My diary of life

Nothing goes my way it all goes wrong

All I have gotten are tears.I am not pretty or skinny or attractive.But I am fat,ugly,horrible and I feel like no one cares about me.No guy had like me and they guy I like said that I was not his Type when I know its not because of that it's because I am not pretty or skinny or attractive.I am a horrible person all i touch I destroy it with one touch.Every time I try to move on I keep hurting myself when I am trying to rebuild my confidence I fall apart.Life has been nothing but cruel and horrible to me all I have done is tried to make my life better but it gets worse every time.When I am around someone I like I get nervous or I walk away or I can't even look at them in there eyes.This boy that I have like for a long time said that I am not his type I can't help to cry and cry until the point I have up and then I start to have a mental break down and no one knows that this happens to me.All I want is someone who will like me for me not for my looks but for my personality.I wish the guy i like would look at my personality because I can be really nice and over protective with my friends when someone hurts them.Why am I never enough for someone.Every time I try to give myself chance to like someone I keep getting hurt and I don't want to feel this pain again.I am not afraid of liking someone I am afraid of liking the wrong person because I don't want to get hurt again like this.I know I am being dumb for this but I still like this guy who said that I am not his type because every time I try to move on I started to think about him and then I don't want to move on.Yet I keep getting my self hurt and here I am being a fool of my self saying that everything will be fine when I know it will never be fine.I have gotten hurt any times but never like this time when my friend told that he said that he did not like me because I was not his type all I told her was ok.Then I hung up and then I started to cry I started to cry like I never done and I am still crying right now while writing this chapter of this story.I am a broken person that can never be repaired because I been broken even more by someone who hurts me I hate it but I just can't help it to cry even more.I want him to be happy even if it's not with me even tho it hurts me.I think this is the end or this chapter.