The Guilt Consumes

Chapter 28

It's been one week. One week since I last saw Leonie; my biological mother. It's been weird, knowing that I've met her, know how she looks and lives quite near to us. And yet, I find myself scared of running into her one day. It hurts. The pain still hasn't gone. Knowing that she didn't fight for me. Fight to keep me... it hurts. But, I'm getting over it now. I have dad, mum and Leith. I also got Reagan back and now I have Liam. It all seems too perfect. And I'm scared of perfection. Perfection is my life long enemy. It has been since the night Jackson died. Everything had been perfect for me then. Until it all got snatched away.

And it happened on that very night.

My phone stares to ring. I look at the caller ID and then smile. I place my book mark on my page and place the book down to my side. I answer the call and his voice fills my ears.

"Babe, what are you doing right this second?" I smile and answer.

"Talking to you"

"Oh right" I hear him chuckle and i laugh. "What I meant was what were you doing before I called?"

"Well, I was reading" I wait for his reply but it's silent. Jackson hates me reading all the time. He doesn't mind it, but he hates me reading when it's a constant.

"Ugh, put that book away. You're going to a party" I sigh and sit up straighter.

"Jack, I can't and you know I can't. I'm grounded. Mr Wilmore called home and told dad that I've been missing his classes for a few days. Dad grounded me the second he got off of the phone" i mindlessly play with the tassel of my bookmark.

"What if we sneaked you out?" I contemplate this. Mum is out, she's always out and she hardly ever comes home. Out with one of her toy boys most likely. Dad goes to bed early. And Leith, well Leith is a really heavy sleeper. So, all in all, no one will know I'm gone.

"When can you get me?" I ask and he celebrates on the other line.

"That's my girl. I'll be there in 15 Okay?"

"Okay, don't be too late."

"Okay. See you then beautiful. I love you" I smile and bite my lip. "You're biting your lip aren't you?"

"How'd you know?"

"Because you always do when I say that" I laugh quietly and shake my head.

"I love you too. Bye"

"Bye" I hang up and place my phone on my nightstand. I sigh in contentment. I decide that it's enough of being all up in my feelings and pick out an outfit to wear. I decide on wearing a midnight blue sequinned dress that reaches my mid thigh and has spaghetti straps. I pair it with my black heels and decide to curl the ends of my hair and put it into a ponytail. I start my make up which is a smokey eye look and nude lipstick and all the other essential. I get ready as quietly as I can and wait for Jackson to come. I hear a text message on my phone and I see it's from Jackson saying he's here. I grab my heels and bag and quietly open my door and sneak down the stairs. I open the front door and successfully shut it without making a sound. I run to his car and open the passenger side and give him a long kiss.

"Ahh, I've missed you gorgeous" he kisses me again. I only pull away when I hear someone clearing their throat. I look to the back seat and see Reagan.

"Hey" I wave at her and she waves back. "Didn't know you were coming too"

"Well, I wasn't supposed to but lover boy here thought if I came, you'd be more relaxed" I look at Jackson to see him shyly smiling at me.