Still Holding On (A Daniel Howell x reader)

Chapter 31

"Actually Y/n we do need to talk."

"Is that a good thing?" I say, smiling slightly, but soon changes seeing Dan's expression.

"I don't know. Just come with me for a walk, please."

"Uh okay."

Phil says 'bye' and Dan and I walk outside. It's honestly freezing and I didn't grab a coat. Fuck me.

"You cold?" Dan asks, looking at me.

"No."

"Stop lying."

"Im not."

"You are. Your teeth are chattering."

"I'm fine Dan," I smile at him.

I'm really wondering why he wanted to talk to me. Or at least what he wanted to talk to me about.

"You're thinking.

"Hm?"

He laughs slightly. "I said you were thinking. Anything in particular?"

"Yeah. What did you want to talk to me about?"

"Here, let's stop by the park and sit on the bench," he suggests. He's acting weird.

"Okay."

We walk to the park and sit on the closest bench. I decide to look up and see that the sun is finally going down. How long were we at that plaza and at Phil's house?

"Is there anything you like in the sky cause you're really staring it down," Dan says, laughing.

"I just realized that the Sun was going down. How long was I asleep?"

"A few hours. I didn't want to wake you at all so I just left you alone."

"Well thank you. Wait, how did I get back to the flat?"

"I carried you."

"You carried me? You held my fat ass body from the plaza to yours and Phil's flat? Why? You should've just left me there."

He laughs slightly, "you aren't fat and I would have left you there knowing dickhead was there."

"Who- oh Derek...Im sorry about that by the way. All I do is cause problems and make matters worse."

"You don't, love. You make life a lot better. Yes, we all have a past and some things we can't run away from but thats okay. You can't control that. I'm glad you're still around."

"Yeah? Thats surprising to hear someone say that."

He leans in and kisses my forehead. "You haven't done anything wrong Y/n."

My cheeks grow warmer and warmer by the second and honestly, I dont mind. Im pretty sure he can't tell that I'm blushing because of how cold it is. His cheeks are red too, whether that's from blushing or the coldness.

A large cold gust of wind flows through the air and hits me hard, making shiver. Dan puts his arm around me and pulls me closer to him, making my body press up against his side. I lay my head on his shoulder and look at the stars.

"Did I tell you how much I love you?" I say, smiling.

"No."

"Well, I love you a lot. Despite our arguements and brickerings. When you had told me you had fallen in love with me, I felt like crying because I wanted that sentence to be said to me by someone I truely loved." I pause. "In that nightmare I had, I didnt kill myself because you didn't try and stop me...I did it because I feared what I thought about before I did it. I was afraid of you not loving me. When my body was about to hit the water, I told myself one thing and that scared me the most. I told myself that I've fallen for you. Now that I'm sitting right here in front of you, I'm not that scared."

He didn't say anything at first and I didn't really expect him to. He openeed his mouth and then closed if preventing himself from saying anything. He looked happy that I said that but then there's that little hint of guilt that I can see in his features.

He looks at my lips and doesn't even hesitate to connect his to mine. I have been longing for this kiss and I didn't even know it.

As soon as it starts, its stops. Dan keeps his forehead on mine and we laugh slightly.

"How fucking cliche was that?" He says.

"Pretty cliche but its okay. I enjoyed it, cliche or not."

He laughs and gets up, reaching a hand to help me up. I grab it and we start walking. I grab his hand and he intertwines our fingers. But, I just got a question.

"Hey, Dan?"

"Hm?"

"Are we together?"

"That's what I wanted to talk to you about..."

"Oh."

"Well, Y/n, I was wondering if you wanted to go to the cinema Saturday night?"

"Of course Dan. What movie do you have in mind?"

"I was thinking a horror movie. Maybe Pandora's Box?"

"Sounds lovely Dan. Thank you." He just asked me on a DATE. A DATE MAN.

"Thats a first."

"What?" I asked confused.

"You said that a horror movie was lovely," he said smiling.

"Don't judge meee," I whine.

"I will judge you."

"Noooo," I whine, pulling on his arm like a child.

"It's Daniel Howell!" I hear a girl scream.

I let go of his hand a take a step away from him.

The girl came up to us with two other friends and looked at us with smiles. Well, looked at Dan with a smile. One of the girls glared at me and the others smiled.

"Who are you?" The girl who glared at me said with her nosed scrunched.

"I'm a friend of Dan's."

"Why would he want to be friends with someone like you?"

"Hey, can you not speak to her that way?"

"Do you know her?"

"Yes. She's my girlfriend. However, what makes you think you can talk to someone like that? Would you like it if someone talked to you like that? I wouldnt think so. You dont even know her to even judge her, let alone tell her who to be friends with. I have a life and my own friends so I dont need you guys being my body guards. If I chose a toxic person to be friends with, then thats my fault. I just know that Y/n isn't toxic so you guys have nothing to worry about," Dan lectures but doesn't yell.

"If she's your girlfriend, what about Phil?" The girl asks while the other girls stay quiet.

"Phil and I are just friends. Like we have said. Everything we do is platonic, okay?"

"Okay. Sorry Dan." The girl says, looking at her feet in guilt.

"I'm not the one you should be apologizing to, but I accept your apology."

"Sorry Y/n. I was rude and I should have been. I trust Dan's opinion about you."

"I forgive you. And if I hurt him at all, I give you permission to beat my ass."

All three girls laugh at my joke and nod in agreement. One of the girls whispers something in Dan's ear and his face flushes red. He nods and looks at us again.

After a bit of talking and taking pictures, we walk to the flat. I hope his fans will like me.