Unrequited love

quatorze

"Hey, Marina. So, I won't be in the city for some time, just wanted to let you know." I put a tshirt on and almost fell because well, it's kind of hard to have a phone in one hand and having Matty kissing my neck all the time.
"stop it." I whispered to him, smiling as I did so. 
"okay." was all she said and I could hear her sighing.
"Marina?" 
"yeah?"
"Look, I'm sorry for yesterday. Also, what's up with you and that guy Adam?" I could see her blushing a bit and giggling, or maybe she wasn't like this in this moment since she was obviously in a bad mood.
"all he wanted was sex. anyways, I have to go. Enjoy." the beeping sound filled my ears and I turned around to Matty.
"Adam? who's adam?" 
"just some dick who messed with Marina, my best friend. why?"
"In my band, there's one Adam. I bet they're not the same person though. My Adam has a girlfriend so.." I laughed slightly, taking his hands into mine.
"Well I hope it isn't the same person since I'm going to beat that guy's ass." he smirked.
"as if you could." I showed him my tongue and went to the kitchen for a glass of water. It was already 1 pm and I couldn't wait to do this somehow stupid thing with Matty. After all, this is going to be just another great story, right?
I went back to his room and sat down next to him.
"you're so beautiful." his voice sounded so honest, I almost believed him.
"just look at yourself."
"your spine, your hips, everything just fits perfecty." his fingers traveled up and down my spine, making me shiver. I turned around and hugged him. 
we just stayed like that for a while, me in his lap and our arms around each other. It felt like home, I felt safe. Him rubbing my back calmed me and his gentle kisses on my neck made me feel wanted and apreciated. 
Then again, was it only an illusion because of loneliness? 
I didn't want my negative thoughts ruin the moment I was in, so I pushed those thoughts aside and thought about how much he meant to me even if I only knew him for like a month or so. Some people just understand you and maybe that's why you become so attached to them. When you find them, you don't feel that alone anymore. It's not like you don't know that there are people who have problems like you have, but they're not there with you. 
But he was with me.

a/n: sooooooooooo short but i wanted to update, ok so this week is gonna be so hard, i have a physics test and a russian one (probs) and i can get a grade in chemistry and slovene and i have an english test so yay me, guess who didn't study ??? MEE.

also this part is dedicated to @theyrejustgirls because she's so lovely and kind. make sure to chekc out her fanfic:) x

ok haha im gonna go to bed. night x