Sienna Asma

Family

Cole

I fold my t-shirts and put them into my suitcase. I don't know how long we'll be gone, but hopefully we can buy more clothes if needed. I add folded pants and shorts, along with a lot of socks. I only pack five pairs of shoes, which I'm sure would drive Dean crazy. He needs at least one pair of shoes for every day of the week. And that's the minimum.

Dean probably doesn't care about what shoes I wear. He probably doesn't care about me. I've already experienced my share of self-pity, but at times like this, it threatens to drag me under. I just... miss them so much. I'm full of longing and regret. I want Sienna back home, sipping tea with Dean on the couch, Theo running his fingers through Dom's hair, and me sitting silently by them, taking it all in. I can see the visual so vividly, that my throat clenches and a few tears drop.

"Cole," Theo calls from my doorway. I turn away from him, not wanting for him to see me crying.

Theo has been coming to me crying lately. Either Dean or Dom had yelled at him. I can take being yelled at, it's the silence I hate. It's been silent this whole month and I want to beg for someone to talk. I'd rather be yelled at, then cast in an icey silence. But that's what Dom and Dean have been doing. I don't know how to fix this. I don't think I can fix this, because we aren't speaking. After the Soldiers showed up yesterday and left, they went right back to ignoring us. I only have Theo now.

"Yeah?" My voice is rough. Much rougher than its ever been. I know for a fact Theo knows I was crying.

"Dom said we're meeting in the Room," he informs.

I finally turn to him and wish I didn't. Theo looks adorable in his oversized sweatshirt and sweatpants. His glasses hide most of his face, but not his agony. When I look at his lips, all I can see is them on Mia's. I hate him. And I hate myself. We ruined one of the greatest things I ever had. I don't know where to go.

"Okay," I turn back to my pack and zip it up. Then I follow Theo out my room and to the elevator. It's silent. When we get out on his floor, it's still silent. When he comes back with his suitcase and bags, the only sound is the roll of the wheels. The elevators ding close loudly, and I can hear the sounds of the gears working. The doors open once again and we walk to the Room.

Dean's head snaps up at our entry, and he looks away just as fast. I take my seat, Theo sitting by me, and Dom sits by Dean. No one looks at each other as we wait for someone to start the conversation.

"Just because," Dom begins, "just because we're on a mission together to find Sienna doesn't mean..." he trails off before clearing his throat. "It doesn't mean we're together."

I nod my head in agreement even though it hurts. Theo, however, isn't content.

"What does this mean? Let's say we find Sienna and get her back, then what? Will we..." Theo lets out a low breath. "Will we ever be together again?"

His question is laced with the tiniest bit of hope along with dread. I dread the question too. I don't deserve to be with either of them, but I want to be. They made me happy and I want to be selfish and keep that happiness.

Haven't I been selfish enough?

"One step at a time," Dom says, avoiding the question. "Right now, we need to find Sienna and make sure she's safe. This Leader Hill seems to have answers, so we'll go with him. But," he holds up his pointer finger and points at us, "the minute you feel in danger or uneasy, we leave. We can't save Sienna if we can't save ourselves."

"I don't care if I'm in danger," Dean mumbles. "I don't care what I have to do to get Sienna back."

"You can't talk like that," I snap at him. The playfulness in Dean's eyes is gone, and he's obviously exhausted. But, just because we fucked up doesn't mean he gets to throw his life away. "You have a family."

"A family who betrayed the hell outta me without a second thought," he snarls.

Theo flinches by me, but I expected that. "I'm not talking about us. You have Alexis and Charlie," I clarify. "You can't die. You don't know what that'll do to them."

"Oh and you think you can?" He asks scoffing.

"I'm not planning on dying anytime soon, but I'll always put my life on the line for you guys," I tell them honestly.

"That's bullshit! You think you dying would make up for you cheating!?" Dean is angry now, pain and despair written all over his face.

"Nothing could make up for doing that. I'd die for you guys if we're together or we're not." I keep my voice calm, not wanting to yell and say something I don't mean.

"We're not doing this," Dom says coldly. His sharp voice cuts through the raging atmosphere, and Dean bottles up his emotions once again. "We're gonna get on a plane and go to Leader Hills' place. I'll make sure we have separate rooms, but be close together. We'll find Sienna, and then come back h-" Dom doesn't finish his sentence even though it's obvious what he was going to say.

But, this doesn't feel like a home anymore. Not with Mia's presence tainting it and Sienna's missing laughter. Theo doesn't even want to live here anymore, and I don't think I want to.

If we never get back together, I'll leave.

"Sounds like a plan," Dean grumbles, standing to leave.

*

We get out the car and I stare at the large, extravagant building. People, or should I say Soldiers, come in and out. The three Soldiers who picked us up; their names Soldier Rachel, Soldier Kiel and Soldier Tyler; walk up to the imposing building. Dom follows with Dean walking next to him. Theo and I are in the back walking silently.

"Welcome! It's so nice to meet the people who made my angel so happy," the man, Leader Hill, claps his hands happily.

None of us say anything as Leader Hill runs his eyes over us. He looks delighted to see us, its unnerving.

"Well thank you, Soldiers. You may take your leave," he tells the Soldiers in front of us. They deactivate, the gold leaving their eyes, and immediately the women smiles brightly.

"When you're ready, I can show them around," she says to Leader Hill before walking into the building. The two other Soldiers grab our suitcases and bags then leave. We're alone with Leader Hill, who's smile is pissing me off.

"Please, follow me," he instructs, turning around.

Dom looks back at me and our eyes connect. He seems to be saying that once we go in, there's no turning back. There's something about this place, the Soldiers, and Leader Hill that makes me weary. Like we may learn some things that will change our lives, and we may be only able to trust each other.

But, I love these men with my whole heart and I trust them with my life, I have no hesitation when I follow after Leader Hill.