stopped him with her soft, soft voice
"Don't ... please"
Instead she stood and walked to open the window allowing the moonlight to shine over the room letting the moon be her only commiseration in this night.
Sasuke reached for his kimono started taking it off, he felt the cold breeze against his exposed chest he didn't realize how warm his body was until he relaxed when the cool breeze touched his body Sasuke stood in front of her as she sat on their bed looking down to her palms she was shivering but who wouldn't, Sasuke didn't blame her.
He reached for her chin to look at him resting his other hand beside her he stared at her features for minutes memorizing her white eyes then he widened his a little when he stared at her eyes, despite the lack of light he saw it the hint of lavender in those hyuga's eyes making her features more beautiful more matching Sasuke dark ones lowered to her lips
Before he looked up again to her eyes leaning forward he kissed her a light peck on her lips before he deepened it, he was surprised to feel her trying her hardest to make a move too only by resting her hand on his shoulder, he continued kissing her tasting her passionately even though he wasn't in love with her and she wasn't they continued until he felt her hand grabbed his shoulder tight a sign to give her a chance to breath and he pulled back looking at her ,their warm breath hit the other's face, Sasuke's heat raised to his chest and face he grabbed her thigh and placed her under him over the bed reaching down to her lips again as he slipped off his kimono and he lowered himself to her neck kissing her marking her neck, taking in her smell inside his lungs for many times. Sasuke moved her hair from her neck looking at her bones showing under the moonlight it was a good choice to not turn the lights on for many reasons less awkward and more beautiful.
Sasuke used his finger to slip the thin line that held up her nightgown over her shoulders kissing  every trace of his finger he reached up again to her collarbone biting on it receiving a faint sound from her it made his grip on her tightened along with his body, he had placed himself in the right position ready to complete their wedding night until he reached up again to her lips but before he did, he realized that he was the only one enjoying this that he ran things too fast..
She was looking out to the moon and that moon made the glittering tears in her eyes clear to him her tight jaw and tight fist on the sheets under them he stopped and every desire inside him was trailed off he looked down at her for seconds before he sighed regretting his attempts, he placed a kiss on her forehead whispering to her ears
"Sleep well"
Sasuke rolled out of bed grabbing clothes from his closet and out of the room, leaving Hinata there letting her tears rolled down her cheeks, and when she made sure that his presence was completely out she allowed herself to cry hard covering her mouth to muffled her apology
"Gomensai..hiccup... f..father..gomensai"
She kept apologizing hoping her sound to reach her clan's ears her father's and her husband's.
Hinata covered her face with her hands thinking it would prevent the shame she felt from taking over her. her tears of disappointment and uselessness washes her features and then hinata closed her eyes given up again to whatever was coming.
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Sasuke found his steps taking him here, between the trees to where he once followed her when she laid down, she looked peaceful so he might too.
Sasuke rested his back on the ground looking up to the moon his thoughts were blank, nothing came to his head only her image when she laid on the same spot a feeling inside him came alive for his bride.
It was love No it was far from romantic feelings, it was unknown feeling for her especially when she laid here under the sunlight looking angelic.
Sasuke wanted to feel what she felt at that moment, he wanted her to share her peace and comfort with him what kid of thought she had? What did she feel?
What reason did she has to come here in the first place? And what memories did this place held for her?
Then it hit him cold and hard
He was envious of her at that moment, she had something he needed.
Sasuke looked to the moon and breathed... deep and slow, he felt the darkness covering his vision when he closed his eyes drifting himself to sleep.