Come Home Adopted by 5SOS

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TRIGGER WARNING: SELF HARM AND EATING DISORDERS!⚠️

Thank god I'm back home. That hospital was torture.
As I stepped in the house with Michael holding my hand, I felt a shiver go through my body.

"God it's cold!" Luke said as I nodded.

"First, heating, then dinner, then pack for tour." Ashton said causing us to groan.

"Hey, we have to. Tours in 2 days." Ashton said turning the heating on.

"Imma get a bath." I said heading upstairs.

"Be careful!" Luke shouted as I walked into my room.

I looked around to find a few hot topic bags on the bed with a note next to them.

Hey babe.
I know you never got to go to HotTopic so me Luke and Calum all went out and bought things for you.
We wanted to make you feel safe. I know you have only been staying with us for like a month but we wanna make you feel loved.
Trust me, the demons, voices and pain will soon go.
Love Mikey xx

I started tearing up as I finished reading it.
Knowing they really do care makes me happy.

"I'm guessing you read it then?" Michael said with a small giggle and smile.

I ran to him and engulfed him into a hug.
He wrapped his arms around me and kissed my cheek softly, gently rubbing my back.

"You know how much we love you Sweetheart, never forget that ok?" Luke said as I hugged him as well.

"You haven't even seen what's in them yet!" Calum giggled out as I hugged him.

"I-I don't need to!" I said holding back tears.

"Why are you crying babe?" Michael said as a small tear fell.

"I-I guess n-no one has ever really do-done this for me." I said as they frowned slightly.

"We really do love you Ivy, we really really do." Luke said, hugging me.

"Right, go for a bath and after we'll show you what we got you, Sound good?" Calum said as I nodded.

They shut my door over leaving just me in my room.
I grabbed Michaels hoodie and some shorts and walked to the bathroom.
I put in a bath bomb and turned the water on.

I started to take my clothes off until I looked at the scales.
I sighed and pinched the fat on my skin.
I stepped in them.
112.3 LBS

"Shit." I muttered to myself.

15 pounds in a few weeks. Absolutely disgusting.

As the bath slowly filled up, I knelt at the toilet, debating if I should or not.

I decided to.

I lodged my fingers down my throat and started gagging. My stomach and throat throbbed as I felt vomit creep up my throat.
I finally threw up, shaking and breaking the clean streak.
I felt better. Everything was gone. I'm almost there.

I sighed and flushed the toilet and got up from the floor, gripping onto the sink as I kept shaking.

I hopped into the bath feeling all the tenseness and pain in my muscles ease off. I started poking the fat on my legs and almost gagged at the fat on them.
I felt and herd my stomach growl loudly, I haven't ate anything in almost a day.

I looked at my old scars on my skin, feeling mad as i had flushed all my blades away.

Wait? Michael has blades in the toiletry bag!