Forgiveness

The ceremony 1

Tiredly Sasuke stumbled in his steps like drunk person despite hating this village but he was glad that he finally here
(Finally Home)
There was no wounds that need to be treated so no need to visit Sakura now and she probably had left work since it already late.
And he had time now so why not drink something
His last confrontation with Naruto, the blonde decided the next morning to act like nothing had happened and that he was drunk and doesn't remember anything and play his best friend role
Sasuke knows that Naruto remembered everything and he was hurt he knows that... but it's for the best.
Sasuke took his place in one of the stool and poured himself a drink gulping down until the last drop
Replaying what he said to Naruto inside his head while filling his cup again
And every time this liquid ran through his throat thoughts rained him
What if Naruto's big mouth had shouted out loud their secret? What if the people around him knew about it?
His thoughts flew to a far person who would be sleep by now, what would be her reaction?
They would take him again in that chair before he got out of prison asking him questions in that terrible wide room and the villagers would have no problem spitting on his face
But what would be hers
He imagined it
He would step inside and she would check his wounds and prepare a warm meal for both of them maybe there would be questions but no threats no glares nothing that would make him feel like an enemy..
But what was he to her?
And what was she to him?
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Sakura waited and looked at the door waiting for it to open and reveal the last uchiha standing and ask for her to treat his injuries
She had stayed when she knew that he came back from a mission she stayed until this late hour
She had waited and waited for that small thing to happen but it didn't...
She was irritated and pathetic
She had promised that she would shut away anything for the uchiha
But she was standing now like an idiot waiting for someone who had never thought of her
Sakura tightened her fists... Hard.
He might be now surrounded by hinata's arms
Or giving her a gift from the far land
They might be sharing one of their romantic nights together now..
She chuckled he was the only thing that she ever wanted gathering her papers and slamming them against her desk hard she cursed
"What if she wanted to end your pathetic attempts to win him, he never looked at you Sakura, how did this became Hinata's fault?"
Sakura walked out fast not afraid of the lightening nor did she care if it rained she just fastened her steps as if she was running away from a creep but that creep was nonexistent
It was only her thoughts she was running away from
She was running away from herself

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'Hinata what kind of flower do you like?'
She held the pillow tighter
'What kind of flowers do you think a sunny person would like?'
She wasn't a sunny person, he said she was the opposite from her but what does it mean?
She wasn't happy that she wasn't a sunny person
But she was still confused about what he meant
He always had these unfitting words for people but no matter how unfitting they're the meaning would reach them in the end Neji was always like that
Thud
Hinata opened her eyes wider, it was loud
Her thoughts began to jump inside her head making her heart fastened
What was that? Was it a ghost? Walking inside her house maybe it wasn't only one but two or more
Trying to get her out of the house!
Lighting was flashing outside her window
She got more scared by the sounds
Hinata held the pillow tight
What's wrong now? she had always wanted to be in the other side so why was she covering herself.
She was scared now
'You're a hyuga'
Gathering up her courage she activated her byakugan holding a kunai in her
Looking around the house she could sense someone
But they were nowhere to be seen it really frightened her more she didn't hate the weather but with ghosts around it wasn't as normal as she thought
Hinata opened the door fast of her bedroom and the lightening flashed again showing the figure of her husband standing there gazing at her.
It was just her husband
No ghosts, Nobody but her husband
Hinata was relieved
And before the sky lightening again
Her feet had run up to him and held into him letting go of her breaths in his chest
He felt the air she breathed against him
Deep and slow.
She didn't see his red cheeks or his steps or she would know he was drunk
But before anything else Sasuke wrapped his hand around her letting his head full with all it weight on her shoulders inhaling in her scent
"Would you hate me?"
His voice and the smell of alcohol woke her and she stepped back wide eyes shining with the lightening
Showing her confusion and embarrassment
"Gomensai!"
It became louder than she intended
"Welcome back Sa..suke..-kun?"
His eyes never left hers and hers never left the ground underneath them.
"Head up hyuga"
It came like a whisper but she flinched and thanks to the darkness he didn't see it.
"Go-"
"And stop apologizing"
She said nothing, her lips were tight shut
So he stumbled and walked to their room and threw his body on the bed closing his eyes.
Hinata was still standing there
'I hope you're not slacking off your duties'
Hinata turned and ran to their room how could she let him walk when he is drunk? How could she not know that he had returned?
But when she looked inside his eyes were closed and his chest raised and fell slowly, his breaths showed how tired he was, she let him rest without interrupting and walked to her side
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Shikamaru might the first one to wake up in the whole village the sun hadn't raised and yet he was walking to the office where he worked.
He didn't hate his job it was relieving him from his thoughts putting his stress on the work
Shikamaru loved it he always ask for more if he did all of it.
He was running away from all of the thoughts
his father's absent , the clan's duties, it's not like he wasn't facing any in his jobs, the council had ordered a lot of horrible thing covering it by lies and many lies why?
To insure their position for themselves only to enjoyed the wealth they have but where was the joy in it? They were suspicious and watching each other like animals waiting for the right time to eat each other's for what for a position!
But sometimes he had succeeded in convincing them to change their mind and sometimes he failed but at least he tried he had wondered what was Kakashi's idea of that?
But now as he opened his office that smell like dust and papers surrounded him
he wondered what was his father escaping from?
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It was late in the morning when Sasuke stretched his arms wide until they reached the empty space beside him and when he patted on it his eyes were widely open looking to the side
Where was she?
The sunlight that had flashed through the wind shut his eyes again tight he thought he lost his sight his head hurts and growl before slowly sitting down rubbing his face to avoiding any lights.
What made him drink?
His steps were unbalanced and slow he avoided the bathroom now
where was she?
Sasuke opened the door and walked to the kitchen
There was waiting for him his breakfast and a small note
'Good morning Sasuke-san
I had to leave early but I made this to help you with hangover'
He narrowed his eyes at the last few words
'Tonight is the Aburame's ceremony please don't forget"
(Huh?)
What was she talking about?
Sasuke grabbed his head thinking made his head hurts pulling the chair he seated himself
Not wanting to think of anything
But despite it all there was still one thought that jumped up and down inside his head
Why was she calling him Sasuke-san now?
Was she mad?
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Shino didn't expect kiba to be at his door this early it was still noon
But looking at his best friend he was relieved to see him he needed somebody by his side someone who knows that he was nervous someone he didn't have to act tough around.
"Nervous?"
Shino admitted immediately with nodding his head
Kiba laughed loud "why you just have to walk around and chat with people"
Shino looked at his kiba to lazy to explain the huge responsibility that awaiting him.
"But congrats I'm happy for you"
Well that had lifted some of the pressure he felt a little but he looked to the side of kiba then his brows furrowed.
He really missed her it's been a while since he last seen her she was pushing away every person tried to get closer to her and he didn't try he was afraid that she might add him too to the list of people she doesn't want to see.
"Do you think she will come?"
It was like kiba read his thoughts but he didn't try to deny it.
Shino nodded holding into a hope he wished it wouldn't fail him.
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The clouds were covering huge parts of the sun she hoped that it won't rain again it was still afternoon and yet she could see that it might rain
Tenten breathed again deeply trying to fit something inside her empty chest, it was always like that whenever she went to the cemetery.
She always go to train whenever she feels like this but the weather wasn't helping at all she felt this chills running through her body and she crossed her arms tight as if she was in the middle a snow storm
She felt her part shivering and she was afraid that she might fall.
But all of this was in her head only tenten got the same feelings whenever she went to see her teammate and by visiting one she would ended up visiting all of them it was a stupid, huge mistake that caused this war that caused so many lives.
"Did we really win?"
They did but it felt they lost, and they did lose
There were a huge amount of bodies that came without a life.
A life!
How can someone want to take a life away from someone? Without a real reason!
This was all because of emotions it was something they felt inside them that made this war!
Was emotions really that strong?
'Strength isn't only in your body because having a strong body doesn't mean you're strong. Self control if you could control yourself you're strong too'
(Were you strong when you threw your body like that in front of both of them?)
She thought.
How many lost there were in the wars before
Her sensei had told them once that every war came with a cost of people's lives and not only the heroes who died but more he said it  once lee had said that he was ready for a war to protect konoha
'People die in war, a lot but that not the only lost we have because when you intend to fight someone to death you have to remember that you won't be killing them only it means killing their mothers too or friends and the people waiting for them back in their home'
Tenten remembered when ino hesitated to kill someone instead she knelt beside him and healed him she stared in confusion she didn't understand that.
But she knows now
She could see gai-sensei's word in Hinata's face and his clan and her and the whole team.
She understood why ino chose not kill that person
She won't be regretting her decision now.
'There is someone waiting for him back home'
She knows now, tenten looked at the place her step took her and she found herself in front of where they used to train..
She closed her eyes imagining them train again
Maybe just maybe this darkness she held inside would go away.
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The sun was already hiding in the west and the couple was getting ready for attending the ceremony
Hinata looked at her husband after she finished herself and her hands reached his to help him fix his outfit and like always sasuke let her
(Does he remember anything from last night?)
Hinata was embarrassed with her actions the night before she was a coward and she even ran and hold him! Her cheeks heated and her brows frown when she remembered
(Ask him... just ask him)
Hinata parted her lips but nothing came only her breaths so she shut it again.
Sasuke was frowning whenever she did and raised his brows whenever she did too he was copying her expression sometimes she made him angry but then again she blow away the fire inside him and awake his curiosity bringing a lot of questions in his head
(Why is she mad? Does she hate me? What now? Surprised? No? She smiling!)
Hinata smiled when she finished proud of herself
(But not to me!)
Hinata turned and took her perfume to put some on her neck
Sasuke stared she didn't need it..
"Let's go"
He said when he put on his shoes
"Gomen, sasuke-san one more minute"
She wasn't looking at him other ways she would see his frown what with the san now?
"What happened? Hinata, didn't you decided last night to call me Sasuke-kun?"
He smirked when she gasped and turned slapping her red cheeks
(He remembers)