This pain is getting to me even if I don't try it comes and get's me to feel alone like always.The pain in my heart can't beat the pain in my head and that's a lot of pain.I been going through so much and I don't know what I am doing anymore because one moment I am happy the other sad it's like if I have two life one which makes me happy and smile the other that gave's me pain and sadness .I wish I could understand why I feel like this all the pain is around me but I act like everything is fine but it's not as much times as I make my self think that everything will be fine and it's going to be ok it hurts me.Most people don't ask me if I am ok anymore I lost a lot of people who I care about and they left me like if I was nothing to them.This story helps me get all of my anger away I don't know just writing makes me feel happy I guess.The more we get through this year the less I see my friends and the more I lose them one by one.My old friends I wouldn't see them until a year or so and that makes me exited for next year of school.I have not talk to Deathpower in a while I wonder how she is doing and what she been up to .The more this school goes by the less and less I see her.I miss how deathpower should to be we were so close yet so far away. Now I wonder did the universe made this happen me feeling my pain a losing my friends the more we go by and now I still wonder why I am here.Is it just because god wanted me to feel as much pain as I feel now I guess he does because as much as I try to talk to him he never listens or not that I know.I will alone I guess I have to fight this pain by my self and it's just me now to fight this pain bye Until the next chapter.
