Not So Fine | Yoonmin

Chapter 8

Jimin POV

Sitting in my studio since I'd released my comeback today, my head is spinning. I can't believe this has happened again.

I can't believe he would release pictures of my nudes to the world and then have the audacity to get on stage in front of everyone to have an interview and claim that he didn't release the video too. I can't believe he would hurt me this way. And... to claim that he loves me? What the fuck was that?

Though, the only reason I can even toy with the idea that he could possibly still love me, is because of the video circling the internet. The video where he's outside in the parking lot surrounded by my fans and reporters holding a half empty bottle of soju and screaming about being tired of getting attacked and how he's frustrated over seemingly not being allowed to love me.

He looks so damn sincere in that video, so full of pain... It makes it hard to figure out if what he'd said in the interview was a lie or not. It's the only thing giving me any sort of ideas that maybe he could still love me. That maybe he wasn't the one to do it. Though, it wouldn't make sense for anyone else to have done it...

I sigh, running my hands through my hair before pulling my phone out. There's only one person I know who doesn't seem completely fed up with Yoongi yet and that could've possibly seen everything that I have by now.

Within five minutes of sending Jungkook a text, he's knocking on my door. With a small sigh, I stand and let him in before returning to my desk chair while he sits on the plastic chair beside of me.

"What's up, hyung?" Jungkook asks curiously as he looks over to me. I purse my lips for a moment, trying to find the right words.

"You saw Yoongi's interview, right? As well as the video they have of him yelling outside the building?" I question quietly, still uncertain of all this. If Taemin were to walk in on us having this kind of discussion or sitting this close, he'd most likely lose his shit.

"Yeah, they weren't easy on him in the interview. Didn't last as long as it was supposed to either. I don't think he even stayed through half of it before storming out." Jungkook responds casually with a nod. I nod at this as well, feeling even more conflicted than before as I realize that he's right about him not sticking around for long.

"I'm so lost on what to do, Kookie. I know it's been seven months and that we've not spoken since the night the video got released, but I still kind of miss him. I never wanted these dreams alone, I always wanted all of this with him. I'm so confused though, because everything points and leads to him and then the pictures getting leaked and the interview and everything today. I don't know what to believe anymore. I never thought Yoongi would be one to do things like this to me. I-I... I still struggle to believe that all of this is happening." I whisper weakly, feeling as though I could cry.

"You've got Taemin now though, hyung. You've got a boyfriend and it isn't Yoongi. If he really does still love you, wouldn't you just be toying with his feelings to go and see him and say you miss him?" Jungkook points out gently. I bite my lip, squeezing my eyes shut for a moment.

"I know but I never fell for Taemin. I would take Yoongi back in a heartbeat if I was certain he wasn't the one to leak all of these private things of me and knew he still wanted me too." I whimper quietly, feeling somewhat defeated at the moment.

"Wouldn't you be leading Taemin on then?" Jungkook questions carefully. I groan quietly in frustration, rubbing my hands over my face roughly.

"I know, Kookie, I know. Either way, I'm leading someone on. I just want answers right now though. I just want to know the truth. I want to know what really happened." I huff out, growing tired for all of the games.

"Then go see Yoongi. Talk to him. Find out the truth. Get his side of things. Remember, there's always three sides of stories. Your side, their side, and the truth. You've been living your side of the story for months on end now, without having a clue to his side of it. You never saw anyone confirm officially as to who leaked everything. He's got his own side of everything as well. See where that gets you for now. After that, slow down and start thinking things through a bit more. What you want from Yoongi after the conversation, what you want from Taemin, and what you're going to do about all of it. But first, you need to get Yoongi's side, and you have to actually listen rather than fight off everything he says with the shit rumors you've been told for the last seven months."