I tired being happy it all falls apart.Most people don't understand me they get tired of me and then they leave they all leave me behind and they continue with their life.I guess I am fine with it but I just wish my best friends where to help me get through the thought in my head that have made me sad and depressed all this years.I have tired everything you can think of to be happy I have to fake being happy so that I don't feel out of place with all of my friends.All my friends or like people that I know who I feel like they don't really know me for who I am.I am here I class and all this thought got to my head and I can't deal with it.I am the only person in my group who is not happy with one.I am far away from getting my self esteem up and from confidence that I should have.I can't deal with this pain in my heart of see all of my "friends" are getting mad at me and they leave me.I guess I am not good enough for them so I am going to get away from everyone.Like mom says "En este mundo no hay amigos solo dolor,desamor, y tristeza" in other words in this world there's no friends just pain,heartbreaks and sadness.I am going to be by myself or with some people who know me a little and I am going to think about with people who i am friends with and i am going to do something.I feel like my best friends are so far away from me that are they are busy and I don't get to talk to them again.I guess my I do destroy everything I touch.I am not good enough for anybody because they all just leave me.I wish people knew what's going on with me at home or at school but I keep quiet because I don't think they will care of what I am going to say.
