Anna (Go With Him)

Chapter 35 "He's gone again"

Anna's P.O.V.

Maybe this is how things are meant to be. Even thought my heart was with John, I'd fight with my feelings every day to keep them away. I didn't have a clear mind, and all I knew was I loved him. Maybe this is the sign I was waiting for; I might stay with Julian. Julian forgave me, and he even started to get along with John because of me. If John is okay with that...I must accept it. This is my chance. Just because we're not a couple anymore, it doesn't mean we won't be able to have a close friendship. Maybe if I try really hard, I may achieve it. It'd be a challenge of course because I'm still deeply in love with him. I had to play good, and pretend it didn't hurt me. This is the best for all of us.

"John...are you sure?"

He bit on his bottom lip for a few seconds before he replied.

"I've seen how he treats you, and our children. He's perfect..." He said looking down.

I was hurting inside, but I didn't want him to see. There was a long silence followed after that. He didn't say anything else; he just walked over to the babies' crib, and took little Michael in his arms slowly. 

"Hi, baby boy. Did you miss your daddy?"

I love when he talks to the babies.

"Everyone's lying. He does look like me, doesn't he?" He looked at me with hope in his eyes.

"He's still very little, so we can't know by now. He has the typical baby face" I said.

"Then why does everyone say he looks like Paul?" He asked as if he was very offended.

"Well, have you seen Paul's face closely? He's had the baby face all his life"

"I hope they'll look like you; you're prettier than me" He smiled.

John, my love...if only...

"I want them to call me daddy too"

"Why wouldn't they? You are their daddy."

"Yeah, but Julian will be around all the time so, you know" He tried so hard to avoid the awkwardness.

"You'll be around all the time too, or won't you?"

"We're planning another long trip to Hamburg. We've already recorded there, and I'm afraid they will extend it up to one year"

"But you just came back? When are you leaving?"

Of course I didn't want him to leave yet. I wanted him to spend the first months of life of his children here with me.

"Not soon. Next spring maybe"

"Oh. That sounds better"

He nodded. His eyes were lost in his baby. He stroked his tiny redish cheek, and kissed his forehead. It was BEYOND ADORABLE.

"Want to switch now so you take a look at Emily?"

He nodded excitedly. He walked towards me, and carefully placed Michael on my arm. Then he took Emily from my other arm.

"She's so beautiful" He said amazed at her beauty. "I wish mum was here to see..." He mumbled.

"Same...at least I know she's somewhere flattered I named my baby girl after her"

Emily slowly opened her eyes, and started making baby noises. It drove him crazy. He laughed a little as he held her very close to his face.

"She smells delicious"

"Julian and Abby showered her earlier"

"She showered to see daddy" He kissed her cheek "I won't let any guy get any near you, my little princess" He said smiling.