My diary of life

All i feel is pain

This world has been nothing but cruel to me.My world has been falling a part I act like I can do everything but I can't.I can't i it anymore I can't just Pretended that everything is fine anymore.I can't deal with they fact that I will never find someone.The people who I finish liking never like me they finish liking my friend and they forget me.I feel like I am useless in this world.I feel like all this world has gave me is pain that I don't want to feel again.As much as I pretend that everything is fine it's not.I am tired of knowing that I am nothing that I am not good enough for people anymore.I am tired of saying that I am ok when I know I am not.People keep reminding me that I am not good enough anymore.My friends say that I will find someone who will like me for me.But I know its not true the last person who I have liked doe not even like me they like my friend not me.That made me realize that I am never going to be good enough for someone because I am ugly every day I keep telling my self that I am never going to be good enough for him and that I am never going to be pretty.I have to deal with the fact that I am not good enough.Most people that say they will never forget get me they finish being the first to forget get me and sooner or later they will leave me like my last year best friend who said she will never stop being my friend and look at it now she left me alone.I know I have a lot of people who care about or who say that care about me but how is that going to help me if I can't even care about myself.I wish I could find someone who will like me for me and I wish my life would get better but it doesn't it just gets worse and I just can't deal with it anymore.I wish I could change myself to be pretty and so that I could be happy and so that could care about myself.I wish I could change but I know that I can't change anything I just have to continue Hiding how I feel about everything and I guess I will just have to sleep it off for today until next time.