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Prince: sorry again anx *Read*

*Personal Name changed~ Stupid_Villain*

Stupid_Villain: sorry again anx *Read*

Roman sighed as he glanced down at his final script. He could barely focus on it, not that he had to anymore. He was surprised that Patton hadn't given him a stern talking to yet but he's gotten nothing. Just that stupid time stamp saying it was read. He doesn't even know if it was Anx who read it... though it probably wasn't. It's been weeks since he's heard from either of the, and he was getting a bit lonely. He basically threw himself into his job. He almost forgot his character was supposed to die. 

He was exhausted... drained physically and emotionally. In all honesty he was happy he was finally done with everything but that just gave him more time to fret over that stupid time stamp. He had to have hurt Anx. And on top of that, He must have upset Patton too. Even though he didn't know Anx they've still talked for over a month together. They were friends... at least, that's how Roman felt anyway. He collapsed in on himself in broken exhaustion only to force himself to trade his script with his phone. Staring at the screen, he could still see that time stamp just mocking him.  

“Why am I doing this?” His hand twitched slightly as he started typing. “Right... because I'm a desperate insecure mess...” He couldn't hold back the broken laughed as his breathing started to get choppy. “The one and lonely Roman Black... ironic really.”

Stupid_Villain:*Long ass shitfest ahead and I'm sorry in advance~ 

Stupid_Villain: Dear Anx, There really isn't much I can say to you about what happen. I feel really bad about it but as someone who deals with it himself I'm sure you could understand me... when I say I was anxious myself. I'm not trying to make excuses. I don't care if you forgive me. I was an ass. I did to you, what I myself don't handle well. Jesus this is a lot to say in text lolz...

Stupid_Villain: I'm sorry for ignoring your texts. However, I feel I must stress I only ignored the first few. If I was aware of the fact that you were spamming me, I never would have stayed silent. It doesn't make any difference. The result and pain still happened regardless of the 'amount' of text I dismissed. In the end you still got hurt and for that I'm very sorry. I know you don't want to hear it, but I feel I must say it... because it is true. I am very sorry, Anx.
Stupid_Villain: I am an ass and... this isn't going to change that but... there is a reason why I went silent. As I said I was dealing with my own anxiety. I... can't go into much detail but I am willing to explain... just bare with me a bit if you are reading this.
Stupid_Villain: I am not a very confident person. I know shocker right. Even still I put on that 'princely' persona so that others don't see that. With my line of work, you HAVE to be confident. You HAVE to be strong and likable. But more than that you HAVE to have a reputation... people who follow, respect, and vouch for you. It was hell getting my name out there and I managed it a lot faster than anyone else... but that's the thing. I only got those open doors because of him.

Stupid_Villain: I... can't give you a name but know that he's a told dick.
Stupid_Villain: He helped me get myself out there and even landed me quite a few jobs. The problem was he wasn't as sweet and kind as I thought he was. No one was. The higher I got on the food chain the more people flocked to me... they were all fake. Him especially... There was a short period where he even convinced me that being something I'm not was far better in the long run because that was what people wanted to see. If I gave people what they wanted then... I would be happy because I would go further.
Stupid_Villain: Ironically that was around the time I met a girl. Actually it wasn't so ironic because he had planned it. I was so... desperate that I... I listened to every word he said he said like it was gospel. 

Stupid_Villain: I'm just gonna come out... *cue laughter... and say it because I'm already sharing a lot with you but... I'm gay.
Stupid_Villain: Yep... I'm a gay prince haha... anyway, he told me I had to save face and not let anyone know that. If I wanted to go far I had to appear to be... 'normal'. Like I said, he was a dick.

Stupid_Villain: I started dating the girl I met though it was really for show. She was more interested in her name than me but that was fine. I didn't really care. It's just... I started to really see how fake she was. Knowing the 'relationship' was a total scam made it easier to notice you fake 'love'. All the kisses and affection she would show while in public but behind closed doors it she basically ignored me like I was a fly on the wall.
Stupid_Villain: It also made it easier to spot it in the others. My so called friends... And him. When I started to bring it up he closed me off saying this was what it was like. Either I just 'shut up and follow like a good puppet' or I leave and give up on everything I wanted.
Stupid_Villain: I want to say I lost everyone I had close there but in all honesty they were just using me. I was alone. Completely alone save for one person.

Stupid_Villain: When you texted with Patton's phone I couldn't help but get scared. I trust Patton. And... logically I know that if he's friends with you then... you're obviously a good guy it's just... I went through all of this just last year and it really messed with me.
Stupid_Villain: I couldn't stop the fear that you all ready knew who I was and lied about everything just so that you could get close to me. I wasn't lying when I said I was insecure bitch. The idea of another person just using me and not actually liking me... I couldn't do that again. I fell hard into the pit of darkness. And... I'm sure you're aware of how hard it is to get out of.

Stupid_Villain: I really am terribly sorry Anx. I just... I fell back into that mindset that everyone just wants to use me and that wasn't fair to you. I was giving you a chance and... and I took that chance away without even thinking. I just jumped to conclusions and you didn't deserve that. *Read now*

Roman froze up instantly as the time stamp popped up. His hands were shaking so terribly he couldn't continue texting even if he wanted to. He just sat there with tears in his eyes until...

dad&anx: It's ok, princey..
Stupid_Villain: Anx?! *Read*

His breath hitched as he nearly dropped his phone.

dad&anx: I forgive you *Read*