Lovable Zainab

chapter five

                  Chapter 5

          Zainab's POV.

I cried on my bed. Tears refuse to leave my eyes alone. I don't want any one to see me cry but I just couldn't help it. I stared at the ceiling maybe I could get an idea from it. The ceiling was white, the bulb hanging on it was also white and I realise that the ceiling in Fatima's room is also white. Why are all the ceiling's I've seen painted white? It may be because........ I'm an idiot. I have a serious problem and I'm thinking of ceiling. God! I'm stupid.

I can't get married. I'm not ready. I still haven't gotten a job. I don't wanna be dependent on any man because I like the concept of independent woman. I like my freedom so much and The thought of even leaving my father's house is terrifying I swear. It will mean I have responsibility and I don't want that at least not yet. Sometimes I wish I could be daddy's girl forever and be under the shade of my dad's protection, love and care but I know I'll have to grow up some day. Panic of growing older.

"Mama Zee why did lock your door?" That's Fati voice sounding concerned and worried. I'm in this mess because of her.

"Get lost." I yelled. I don't want to talk to her.

"Mama Zee for the sake of..... 

"Fatima hamman don't talk to me." I said with frustration. I always call people by their full name when I'm angry or frustrated by them.

There was silence. She was probably gone.  I don't bother to check. I don't want to know.

After about ten minutes, there came another knock on my door. These people won't leave me alone to think about how I'll approach my dad and explain the misunderstanding to him.

The knock continues. I groaned. "Leave me alone Fati I don't want to talk to you."

"It's not Fati, it's Amina, open this stupid door joor. You self you know I'll never come to knock on your door unless I have to so don't try me. I don't have your time." Well that sounds like she was serious. Amina never comes to my room except it's important or an emergency so I opened the door for her.

"What do you want?"

She used her eyes to scan my room then shook her head.  I could see her expression turning from uninterested to worried. "These things you are eating ain't good for you. You better stop." She advised me. Yes Amina sound like she cared but I don't want her questioning my eating habits. Just because she sees that my table is filled with junk food doesn't mean I'm not eating healthy. I'm not much of a eater but when I eat I make sure it contains A lot of calories. Duh I'm too thin I need to fatten up.

"Why are you here?" I asked again.

"Oh yeah." Now she has that uninterested expression again. "Fatima 😒is downstairs waiting for you."

"I don't want to see her." I whined. What does Fati even want to tell sef.

"Me too. So get rid of her." I gasped. This bitch.

"I should get rid of my best friend your future sister in-law?" I asked totally pissed off now. Amina just rolled her eyes. Even if Fati fucked up just a little by not telling me Yusuf's plan. I can never get rid of her she's family. "I can't, I'll go see her." I finally agreed to see the idiot.

"Good for you." She walked away. I bought out my phone to text Fati. I can't go down to her!  It's too much stress and I also can't yell her name  It will wake my father.

'My door is open idiot'. That's all I texted.

She came seconds later. The next thing I knew was I was getting hit by my pillow. She kept hitting me as I tried to escape from my bed.  She finally stopped when I fell from my bed hitting my butt hard. Aw!