Forgiveness

Decision

Sasuke walked inside his house with cold feet, heavy feet and he just watched his wife from a far doing their dinner quietly, she had sensed him right?
Memories of seeing her coming out of the restaurant way before he had the idea to marry her played inside his head the time he thought she was dating her student, her back was turned to him and he took his steps slow, quietly he thought she would turn and explain or something but she let go of the plate in her hands and gasped falling to the ground making the uchiha stand with wide eyes.
She didn't sensed him!
She was a hyuga! And a ninja too!
Sasuke looked down at her with his darkest features what's with her?
She really didn't sense him?
Looking at her breathing hard on the ground trying to gather the pieces of the plate Sasuke knew his answer and for some reason he felt angry.
He said nothing as he turned and slammed the door behind him.
His steps were hard on the ground and wind was stronger as he walked faster away from her
He felt like he was someone else when he came back home like a stranger had controlled his body.
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Hiashi watched his younger daughter, the heiress of the clan training in front of him proudly, she never failed to amaze him with another one of her techniques but of course he wouldn't show it.
Because it was her duty and she's forced to do so for her clan, why? Because the older one failed them so
One of his guard knelt closer to his ears and whispered something for him and he nodded
Continuing to watch the future leader because she was more important to him than anything else
"Bring her tomorrow"
The only reply his guard received
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The sound of his feet on the wet ground was the only thing he heard hard and fast.
Replying everything that could reason the fire that burned in his eyes, questions were building inside
How would she be the mother of his children if she was so weak? Is that why hiashi agreed and welcomed him? Why didn't she told that kid yes to that question? And importantly Sasuke asked
(Where am i going?)
He had nowhere to go to, but he never stop Sasuke looked around him to the huge village he had nowhere to go to.
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Hinata gathered the pieces on the floor her hands shaking and in attempt to stop it and gather her courage hinata held both her hands in hope that it will stay still but the beating of her heart never stopped her breathing didn't slow.
'You're too weak to be a hyuga'
'What have i done to deserve this?'
Her disappointment in her father's voice raised in her head as if he was standing in front of her
Hinata slammed her forehead on the floor and it hurts but she was desperate to change to be another person to be Ino or sakura or maybe tenten.
Or maybe her husband...
Hinata stopped thinking when she remembered his features looking down at her it was frightening but yet he was surprised but that wasn't all when he turned and left hinata felt lonely, disappointed.
Knock knock
Hinata looked up didn't realize that tears had gathered in her eyes she wanted someone at that moment..
As fast she could she ran to the door and opened but No looking at the person made it worse it wasn't her husband hinata came face to face with one of the Hyūgas she stared at those emotionless eyes waiting for whatever he came to say
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Sasuke walked inside his sensei's office he had been wandering in the village until it was too late.
"What a wonderful surprise to see you visit"
Kakashi smiled behind his mask to his student who paid his sensei no attention
"But what brought you here Sasuke shouldn't you be resting for tomorrow?"
Sasuke looked around to the kage's pictures in the wall went from the first to the second and they sticked on it then it fell on the third then back to the second and to the 4th
Naruto's father, he guessed that he was cursing him from the sky for causing too much to his son
He wondered what he wanted now?
Sasuke himself didn't know what he was doing in his life he wasted a lot of his life and now he was in confusion.
He let go of his feelings to chase his goal, but where are these feelings now?
Where are these feelings are directed now?
"Sasuke"
His eyes finally fell on the sixth but not on the wall but to the man behind
"Are you having doubts?"
Sasuke stared at those dark eyes he wasn't surprised that his sensei could read him, he was always like that and that made the uchiha admitting his thoughts
"Did i make the right decision?"
Kakashi rested his pen looking up to his student with pity but he would never show it.
He thought deep of his answer and found nothing but..
"Both of you did"
He was right, Sasuke knew that
He married hinata out of love just to rebuild his clan
And she agreed on whoever propose for some reason
Sasuke knows all that but he didn't seem to want to let go of his life now.
"Why you couldn't force yourself to love her as you thought?"
He didn't even try, all he tried to do is make her under him and that's all, Sasuke was looking for what responsibilities he carried when he said that to the Yamanaka and goddamn that kid and why did he come here?
He forgot.
Sasuke was about to say that she didn't try either, that her student came and confessed but he bite his tongue
What if she lost her job? The only thing she get excited about, what if she hated him?
Sasuke walked to one of the chair and sat leaning his back on it and sighed she was driving him to nowhere, why was he mad?
"Hinata-chan choose to marry whoever propose she didn't know that it would be you"
Sasuke glared at his sensei
"What's wrong with me?"
But Kakashi only laughed "I meant it could someone worse than you"
Sasuke didn't know of he that was a compliment or an insult so he kept his glare.
"She did that for her clan, she's broken sasuke after her cousin's death she broke by blame and sadness until the hard working hinata who never give up vanished and turn to this hinata"
Kakashi looked up again
"And yet she still do things for her clan even last night i was surprised with her attempts but later i found it that those ladies who invited her tot the same table spoke badly of her clan and how they forced her to marry and she wanted to prove them wrong"
Then he returned to his papers mumbling
"I hope that won't get her in more troubles"
Sasuke's hope fell down it was as low as the ground beneath his feet he was disappointed and there was a tug inside of him he chose to ignore.
And here he was thinking that she was head over feet and she was crazy about him he felt a little happy when he thought that but now.
Disappointment was clear on his face, his fist were tight on his thigh and he chose to leave.
He wanted to walk again not knowing where but he wanted out, out of his head too.
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Sai stood waiting for the anbu squad on the tree he knew he was early but he couldn't wait to go back home and just lay down.
And spend many and many days reading anything
"They're almost here"
The youngest of his squad informed the captain and Sai nodded
His eyes narrowed behind the mask to the figure of the uchiha and his squad
No greeting... only information were exchanged
Sai mentioned for the youngest
"He will stay with you and give you all the information"
And that was all the rest of them flew away
Sasuke's eyes fell to the smaller figure in front of him
He hears his squad whispering behind him
"He must be hiroki"
"Is he?"
"I heard he's still 16"
The boy in front of him stared back behind his lion mask at first he thought he was a girl with that high long ponytail.
Sasuke mentioned for them to move and they all jumped
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They had been informed about everything, Sasuke was watching the young boy watching from a far the group of men going somewhere under the ground.
By his hands sign he knew that this kid was a hyuga
It was clear to him and he gave him a beautiful reminder of his brother when he used to be in the anbu at young age too.
"They're gathering around listening to the one in the front"
Sasuke looked at where they went as if he was going to see them
"The one with long white beard?"
"Hai"
Sasuke held the boy's shoulder and they jumped
Closer to where these people where.
Only this night and they would be home soon.
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Despite giving his back to the huge window behind him, kakashi knew that sasuke's hawk was behind the glass having his message.
Kakashi knew that sasuke was the right one to choose for this one.
He stood and moved his legs to the waiting bird
And took out the small scroll.
His eyes scanning the words carefully, he gave out a sigh of worries and depressing new he had for his poor advisor after he sent back the hawk with a small paper ordering them to be back.
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Hinata stayed at her house until afternoon the sun was fading but yet she couldn't bring her feet to move
'Hiashi-sama asked for your presence'
She could feel her knees shaking her hands tight on both sides.
Sipping from the water in front of her hinata shook her head and walked out the house to where the hyuga mansion where.
She knows why she was asked to be there and she had prepared herself but now she didn't want to
She wanted to run out this village to somewhere nobody would find her.
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Sasuke stood there in front of the hokage and his advisor both discussing something he wasn't interested in so he just stood there like a dull
His last mission was short, and something for kids to be but he was an anbu and anbu don't complain they just obey.
He didn't know what was going on even in his mission he fid what he was told to do his thoughts took him away from anything around him
To her, to him ,to his brother and this little hyuga that reminds of his brother.
"You both are dismissed"
Sasuke turned and walking towards the door but when he opened it Shikamaru stepped out first smirking at him
"Thanks Sasuke"
Sasuke glared at Shikamaru's back hoping he would see a dark fire burning his stupid hair.
Then he walked out too leaving the building still thinking of a way to kill that nara.
The breeze ran around him, filling his lungs and making him feel lighter until he thought
(Where do i go?)
He didn't know, darkness began to take over the sky and he really didn't want to go home.
His home where he loved the most but the place wasn't the problem it was her.. his wife.
He walked to wherever his feet take him
Not knowing where his destination would be he let fate decide to throw him somewhere but not home
Not to her...
And he found the fate drag him where he saw her before he decided to choose her to be his bride
This place where trees surrounded him and not the moon shining over his head it was pure darkness
The moon was covered by the clouds and he relaxed himself there letting all his uneasiness slip from inside him with the cold wind around him.
He was breathing slow letting his lung carry away the tightness in his chest.
this place gave him the relaxing No nightmares and no overthinking
Well it didn't take long until someone disturbed him
and for a second he thought it was his wife but no she was he sister he regret coming here
"Uchiha? What're you doing here?"
He leaned on the tree behind him annoyed that she interrupted his peaceful time
"I could ask you the same thing, hyuga"
Hanabi looked to him with a smirk
"What are you escaping?"
He knows that hanabi was nothing like her sister she got her father's personality.
And he added her to the people's he hate list that held many, many names on it.
The glare he gave was the only answer she got from him and she didn't mind it at all
"This where hinata and nejinisan used to train"
"And you came to train or escape?"
"Escape"
He was surprised with her honesty he didn't expect her to say it to him like that
"My father called hinata to come over and i hate seeing her bowing her head to them and listening to them scolding her like a kid without defending herself"
Sasuke's ears perked
(Hinata!)
"Wha- why?!"
The younger hyuga rolled her eyes as if that something he should get used to it
"You know before when she kissed in public she wasn't supposed to do that she's a hyu-"
No chance to continue he flew passed her like the wind hanabi looked at his spot and sigh
Hopefully he would do something to change that
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He was walking like nobody was around him, making his way through the crowd glaring to whoever comes across his way.
So what of she kissed him? They were known couple who got married months ago!
Sasuke could hear his steps hard on the ground beneath him his didn't even feel the pain in his jaw as he tightened it.
How dare that hyuga thinking that he could control his life?
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"Gomensai"
He words flew out of her mouth quietly the only thing she could say was an apology for something she didn't know if it was right or wrong.
She didn't hear their words she shut out everything around her.
Hinata couldn't breath in this wide room she couldn't breath she had no freedom nor power or strength to inhale.
Raising her hand to her chest
It's tight inside here..
So tight!
She could feel her face heated her tears caged in her in her throat burning her inside and she wanted to pray to the god to take her soul soon.
Few words were waking her up but she force herself to ignore them.
She did what she did for the clan, those women were speaking low of her clan, of these people around her.
She wanted to let go of one tear she wanted to wash herself with tears she wanted to wipe away those features on her face and become someone else.
Someone stronger, someone like her sister.
Hinata shut her eyes tight hoping she would become deaf but this voice keep going inside her head
"Get out of my way!"
She realized that the room around her became strangely quiet so she opened her eyes.
Looking behind her to the door and she spotted a darker figure standing there with darker clothes and darker features and darker eyes.
And for the first time she loved the darkness.
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He looked around to those people with all their fancy white clothes and she was standing in the middle when she spotted him  she stood
"Sa.sasuke-kun?"
his eyes never left hers.
And he gave no chance for anybody to speak, No words were spoke when he walked inside to his wife he didn't even see the hyuga's leader glare to the shoes sasuke was walking with inside his mansion How Rude!
But Sasuke was someone who was full of surprises he blew them away when he grabbed his wife's hand and pulled her towards him kissing her passionately
Righ in the middle of these old people.