Still Holding On (A Daniel Howell x reader)

Chapter 32

Dan and I enter the flat and see that Phil's asleep on the sofa. We bith laugh and walk back into his room. Dan grabs his laptop and sits on his bed. He pats the spot next to him, telling me to sit down. I do so and we lay down with him having the laptop on his legs.

"What are we doing Mr.Howell?" I say, crossing my legs.

He puts his arm over me and pulls me into his chest and says, "How about some tumblr scrolling?"

"Fine by me. I love seeing fanart for you and Phil, even if its with you and Phil kissing," I laugh.

"Yeah, but sometimes they scare me," he said laughing.

"I mean, I'm probably scare you too. Look at me."

"Stop. You're beautiful."

"Ha, you're funny."

"I'm not lying."

"Majority rules," I say, like a child but I don't care.

"Who said something bad about you?"

"Not anyone but myself lately. But a lot of people in my past, including my parents. I was and always will be the ugly fat bitch that no one loves. I'm surprised you love me."

"I do and always will. You aren't any of those things people have called you. Majority may rule, but kindness overrules it all."

"Why are you so smart?"

"I'm not, unless the truth is smart."

"I guess it is then," I say.

Why is he so sweet? It's cute but overwhelming. What if he's lying? What if he doesn't really love me? What if-

"Y/n. Stop overthinking. I promise I love you."

"How the fuck?"

"You are an open book Y/n. Just the right person can read it."

"Oh. I'm sorry. Like you said, Im just thinking."

"Stop, love. Here, why don't we look at some fanart?"

"Okay. Thanks Dan."

"No problem."

So that's what we did. We browsed through tumblr. We saw little jokes and memes. We saw some amazing fanart. We saw fans with Dan and Phil. We saw fans doing covers. They all are so amazing and talented. I don't understand. What did I do to deserve these two? People would kill to be in my position.

Though, something is on my mind. Phil never told Dan that he was gay. Is that because he's grown an interest to Dan?Does Phil like my boyfriend?

"Hey. You alright?" Dan asks, looking down at me.

I stare at him. His curls cover his face slightly. His soft brown eyes are staring at me with such love. I dont know. He is just beautiful. I don't understand.

"Yeah, I'm okay."

"Okay."

A breeze blows into the room making me cold. I shift closer to Dan, until I'm like on top of him. He laughs and looks down at me again.

"Cold?"

"Just a bit."

He took the laptop off of his chest and set it down on the nightstand. He shifts, making me end up on top of him. I'm laying on top of him, but damn, I'm warm. You know what would make me warmer? Nothing Y/n. Nothing.

I look up as best as I can and he smiles at me. It makes my stomach toss and turn. I lean up and straddle him accidently. He smirks and sits up, making me sit on his lap.

He pulls me closer to his chest and kisses me. I wrap my arms around his neck and continue to sit on his lap. His tongue demands entrance into my mouth and I let him this time. Our tongues do a war and I lost dominance.

He turns and makes me lay down on the bed with my back against it. He hovers over me with lust in his eyes and stares at me.

He leans down again and kisses me roughly, making his lips go from my lips to my ear, sending shivers down my spine. His lips go from my ear to my collarbone, kissing my skin.

I moan in delight and he smirks against my skin. He knows he had found my soft spot. He sucks on it, making me bite my lip so I don't moan at all.

He kisses my lips again and when he decides to stop, he lays there next to me.

Wow. That's all I can say. I'm 20 and that is the first time I made out with someone. A lot of my firsts are with Daniel and I dont want them with any other person.

Daniel makes me so happy and I've only known him for 5 months. I want Dan to be the person I spend the rest of my life with. The person I wake up next to every morning. He is my everything. I'm glad I have someone like him in my life.

I lean against him and I feel my eyes start to become droopy. I close them and eventually I fall asleep on Dan.

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Dan's POV

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I look at Y/n and see she's asleep. She's so beautiful. I don't understand. I look on her neck and I smirk at the small mark I made. I shouldn't be but now people know that she's mine.

I'm so glad to have met Y/n 5 months ago. She is my everything. We fit together like a puzzle. We have a connection that I've never had with any other girl. We are lovers. More like actual soulmates.

She is the girl I've grown to love. She is the girl I want to wake up next to every morning. She's the girl I want to spend the rest of my life with.

I know, I am moving a little quickly. That's why I'm worried how our relationship will end up. Both she and I are moving quickly and that could affect everything.

I just don't want to lose her.